THE BEST BROTHERS

S4 Chapter 64 "Love In Silence" The Best Brother

After the Soto Lamongan Shop, Dio took Rania to his house. Dio did not tell Rania first. He immediately took Rania to his house.

"It's the way to the house, right?" ask Rania.

"Yes, stop by the house for a bit" Dio replied.

"You what?" ask Rania again.

"You will know" replied Dio.

Rania clucked in annoyance. Rania from earlier had indeed silenced Dio since from the office. Rania still did not understand her feelings. He still had feelings for Dio. However, his little heart said that Dio only vent his feelings when there was no Najwa.

Trauma is still firmly in Rania's heart. He still feels the pain of being cheated on, betrayed, and dumped by those he loves so much. Love does not use logic sometimes. The heart wants to stop and leave, but the body does not want to leave. That's what Rania used to experience.

Now he chose to throw away the taste, rather than fall down a second time. When he received Dio back, Najwa returned and Dio turned away from him again. Rania was still thinking about it. He did not want to get sick a second time.

"Better I love you in silence, Dio. I want to go back, but this heart is not sure if you have completely forgotten Najwa. The heart is like a paper. If you squeeze the paper, the paper is no longer shaped, then you return it, the shape is also no longer the same. I don't want to, when I'm happy with you, to feel your love again, to trust you again, and to rearrange my formless heart. And, along with that Najwa came back and took your love again. I'm afraid it's happening. Then what happened? I'm back sick. And, the paper that has been rearranged neatly will be tangled again, shapeless." Rania said inwardly by exhaling her breath violently.

Dio looked at Rania's face which seemed to be in a state of anxiety. Dio knew, actually Rania wanted to come back with her. However, Rania is still not ready if one day Najwa returns and will take the love that has been given to Rania.

"You why? From earlier his face was bent like that? I asked you to answer half. Still thinking about Astrid? Or maybe think that Najwa's coming back I'll go back to Najwa? Yeah, like that?" dio asked who was not answered by Rania.

Rania kept quiet, not answering Dio's question in the slightest. Rania felt, Dio seemed to already know what was in her heart.

"You can be quiet, you can't believe what I said this morning and last night. If you want proof, I'll prove it to you. I'm not going back to Najwa. You can hold my word, Rania. I say again, even if Najwa comes home, I won't go back to Najwa." Dio convinces Rania to return.

"Dio, sorry, I don't trust you. You know a piece of paper? It was like a piece of paper my heart. Almost a year ago, you were squeezing a piece of paper. You know that paper is now broken, crumpled, and shapeless? And, you are trying to fix the paper you squeezed, will it come back as smooth as before? It could come back smooth, if you can take good care of it. However, if your past comes back and you enter into that past again, what's up with that paper you've tidied up? Tangled again, broken again, or even out of shape at all?" Rania tried to express what was in her heart.

"Okay, I'll prove it, if I never get back with Najwa. And, I promise, I will love you, only you are the woman that will be in my life until the end of this breath" Dio told Rania.

"Okay, just prove it." Rania replied without looking at Dio.

Dio started to think hard about what Rania said earlier. Dio wants Rania back. She loves Rania. I don't know why the feeling for Najwa is completely gone. Almost a year, after parting ways with Rania, made her admire the figure of Rania. Starting from a sense of admiration for Rania, until now the sense of awe that gave rise to a sense that once had.

The love that used to be now comes back. Yes, the love for Rania now appears again in Dio's heart. Dio knew, Rania would have a hard time believing in him. Dio steadied his heart to be able to convince Rania back.

Dio's car stopped in front of his house. The house he stopped at while he was still with Rania. Now it's just a memory. Dio never changed the order of his home. It was the same when I was with Rania. It's just that he added a photo of himself with Rania while at the riverside Cafe. He took the best photo and framed it and then he put it on the wall next to the photo of his wedding with Rania.

Dio put up a photo of her marriage to Rania, because she did not want her parents and Rania's parents to be suspicious about their marriage that was not okay. Rania went inside and walked after Dio. She saw every corner of the house she used to hang out with Dio while she was Dio's wife.

"It's still the same as it used to be" murmured Rania.

Rania sees a picture of her wedding with Dio still perched on the wall gallantly. Beside him is also seen a photo of himself with Dio time in the cafe on the river bank.

"He took that picture?" rania Gumam.

Rania was still circulating her gaze throughout the room of Dio's house. Dio approached Rania who was still standing glued to see again the photo displayed on the wall.

"What do you want to drink?" ask Dio.

"Cold white water exists, right?"

"Some, I'll get it for a second."

Dio walks into the kitchen and picks up water in the refrigerator. He gave it to Rania who was already sitting on the sofa of the living room.

"Drink first, Ran. I went to the room to get something" Dio said.

"It's not in the macems, is it?" rania asked a little suspicious of Dio.

"I'm not Evan, who was not accepted by Rania and then used a cunning way" Dio replied.

"Thank God, then" said Rania as she passed cold water from the bottle to the glass.

