The soul mate YOU sent

Chapter 10 The beginning of it all.

"Wes lah Dul, ganok seng kudu dikomongno maneh, Tania tetep would marry karo Zaky." (Had Dul, there was nothing to talk about anymore, Tania would still marry Zaky), no objection. No matter how I refuse, I'm sure this marriage will continue. The umpteenth ultimatum that Dad gave me.

But this time I want to fight, fight for my love for Mas Damar.

"No, Tania iso. Tania would be teros ngenteni Mas Damar."(no yeah, Tania can't. Tania will continue to wait for Mas Damar), I said grumbling.

"Relax, you talk to your father first. Think first. Zaky will make your decision. Aunty, um, karo Zaky said yes."((Zaky will be waiting for your decision anyway), said aunt Halimah as she stroked my back.

I can't think straight anymore. I will take this decision even if it is fatal later. Maybe this is the only way they can't force me to marry Mas Zaky.

"Sorry aunt, mom, and Mas Zaky, I can't marry Mas Zaky. I am currently pregnant with Mas Damar's child", I said firmly. But what I do know next is a hard, painful slap sweeping my cheek. Making me very surprised was that the slap came from my mother who had hugged me earlier.

"Kowe gak iso gawe luweh wirang father lan ibukmu maneh. Wes disrespectful behavior nang wong tuamu neng ngarepe guests, saiki kowe even gawe geger karo ngaku-ngaku meteng. No ngene carane marekno perkoro TAN!!" (you can't embarrass your father and mother any more. Already behaving disrespectfully to your parents in front of guests, now even make a fuss confessing I'm pregnant. This is not how to solve Tan's problem.), mother started her sentence in a very cold tone but ended it with a shout of my name.

"I don't say I'm not I'm a ha.", before I finish my sentence, Mas Yayan jerks my hand firmly.

"Wes Tan, ojok mbok. Thats enough. Kowe clarified lan ibuk's father's feelings."(already Tan, don't continue. Thats enough. You hurt the feelings of father and mother), the words of Mas Yayan sliced my heart. Then what about my feelings. They don't think about my feelings. I also feel very sick. They decided on my life and wanted to separate me from Mas Damar. I'll even marry someone I don't know. I can't take it anymore. I will not give up anyway. I passed from the room, I heard my father and mother calling me simple. Running to my room, taking evidence of the baby's presence in my stomach. When I returned to the lounge again, I heard Abdullah's voice calming my father. After I entered, all eyes were on me. I put a testpack of both red lines on the table. "Thank the test results if I'm pregnant", I said coldly.

When my father grabbed the object, I saw my mother shed tears. I can see the great disappointment of both parents. My heart wavers at their tears. Sedurhaka it's me on them. But I can't go back. I have to fight for Mas Damar.

"Kowe kok tego karo wong. Iki wes podo karo kowe neng raine wong nemplok tai nang wong tuamu."(you kok tega same with your parents. It's already like you're throwing dirt on your parents' faces.), when you say this dad shakes withholding emotion.

I clenched my hand firmly, to strengthen my resolve not to waver. Anger was seen on Mas Yayan's face. He walked over to my mother and hugged her soothingly. I spread my eyes, not only did my father and mother look disappointed. Om Abdullah, Halimah's aunt, Mas Zaky all looked very disappointed. Especially Mas zaky, he looks to be holding back his emotions. His hands were clenched, his jaw was hardened, his eyes were red. From this debate on until now, he was silent. When our gazes met, he immediately turned away and excused himself to go to the toilet. "sorry, I went to the toilet first.", his voice sounded deep and very cold. Sending my feathers up.

"Sorry, buk. You guys wes weroh saiki, there's no way I'm marrying Mas Zaky. I'll wait for Mas Damar mbalek."(you know by now, there's no way I'm married to Mas Zaky. I will wait for Mas Damar to return), I said later. Hearing that, my father returned angry.

Before I answered my father's words, I saw Mas Zaky coming back with a wet face, his shirt arm rolled up a little above his elbow and revealing the water scraps on his arm. Seeing his son back om and aunt invited Mas Zaky to come home. No more sweet and soft words on the lips. "Yok wangsul ae le, ganok maneh seng luweh humiliate sampeyan koyok ngene. Wes don't have to make a match. We're all HOME!"(let's just go home son, there's nothing more humiliating you like this. There is no need for another match. We all GO HOME!), Om Abdullah said as he stood up. But next, everyone was surprised. Because Mas Zaky is sitting down. His face was calmer than before he went to the toilet. The words that came out of his mouth then made everyone even more shocked. Especially me.

