THE BEST BROTHERS

Chapter 53

♥Annisa♥

I should be confused as to how to explain everything to Arsyil. Do I have to be honest with him that the Lecturer who loves me is Mr. Arsyad. Yes, he is the older brother of Arsyil, my beloved whom I love very much.

"Oh Allah, how do you convey all this to Arshil?" I muttered softly by rubbing my face, my mind is very messed up at the moment. I don't want to make the brothers misunderstand and fight because of a woman. That woman is myself.

Arsyil saw the mess on my face. He approached me who was still sitting in the guest chair in Arsyil's study.

"Is there something you think Nisa is? I see your face as if it's keeping a problem. Tell me Nisa." said Arsyil who managed to surprise me who was sitting daydreaming with a blank look.

I smiled and got up from my place and walked over to Arsyil who was still at the door.

"It's okay, Shil, you're done?"ask me to convince Arsyil that I'm not hiding anything from him.

"Relatedly? You didn't lie? Since Arsyad came here something changed from your attitude, you are mostly silent as usual who is always cheerful. What is it, baby? Tell me, nothing is hidden. Is Brother Arsyad the Lecturer who likes you even loves you?" Arsyil grew more suspicious of my attitude like this, he kept asking me questions until I found it difficult to answer his questions.

"Nisa, why are you quiet? Isn't it true that Arsyad's a lecturer who likes you Nisa?" ask Arsyil again.

Somehow my tears fell as Arsyil looked into my eyes which implied that I was hiding something from him. My heart is really fucked up, I don't want to hurt Arsyil's feelings if I'm honest with him. I don't want brothers to be troubled just because of me.

"Darling, why are you crying?" Arsyil wiped my tears and glared at me, drowning my face in his chest.

My tears were getting broken and my mouth was still locked, not a word came out of my mouth, just the sobs I let out.

I try to organize my feelings little by little, I take a slow breath and I will try to tell you what really happened.

"Syil." I said with a hoarse voice.

"Yes Nisa, tell me. I'll listen and I won't be mad at you. Say dear." said Arsyil by lifting my chin and looking into my eyes that began to sink. He kissed my forehead.

"Arsyil, promise not to leave me Shil if I talk about all this." I asked Arsyil.

"Yes Nisa I promise that no matter what happens, I will always be by your side. Say baby, don't cry anymore." Arsyil took me to sit on a chair and closed the door of his room.

I slowly tried to tell the truth to Arsyil.

"Syil, I'm sorry. Yes, Syil is right, the Lecturer who has always loved me is your brother Arsyad. I didn't think he was your big brother. I'm sorry Syil, but I don't love him, I rejected Mr. Arsyad many times. But he still tries to get my heart. Until then.."My words stopped because Arsyil cut my words.

"At that time you met at Caffe kak Shita right? Your papah and my papah are working together. And Brother Arsyad asked you to your Papah."Arsyil said that. I know how sick he feels, especially his own brother who loves me.

I'm getting scared of their relationship because of me. "Yes like that Shil, but my papah rejected it because papah knows I have a lover that is you Shil. Syil, don't be mad at your brother, he's not wrong. Love does not look and choose whom Love will fall to someone. Syil, whatever happens next. Please don't leave me." I explained to Arsyil and begged padanga.

Arsyil's eyes were red as if he wanted to shed tears.

"Nisa, I love Arsyad, what a pity. And, I love you, love you so much Nisa. If I ask you to be with Arsyad, do you accept it? I know how Arsyad. And, do you know, you're the first woman to make it into Arsyad's heart. Nisa, I'm willing if you're with my sister." said Arsyil who made me a little disappointed, how could he sacrifice his love for me for his sister.

That's not possible for me. Only Arsyil I love, how can I live with his brother while I can still see him in front of me.

"I don't want Shil. You're evil Syil, you said you wouldn't leave me. But, you instead told me to accept Mr. Arsyad's love. That can't be Syil. I'd better get away from your lives. Shil I beg you again, do not tell me like that. I cannot and will never be able to Shil." I explained to Arsyil with the roar of my tears.

Arsyil fell silent and looked at me who was crying again. He pulled me in his arms and drowned my face in his second again.

"I'm sorry Nisa, I'm sorry. I don't know how to. I know how Arsyad feels now, surely his heart is broken seeing us Nisa. I don't want to hurt him. I love my brother." explains Arsyil who also cried to me.

I let go of Arsyil's embrace, I took his face and I faced his face before me.

"Syil, we both hurt Arsyad's sister. And, if you tell me with Arsyad's sister as well as Syil, the three of us will get hurt. Stay by my side Shil, no matter what happens."I said to Arsyil. I begged him not to tell me again to accept Arsyad's love. I came back crying.

"Nisa, I'll stay by your side, I promise. Don't cry anymore. We can solve this in a family way. I'm sorry I told you to leave me, I honestly can't Nisa. But I'm gonna hurt the people I love so much. I will hurt Arsyad Nisa's heart. I should how?" Arsyil hugged me even tighter.

I can feel the silence in him.

"We're dealing with this with Syil, there's gotta be a way out. Shil calm yourself, we have God, no matter how we draw up a scenario, still God's best scenario. May God give us the best path. Promise me Shil, stay by my side to solve this problem." I tried to ease this atmosphere, I smiled at Arsyil, encouraging him.

"O Allah, may there be a better way out of you. I beg you to lead us to solve all the problems of the heart of the three of us." I said in my heart, I still hugged Arsyil.

Yes, right now Arsyil's heart is very fragile, I've never seen him this mess.

"Nisa" she said in a hoarse voice, Arsyil looked at me with puffy eyes.

"Yes Shil." I replied as I looked at his face, I removed the trace of his tears and I gently caressed his cheeks.

"Nisa, I promise you, I will continue to be by your side. Yes Nisa, we'll solve our problem, I'm sorry Nisa."Arsyil came back to me after saying that.

"Yes Syil, we can definitely get through this. Don't cry, let's go out later suspecting your employees we're doing nothing in here." I said with a smile to him and took Arsyil out of his room.

"Yes, let's get out." Arsyil took me out of his room and before leaving Arsyil wiped the remains of my tears, as did I. I removed the remains of Arsyil's tears and kissed Arsyil's cheeks.

"The spirit of my future husband." I said softly in his ear.

Arsyil smiled so sweetly as I said that.

I came out of the room with Arsyil.

It didn't feel like it was late afternoon, I also said goodbye to go home to Arsyil.

"Syil, I'm going home first yes, I'm going to see Papah and Mamah going to the birthday party of Papah's co-worker in town X. Maybe tomorrow I'll just go home, because we'll spend the night at the hotel." I said to Arsyil.

"Yes, will I take you?" Arsyil volunteered to drive me home.

"No need Shil, you still have a lot of work to do. I've booked a taxi online too." I replied as I picked up my bag at the table.

"Yes, are you careful? Take good care of yourself, greetings to your parents. Say sorry I haven't been able to see him. Come hug first." Arsyil pulled me in his arms. I felt very comfortable when Arsyil called me.

It felt relieved that the burden in my life had suddenly collapsed due to Arsyil's embrace.

"Syil, I want to go home don't hold on anymore." I said while tickling Arsyil's waist.

"Geli Nis, yes be careful. That's the tax's coming." Arsyil is peeping at me. And, I got out of Arsyil's workshop, he drove me until I got in the taxi. After the taxi went by, he still looked at the taxi I was riding until I didn't see Arsyil again.

"I love him, O God, give us a way out of this" I cried in my heart as I looked down at the street through the taxi window.

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