Rania gulped down the white water that Dio was treating. He looked at Dio's missing back entering his room. Dio's bedroom door is still open. Showing Dio who is busy arranging his things into cardboard boxes.

"What is he packing? How to use all the cardboard?" rania Gumam.

Dio came out with two piles of cardboard and put them in the front yard. Rania followed Dio who was on the front page.

"That's what Dio is?" ask Rania.

"The stuff is no longer useful, I'll throw it away" Dio replied.

Rania looks from the cardboard slit showing Dio's laptop. There are also books, clothes and I don't know what else is in the box.

"That's your laptop, why did you say there's no point in Dio anymore?" rania asked as she crouched open the cardboard.

"Dio, is this all you want to throw away?" ask Rania again.

"Yes, why is it?" Dio answered while asking.

"Is this the stuff you used to wear?"

"I haven't touched that stuff in a long time after I parted with you. Since then I've been sleeping in the room you used to sleep in." Dio answered casually while folding both his hands on his stomach.

"Why?" rania asked confusedly.

"Then you go. I'm getting to know that I can't do it without you. I feel more what you feel first. Ye know? This is all that's on the cardboard, my stuff that's connected to Najwa. That's all I'm gonna throw Rania away. What I keep it for. It's the same I can't get out of that past if I don't clean up everything that's connected to Najwa." Dio explained everything to Rania.

"It's a pity that if thrown away, Dio, this is all expensive stuff" said Rania.

"Do you love the past or the future?" ask Dio to Rania.

Rania only kept quiet as Dio said that. He still can't go back with Dio, even though Dio has done what he really wants to do to get back to Rania.

"Why silence? If you don't want to answer, what?" Dio.

"It's good to burn or what, Ran?" ask Dio to Rania.

"Mending is donated by Dio, what can be donated," said Rania.

"No ah, just throw it away" cap Dio.

"Honey Dio," said Rania.

"Dear, I love you, and not with all this stuff" Dio said.

"What the hell, not clear," said Rania.

"What's not clear is you, Ran. I've explained back and forth you're still unclear. It's yuk, to the dump."

"You what?" ask Rania.

"Still ask people. Come on, you want to be here?"

Rania got in the car. Dio did it to the landfill. All the things related to Najwa, he threw away. He doesn't care how much it costs. Clearly, Dio was already unwilling to deal with his past that made his life run low.

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Rania and Dio are already in Rania's office. They were greeted by Astrid who gave an invitation entrusted by Rudi to Astrid.

"Mba, there's an invitation." Astrid gave the invitation to Rania.

"Dio and Rania." Dio and Rania read the invitation.

"It's a reunion invitation, right? Why are you and I an invitation?" ask Rania.

"Where do I know? Maybe they knew we were husband and wife" Dio replied.

"Where might they know? We didn't invite them when we were married?" rania said with a question mark.

"That's why if you don't want to get caught, don't go to the back garden of the school with this." Dio shows a wedding photo of himself with Rania that Yohan found in the back garden of the school near the artificial lake.

"This why is it on you?" rania was confused.

"Tell me," Pinta Rania.

Dio told me all about the photos that fell in the garden behind his school. Rania does not believe that Yohan will find it and give it to Dio. Who could not believe, why Dio could be there after he went there.

"What do you want to go there?" ask Rania.

"Like you, my goals are just like yours" Dio replied.

"Do you know my purpose in getting there?" ask Rania.

"Clearly know, especially until this photo falls" replied Dio.

"Not covered up anymore, Rania. It's clear everything."

"Here back to the office. I want to continue working" said Rania.

"Alright, we will go to the reunion event together," said Dio.

"I didn't promise" replied Rania.

Dio answered nothing. He immediately left Rania's office and returned to her office.

Rania did not understand why Dio had changed like that. She's worried. It felt like accepting Dio back, but her heart was still hesitant and doubtful.

The fear when Najwa came back was still reflected in front of him. He did not want to be disappointed again because of love. He doesn't want to be hurt anymore for loving.

"Better I love you in silence. Although unrequited, this love still flows. And what I feel is really empty love. Than I love and have your body, but later you go with another woman. It'll hurt more than empty love." Rania said in her heart. He was still thinking about Dio's seriousness again, so he couldn't concentrate on work.

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Raffi's still finding out about Alina. He didn't give up on it all. Until Raffi dared to ask Naila's cousin Alina who now lives outside the city. However, to date there has been no response from Naila. It was the 5th night Raffi was at his official house. He was more comfortable staying at his home. Remembering her childhood with her beloved sister. Remembering his time with his umminya, and still many memories stored in the house.

"Ummi, is love as pure and sincere as ummi love to me? I miss the Ummi and Najwa." Raffi looked at the photo of Almira and Najwa in his room.

Raffi is very close to Umimina. She actually felt lost once when Almira left. However, he recalled the words of Alina and Naila back then. When uminya stiffened and helpless again.

Alina from behind was able to support Raffi who was too early in his official stay. Raffi, who was sitting pensively alone after his umminya funeral on the right side of the park, accidentally made Alina approach him.