"Kulo bade nyubo nerusaken niki matchmaking. Kulo nyuwon time kale peken damel ta'aruf kaleh Tania. Ugi maringi Tania Damar nemokaken time. Umpami in time kale peken niki Damar meet ugi purun marry Tania, kulo will step down. Engkang mboten met nopo mboten purun, kulo ready to marry kaleh Tania."(i want to try to settle this matchmaking. I asked for two weeks for Tania's ta'aruf. Also gives Tania time to find Damar. If in two weeks time Damar meets and wants to marry Tania, I will step down. If I do not meet or do not want to marry Tania, I am ready to marry Tania), Mas Zaky's voice is very calm but firm. There was no doubt in his words.

My heart rippled to hear it. But I don't know him yet. Is there any hidden meaning to his decision? I don't know. Mas Zaky's speech reaped a variety of reactions. Everyone was surprised, of course. But surprised everyone is different. I could see the father whose smile was gripping him as well as the mother who was moved. But different from both of his parents. It was clear that they did not agree with Mas Zaky's decision. "Opo mean sampeyan le? Arep gawe sampeyan dewe? Obviously Tania nolak raw-raw sampeyan!"(what do you mean, son? you want to embarrass yourself? clearly Tania has already rejected you outright!), Aunt Halimah responded with a very clear tone of dislike.

"Sampeyan clearly understands not by compulsion in marrying someone. Sek mbok. Ojo mekso Tania marries karo sampeyan Ky. Karo maneh sampeyan yo ngerti lawye karo wong wedok seng again pregnant son'e wong lyo."(you clearly understand there should be no compulsion in marrying someone. How do you continue. Don't force Tania to marry you Ky. And again you also understand how the law is to marry a woman who is pregnant with someone else's child), om Abdullah is calmer than aunt Halimah when connecting the response of aunt Halimah before.

"Kulo mboten mexican Tania kok bah. Kulo nyuwun time ta'aruf niki ngggeh damel Tania. Umpami until the last time ta'aruf Tania tasek mboten purun mbatah kaleh kulo although Damar mboten met, kulo would terimo. Kulo will retreat. Kulo ngertos dateng perkoro kangkang abah means, kulo will nampi konsekuensinipun."(i do not force Tania kok bah. I asked for ta'aruf time for Tania. Suppose it is over time ta'aruf Tania madih does not want to marry me even though Damar did not meet, I will accept. I'm going to back off. I also understand what you mean, I will take the consequences.), that distinctive deep voice sounded so incongruous.

His calmness, his decisiveness, his earnestness would be able to heal the heart of every woman who heard him. I'm pretty sure of that. But not my heart. This heart is locked only by one man, Mas Damar.

"And Tania, I yo pingin until fair. Sampeyan karo Damar right wes related long, limang lithe years right? Dadi I want until ngekek'i I chance gawe ta'aruf ben we iso know each other. Don't spend five years, just two weeks. Lan I hope two weeks of iki to live ta'aruf really. I hope that you'll consider me a proper zinc candidate."(and Tania, I want you to be fair. You and Damarkan have been in contact for a long time. Five years more, right? So I want you to give me a chance to ta'aruf so we can get to know each other. It doesn't take five years, just two weeks. And I hope you've had two weeks of ta'aruf in earnest. I hope you should consider me as a worthy candidate), Mas Zaki said that by looking straight into my eyes. A gentle yet firm look. It really makes my heart shake. I stopped hearing her words, so that no one could come out. Mouths silenced.

"But Ky.", aunt Halimah tried to argue. But before he could finish his sentence, Mas Zaky cut him off.

"Zaky hope you respect Zaky's decision" she said with a gentle, soothing smile to her parents.

I try to digest everything I hear. But it makes me dizzy. I can't process this decision right now. Feeling very tired. It was like being hit by a long freight train and never ending. I decided to withdraw without a fight. I left the parents to go back to the discussion.

Maybe I should take a step back before jumping any further. In the end, it may be the right decision for both families. A little bit of relented as my regret to them.