The Fate that is Overlooked

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Ajeng POV

How are you doing, Mas? May you be happy on HIS side, yes, no longer feel pain. Now it's time for me to move on with my life. Starting back from zero, after these 2 years I have always depended on you.

I promised Mama that I won't cry anymore, it won't make you feel burdened.

Forgive me for not being the perfect wife for you, I am still selfish with all my past, forgive me for not being able to forget her shadow. And thank you, thank you for everything, your patience in facing me, your patience in sharing with me, your patience in equipping and accepting with all my brawn.

Maybe I won't be able to meet a man as good as you, as patient as you are. You should be able to get more from me. Ahh stupid woman who left you.

Calm down in HIS paradise, yes Mas, I promise I will be happy according to your request all this time. No, not because you are no longer with you, but rather what you have sacrificed for me.

His name is engraved on a tombstone, Renopati Wirajuna. The guy who took me 2 years ago. Best friend of my life I've ever had. When everything went away, he came with a million of his love.

I still remember clearly, when he grabbed my body that was about to be dragged by the waves. When I felt my world crumble and I wanted to die, when I couldn't express what I felt, when my body and mind began to fall outside the bounds of sanity, he came with open arms and an ocean-wide heart. He can understand me as an angel of the Lord's messenger.

Reno, a handsome man who does not talk much, prioritizes action rather than sweet and romantic words.

The sad fate of our love that finally unites us in a marriage. I, who was tired of my love story, found a stopover that could forget for a moment my sad story. The devastated Mas Reno left married by his lover finally chooses to help me rise up to bury the past.

And our story begins with a covenant marriage.

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The sun began to head to his throne, replacing itself with a moon that soon appeared from the east. The fibers of the violet began to dim, but a woman who had been watched by the man who was sitting on the beach, increasingly stepped her feet into the middle of the ocean. Until it ends with the piercing of a tiny body by the roll of a big wave.

Luckily, the man saved the woman. Catch it and bring it to the beach.

"Hay miss, miss.. Can you hear my voice? miss. I beg you to open your eyes" The man who helped the woman kept patting her cheek, occasionally pressing on the woman's chest so that the swallowed water could escape her body.

And.. Uhukk. uhuukk.

there was a coughing sound from the woman and her reflex movements to sit.

"Are you okay?" the man looked worried.

"Yes, thank you" she answered briefly.

"Are you alone? " Ask the man, "I'm sorry, introduce me Reno, sorry I might have pulled you but... "

"I Ajeng" answered the woman without waiting for the sentence of the man named Reno was perfectly spoken.

"There problem? " Reno asked while looking at the sad face of the woman who claimed to be named Ajeng.

And just arriving reflexively, Ajeng cried hysterically. Bend his head as low as possible.

"Take it out, let out all your sadness.. Cry, I accompany you here" Reno sat next to Ajeng. He walked towards the place where he had been sitting, grabbed a jacket and a bottle of mineral water and then came back closer to Ajeng. Pouring his drink and putting his jacket on the shoulder of the woman he just knew his name.

While Ajeng began to ease his cries, grabbed the bottle that Reno gave and downed it until the toilet was not left.

"Thank you" he said slowly. It's almost inaudible.

"I know it's not easy, but trust me your Lord will not give you trials beyond your means. He knows how strong you are. Your job is just to get through it. Passing through the destiny laid out for you. Just that" Reno spoke without looking at Ajeng. It's like strengthening others but it's actually for him.

"Man sometimes feels himself like himself. Like, everyone no one can understand."

"Maybe they know, but circumstances force them to indifferently refuse to question."

"Around that feels calm, but in the soul so tempestuous with all tastes. It was like there was a rock stuck in my heart. Feels claustrophobic."

Like everything that's been okay but really isn't."

Reno continued to speak for herself, staring at the vast ocean. No matter the woman who had been sitting next to him just now was looking at him fixedly.

"Sort of what all of this went through, as if not enough to strengthen yourself. In fact, there is all the time. A time when the heart is tired, even though it always tries to continue. The time when everything is finished but forced to continue.

Everything will continue as long as the breath has not broken and stopped. Believe that everything has a final limit. That's how we survive."

He looked at Ajeng, looked at him closely and ended up with a smile rising at both corners of his lips.

"You don't have to tell me about your problems, I just think about myself who now feels more or less the same as you. Being hurt by the woman I love so deeply."

Reno threw her face away, stared for a moment at the blackened sky, then bowed her head, which was held back by her two legs.

Meanwhile, the sound of sobs began to sound. So shrewd.

"Ma. sorry "Ajeng opened his voice, trying to comfort the person he did not know at all.

"At least we can still live to continue this even without him" Reno looked up at his head, staring at Ajeng intently.

"I left him too, I don't know. I am the one left behind or I am the one who left. It's all so gray. Maybe you're luckier, you're obviously in staying married by your lover. While me? I don't know if he's alive or not, I don't know if he's mine or not. I don't know how he is, how he is. He left without certainty." Ajeng breathed a slow, long breath.

"He did not quite understand my struggles, I persevered with his sweet hopes and promises. Bo doh woman with all dreams and dreams knitted with the man breng sek! " Ajeng vented his anger by grabbing a large rock beside him, throwing it with the rest of his energy. No matter the state of his body that was soaked and began to shiver exposed to the cold night sea breeze.

"At least you're still intact and there's no meaningful loss." Reno smiled cynically. "I gave everything, everything I had. But what did he give? he ran off with a pervert who could satisfy his Nafsunya! " Degan slow voice, but a sharp word, managed to attract Ajeng's attention to refocus.

"I who can only satisfy his lust with money, just camped after everything I have run out, I sacrifice for him. When I expected him to stay, knitting again from the beginning, he was reluctant. " Reno turned her face away.

"It's late at night, you have to change clothes.it's impossible to wear clothes like this. You could get sick. " hereafter.

"Where's your stuff? " Reno looked around who looked clean.

"So I put it near here, my bag and jacket" Ajeng shuffled, standing up trying to find his stuff. But it seemed like bad luck had hit him again, his bag and jacket were swept away by the waves.

"Wear my jacket first. Let's go quickly, there's no way we're here any longer, the sun won't reappear just to dry and warm your wet body" he said passing through Ajeng who was still dumbstruck with Reno's words.