The End of Destiny

Feel guilty

Days changed weeks, weeks changed months, it did not feel more than three months Renata became Ardian's wife. Smileful days are always trying to give Ardian to Renata. Renata was completely pampered by her husband, showered with immense care, love and affection.

Ardian is a loving man who patiently understands and understands his wife's feelings. Renata feels very lucky to be Ardian's wife, a man who understands her very well and accepts her flaws, loving her sincerely.

Despite being married but Renata still works, they leave and go home together, except if Ardian is meeting out of town. Like that day he set out alone riding his motorcycle, Ardian with his team-mates was working out of town.

That afternoon after work Renata stopped by his subscription fruit ice stall, the weather was indeed quite hot. Since marriage, he has never been there again. Renata took a seat on a not so crowded corner bench, under a fairly shady tree.

"Renata, all alone? " greet Deni who turned out to be in that place as well

"Hey, Den. sit here, just so there's a chat. " Renata asks Deni to sit in front of her

"Cock yourself, where is your husband? " peni kepo

"Not anywhere, there happened to be work outside the city, so I went home alone" replied Renata flatly

"Ohh.. usually if the newlyweds everywhere are always both." Deni murmur.

"Btw you're alone too. " Renata changed asking

"Well, I'm still single.. have a sohib one also left." replied Deni while sipping his ice.

"Sohibs, man,... Hendra you mean? " ask Renata who was shocked followed by Deni's head nod

"Where does Hendra go? " Renata was curious

"I don't know whether I've heard anything yet, he said just go away from this city, as far as possible." Deni looked serious

"Do you know why he left? " Renata's a serious follow

"Rena, you don't know or pretend to blow sih. " Deni stared intently at Renata

"Me, I mean what please explain to me. " Renata frowned

"That day after seeing you officially married. "Deni's speech stopped.

"I mean when my wedding Hendra came? " cut Renata

"Yes, he came but only able to see from a distance, he could not see you smiling happily with another man. His heart was broken into pieces, his feelings crumbling dimly watching him at that time. " Deni paused for a moment, he saw Renata was covered in tears

"He was completely powerless to endure the pain felt at that moment and immediately rushed away. After that day he decided to leave this city, he could no longer if someday meet you even though unintentionally." continued Deni with a sad look

"So Hendra never told you why he had to try to kill his own feelings and was so forced to stay away from you? " ask Deni then

"No, he always overcomes the differences that make our relationship so this way" replied Renata slowly

"Actually one time, your mother once came to Hendra, she warned Hendra to stay away from you as soon as the love between you got stronger" Deni paused

"Mother, really, but Hendra never said anything to me. "isak Renata.

"Your mother said that she would never approve of your relationship, and if Hendra really loved you then she would have to be willing to sacrifice her way away from you, for your good" Deni continued

"At that time Hendra felt very devastated, for the first time he loved women so much, at that time he had to let go. You know for yourself how Hendra, a delinquent, rough, temperament, and arguably sadistic, immediately bent his knees in front of you in just one meeting. " continued Deni still with a sad look

"At first he was very confident he could fight to maintain your love even with differences, but when he knew that your parents did not approve then he thought everything would be in vain. She doesn't want you and your mother to argue so she doesn't tell you and keeps it to herself. "Deni's words stopped when she saw Renata start to be as excited

"But let it all pass, let only Hendra feel his pain that matters to him is your happiness, Rena. He told me that for the rest of his life he will always love you, nothing will ever replace his love for you. " Deni calms Renata

Renata was completely unable to control her feelings back then, her cries getting stronger until her chest tightened. He felt very guilty, and selfish for making a decision that hurt Hendra. He never tried to find out the truth of Hendra's reason, he was too easy to give up on the situation. If time could be turned back, he would not let Hendra suffer on his own.

"You, all right, Ren? " ask Deni as Renata starts to pale

"Sorry, Den. I have to go home, my head feels heavy. " Renata got up from his seat

"You're really okay, should I take you home? " ask Deni worried

"No need, Den. I can do it myself, thank you Den, please if you know the existence of Hendra as soon as possible tell me. " said Renata who then left the place.

"Yes, be careful Ren... "

Renata rode his motorbike a bit slowly, his mind was in a mess and his head felt dizzy. Arriving at home, the situation is dark enough and the headlights have not turned on, meaning Ardian has not returned home.

After entering his motorbike, he immediately spread his body on the sofa, he was no longer able to walk to the room. His eyes were blankly staring at the ceiling of the house, his tears dripping slowly. His head felt increasingly heavy, his body weakly powered.

Hendra's shadow appeared again, Deni's story still mengiang in his ears. Guilt settled in his heart. Renata felt disappointed in himself, wanting to feel as loud as possible to call out Hendra's name, hoping he could hear her at this moment.

His mind screamed and cursed how stupid he was, how weak he was to give up without struggling to find the truth and accompany Hendra to face her pain alone.

"Hendra, I don't know where you are right now, I miss you. Forgive me, Hen, who is too selfish and thinks only of my own feelings, "cloak Renata in his heart.

"If time can come back, I'll fix everything,... I'm sorry the owner of my heart. "weepily Renata who then slept on the sofa.