The Fate that is Overlooked
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His name is also a child, children, must want a lot. What else if you already ngudreg, beeeuuuh no matter the parents are having or not, being a chance or not, anyway if you want, again want, again ask yes must. No later, tomorrow, no more rejection.
And that's how Ashila is now, since coming home from the hospital visiting her Budhe, being forced home more precisely, whatever Barata did was wrong. Not in the mood of the child. Until Barata now let the child himself in the middle room because he did not want to be invited to go to his room.
"Well, Shila.. "
"Well? alone in here? " Sukma's mother approached the boy.
Not the answer he found, but a loud cry was heard. The cries she endured on her way home finally poured over the house.
"Why? "
Bu Sukma looked confused.
"Why crying? Does anyone hurt eem?? Tell Oma, why is Shila crying? " Tried to embrace her, but her crying grew louder with her body away from Bu Sukma. His feet kicked in the wind and then his body rolled around.
"Astaghfirullah."
"Bars.. Barata, what are you doing with this kid hemm? " Sukma's mother shouted.
Barata who had changed clothes, wearing a house shirt was down casually.
"Shut up or Papa won't take Shila back to meet Budhe Ajeng ! " Barata said softly but firmly. Making Ashila's cries gradually subside.
"Isn't Ashila already with Budhe Ajeng? why ask Budhe Ajeng again? " Sukma now managed to reach Ashila, even the toddler's head is now hiding in Omanya's chest. Avoiding the sharp look of his father.
"Silver... Shi's.. Shila wants Budhe and Papa, but Papa wants to go home.. Shila is angry with Papa! " The sound of crying that had just subsided, now sounded shrill again.
"Budhe's got Shil's patient, we shouldn't bother Budhe while Budhe's at work. " Barata again gave an understanding, after talking at length in the car which must not be heard at all by the Toddler.
"Sama Oma used to yuk, we changed clothes. After that we make beef eye egg pudding for Budhe Ajeng, surely Budhe likes it. How's it? "
" Huhh. e. wangga.. ngga.. mauuu! " he said stamped.
"Shila wants what? "
"Shi.. Shila wants to be with Budhe. "
"Yes, let's follow Budhe again, but clean the body first yes, this is already the smell of acem. Later Bude Ajeng do not want to be hugged Shila if the smell of acem, all wash your face so that it is fresher, Yuk ! " Sukma ma'am stood up. He led Ashila to his room. Until finally the child complies, willing to follow the direction of Omanya.
"The patient child! " Snippled Barata who was kimi sitting on the sofa, watching the two of them move away.
Ajeng POV
Today was a very tiring day, besides a fairly large number of patients, even today I was given a surprise by the love of the past, what else if not his declaration of love to me!
Barata. BARATA AJI DEWANDARU
I thought, my race to him no longer exists. But this heart-shaking proved what I thought was wrong. Her touch, her crying, her treatment, her recognition, made the vibration present again. Even I felt it back, something that felt long dead. Like there's a lot of butterflies tickling inside my body. It's funny but it makes my heart blossom.
His love for love and love is not just for him. I was too. Even in any part of the world, I think everyone wants to be loved and love the person they really love. No hypocrite about that.
Without reducing my sense of doubt towards Barata, I also need some time to think back. It's not all that easy, there's a lot of feelings for me and him to take care of, there's a lot of things to do, especially with a big family.
Frankly, getting together and joining the extended family of Mother Sukma, I felt uncomfortable. Still I remember clearly, their words about me that couldn't give Reno a son. Although through innuendo, but enough to make me lazy and deterred to join them.
And, if I have to be in that position again? sorry I gave up. I am not that strong with their words. Not to mention those who see me so trivial, especially if family gathers, I am like a stranger, marginalized. I don't know what made them do that to me.
And despite all of that, my love for her is still the same. Maybe now it increases many times after listening to his confession, and by looking at his daily life strong unparalleled like cement, makes me feel sorry for him.
Being a single parent to Ashila is not easy, especially with the fact that Ashila is not down her genes at all. Truly, there would be no man like him, even if there were perhaps 1:1000, and he was 1 in 1000 of those men.
Yes, the figure of Barata whose cover is terrible, in fact save so many patient stocks. The problem that he was pending himself, clearly remembered his earnestness while speaking. Maybe this is my happy time? barsanding.
When I leave everything to my Lord, that he will finish everything about me. He just gave me everything. I believe everything about HER, about HER destiny provisions which must be very good for her servants.
I did not expect it to be like this now, in my current position, obtaining the job that everyone dreams of, living a life assured of InshaAllah. The people closest to me who support me, and now, love began to come. Everything comes not suddenly, everything comes not too fast, everything comes not too slow, because everything has been arranged in such a way as to be precise. Not even more than a second.
Innama amruhu izda arda syai`an ay yaqikyla lahak lah kun fa yakin
Verily, His condition when He wills is simply to say to him: "Be!" so it happened. (QS Yasin 82)
If I used to think I was just how to make people around me happy, now it is easy for my God to give me happiness, If the rain alone can bring rainbows, then it can bring rainbows, it is not difficult for HIM to provide happiness after the many difficulties I face.
Allah is with those who are patient. And I believe that. The promise of God is certain. And will never be denied.*
Because really, only HE is worthy of our belief, and will never make us feel disappointed.
I want to, really want to say YES out loud. But, will it be this fast? It was like a dream, not a dream. I feel like I'm being pulled back to a long time ago, a good past with her, and will my future be the same as it was with her? or even more?
*O you who believe! Please help (to Allah) with patience and prayer. Verily, Allah is with those who are patient." (Q.L. Al Baqara: 153)
