The soul mate YOU sent

Chapter 13 Dreams

The clock was twelve o'clock at night, and I just walked into the house. I am very tired today. Not only because this morning I walked with Mas Zaky until my afternoon shift began. But also because pediatric patients increase rapidly with the spread of dengue fever virus. There's a lot to do when patients are a lot like this. The nurses were made to work twice as fast. Fortunately, my baby's dedek never fussed other than in the morning.

After cleaning myself, I put my body on the bed. Haaah, it feels very comfortable after a day of just being able to stand and sit. I looked at the ceiling of the room and came across the memory of going on a road with Mas Zaky this afternoon. Well you could say the first stage ta'aruf today was quite smooth. Our chat was also very connected even though it only exchanged general information about ourselves, although I was interrupted when he called my name with a call that Mas Damar always used. The rest, I enjoyed it.

Before intending to sleep, I took the time to check my social accounts. There may be news of Mas Damar. But that hope was immediately dashed when not a single notification came in from both my accounts. I put my phone down in disappointment. And hope there'll be news tomorrow morning. I plan to go visit Mama Sekar tomorrow. I heard he was not well. Probably because I'm worried about Mas Damar. Immediately drowsiness whack for a moment after my phone put.

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I blinked my eyes as the sunlight forced me to wake up from my deep sleep. A gentle breeze swept across my face. And the smell of the beach welcomes the spoiled of my nose. When my eyes were completely open, I saw a handsome figure who had longed to be standing looking at me not so far from where I lay. I woke up to approach him. But when I was about to step up, I realized the focus was never on me. I turned to confirm what he saw but there was nothing behind me. His gaze was only straight forward, not sidetracked in the slightest. I tried to get close to him but the closer I got to the distance we never shortened. And so on. Until I started to get tired, the voice I missed was heard greeting my eardrum.

"You're going to promise Nia", her voice sounded weak. I saw the look on his sad face. When I just kept staring at him. He's back talking. "You promised me, Nia" he said. The more he looked at her the more his face looked sad. My eyes started to glaze over. I want to run to embrace him. Wreaked my unstoppable longing. I want to kiss her. Delivering everything I felt as she left. When I called him no words came out of my mouth. I tried and kept trying, but still not a single voice escaped my lips. Tears started to drip down my cheeks.

"Why disbelieve, Nia?", every time she spoke her voice grew weaker. His face became sad.

No mas, no. I never disavowed. I still belong to you. I have always been faithful to you. How could you think I turned away from you. I wanted to say that but there was only a sobbing that started coming out of my lips.

"Why Nia, why?, where's your promise?", and that voice was a whisper. The shadow is also fading.

I tried to run to catch him but his figure was getting lost. The more I tried to call her back then the harder I was. My face was completely wet with tears. When I saw the shadow disappear, I managed to shout its name.

Oh my god!, it was just a dream. Hopefully not a bad sign from Mas Damar.

I took a glass of water that I put on the nightstand. Drink it until half. I slowly re-arrange my breath. I put my head on the head of the bed. When I closed my eyes, the sad and sad figure of Mas Damar was clearly imagined. Like glued to my eyelids. The expression on his face every time he spoke, the look in his eyes. Tears escaped back gliding smoothly on my cheeks. The words he spoke like a needle stuck in my heart. How could I turn away from him? He is the world I stand on, he is the pillar that opposes me, he is the tree that shelters me. He, he, he, my world is just him. This miss is unstoppable. I want to curl up in his lap. Right said Dilan, "Don't miss, heavy, you g' will be strong", because that's how I feel. I thought I wasn't this fragile, but when I saw her figure in the dream, it turned out that I was just pretending to be strong. I saw it at one in ten, it meant that I had only been asleep for an hour. Tears never dry from my face. And my head is getting heavier. I put my body back on the bed. And hope that tomorrow there will be good news about Mas Damar.

There was the sound of footsteps. Taps. Taps. Taps. The longer it becomes clearer. Sounds closer. I spread my eyes, but I don't see anyone around. There is only a dark room. Very very dark. The sound of the steps grew louder and louder. Like it was behind me. I immediately turned around as I thought there was a breath at the top of my head. Mas Damar's. That's Mas Damar. A gentle smile was seen on his face that was highlighted by light out of nowhere. Afraid that he would stay away, I grabbed him immediately. This time he did not leave. He's not missing. She returned my embrace just as tightly as I hugged her. I looked up to see his face. She was still smiling, a sweet smile that I had longed for.

I didn't realize I was crying, if it wasn't for Mas Damar's hand wiping my tears. I leaned on his touch. God seems to have granted my prayers. Mas Damar is here. He returns. Hugged me tightly. When our views met, time seemed to stop for us. No one talks between us. Just enjoying each other's existence. His smile never disappeared, it was still fluffy from the very beginning he came. I felt a soft caress on my cheek. Warm embrace on my body. As much as possible I don't want this to end.

What I know next is our faces are already approaching each other. He rubbed my lips gently. Her gentle gaze that always made me fall asleep. I started to close my eyes. Enjoyed our closeness. Finally our lips are fused in a light and soft pagutan. We're not in a hurry. Slowly, enjoy every touch. Vaporized all the emotions that were stifled during her departure.

After all this time we kissed, there was something wet on my face. Our kiss is over. But still stick each other's forehead. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at her face. Sontak makes me cringe. Something wet was coming from him. She cried. Tears were clearly dripping down her cheeks. I lifted my hand to wipe away the tears. But he kept his face away. Slowly his smile began to fade. Replacing the increasingly obvious sadness.

He started to step back slowly. The farther the distance between us, the more sadness was evident on his face. I started screaming at him. But he turned away with a big step. When I tried to chase after him all I found was a dark, stuffy empty space.

"Hosh.hosh.hosh", the sound of my breathing echoed throughout the room. My head feels so dizzy. I woke up in a sitting position. I pulled my knee to my chest and hugged her. Haaa... Another dream. I'm still trying to stabilize my breath. My heart is still beating so fast. The shadow of sadness on Mas Damar's face pierced my heart. Hurt myself more deeply. I think I started this day with tears. As I tried, the shadow of him wrapped in sadness and tears still reluctantly passed. My tears flowed more.

I woke up at three o'clock in the morning from my second dream. And now it's six o'clock, as long as I'm still sitting in the same position as the tears start to dry up. I felt my body start protesting to be taken off. Nature's call also takes its share. I finally gave up and went to the bathroom. My eyes locked on the bathtub. Hemm, maybe soaking can help me build a mood that has been destroyed thanks to these dreams. I started filling the water in the bathtub. After urinating and the tub was fully filled, I started undressing and was ready to soak. Warm water is very comfortable. As I began to feel relaxed, consciousness slowly left me.