Raffi only talks to Alina, if there is no woman who loves him anymore. Her mother left, Oma, and her grandmother also left her. Even then Annisa, was also not on Raffi's side, even though Shita was beside him.

"Raffi boy, Raffi must be strong, do not cry, later ummi there sad see Raffi like this. There's Brother Alina here. Raffi can play with Kak Alina here, if Raffi miss Ummi." As Raffi recalled the time Alina had accompanied him, calming his sad heart at the loss of his ummi.

"Ummi knows, Raffi is in love with Alina's sister, Ummi. Ummi, Kak Alina is a good woman, she who always accompanied Raffi when ummi was not there, before the mother married Abah. And, now, Raffi loves Alina. Does Raffi deserve it? If ummi still exists, there are many stories that Raffi wants to tell at this time. Ummi knows, Najwa doesn't know where it is now? Forgive Raffi, Ummi. Raffi can't take care of Najwa's sister." Without feeling Raffi's tears dripping down his cheeks.

Since Najwa left the house, and Shifa went with her husband, Raffi's days were spent at Almira's house. A house that can calm his mind.

Raffi came out and sat on the porch of the house. He looked around his house decorated with dim lights around the park. The reading garden was closed this afternoon. He was rejected by Alina again when she would take Alina home.

"Mas Raffi still hasn't slept?" greet Pak Abdul, the security guard who guards the house as well as the reading garden.

"No sir, it's only 8 o'clock. Abdul wants coffee?" Raffi offered Mr. Abdul coffee. However, Mr. Abdul refused because he had just spent one cup of coffee at the security guard post.

"I see, Mas Raffi is here more often now?" ask Abdul.

"Again the mood here, sir," replied Raffi.

"Kangen Mba Alina too, right?" Mr. Abdul knows that Raffi likes Alina.

"Sir Abdul could have," replied Raffi.

"Mas, Mba Alina is difficult if approached by men. Maybe because of his past. Mba Alina was once married, but it was only a matter of days straight at her husband's stay away. Don't know what the problem is. According to neighbors, they married only to pay off the debt of his mother Mba Alina alone. And, after that the man left," explained Mr. Abdul.

"So really Alina was married?" ask Raffi.

"Yes, never," replied Mr. Abdul firmly.

Raffi had not expected Alina to cover up her status. Alina may be traumatized by marriage. Raffi has been dizzy with Alina lately. He still did not want to give up on getting Alina.

"But, if you marry by agreement alone, wouldn't it be like that? Even if it is released, there is no burden. Then why did Alina come to that? With a man so cold." Raffi rethinks the way to approach Alina.

"Tomorrow I'll meet him, accepted or no business later. I just want to make sure, if I'm serious about getting her married, don't mess around" Raffi murmured.

After talking to Abdul, Raffi went back into the house. He locked the door and went straight into his room. Raffi used Ummi's room and his brother first. The room where when he was little slept on deck by his umminya.

"Ummi, maybe ummi's not on Raffi's side anymore. But ummi remains in Raffi's heart. Sorry Raffi has not been able to visit the ummi tomb," said Raffi Lirih.

Almira's tomb is separated from that of Andini and Arsyil. He was buried near the graves of his parents.

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Habibi is out of the hospital. It's getting late afternoon. Habibi picks up Ainun who is still in Nuri's boutique. Habibi went into the boutique. He met Nuri and Ainun who were busy with their work.

"You're here, Ki" said Nuri.

"It's done with my work, what else to do at the Hospital" Habibi replied.

"Nuy, my friend from Indonesia wants to come here. What if I put it in your house? You see he said the same wife and brother as well" Habibi said.

"May, if there is rent," he said.

"Same brothers alone like that. Take it easy, I will arrange everything" replied Habibi.

"OK, when is that?" ask Nuri.

"Maybe the end of the year. If he no longer has a job," replied Habibi.

"OK, just let me know when it's close" said Nuri.

"Who wants to come, baby?" ask Ainun to Habibi.

"Cie .. have you dared to call baby, right?" ledek Nuri's.

"Learn first, Nur. Let it be eloquent," Ainun said jokingly.

"Yes, yes .." said Nuri.

"That, my friend wanted to come here, when he got married, I didn't come, he kept saying he wanted a vacation here. Later his wife. So let it be at Nuri's house. Let his wife have friends. There will be Nuri and you" Habibi replied.

After chatting with Nuri and conveying that the arrival of his friend Habibi invited Ainun home. Ainun just kept quiet from earlier in the car. Ainun was still thinking about Habibi's friend. It could be that he knew Ainun and the Ainun family in Indonesia.

"Your friend doctor?" ask Ainun.

"No, he's a young businessman. He used to go to college here. And, after he found out I was now living here, he intended to visit me, all the holidays take his wife," Habibi replied.

"He's a native of Indonesia?" ask Ainun.

"Yes, he lives in Indonesia, but there is blood from Malaysia. He said so" answered Habibi.

Somehow Ainun still restless heart when Habibi talk about the arrival of friends from Indonesia.

"You why? Afraid that my friend knows you? Relax, he despite living in Indonesia, he often abroad take care of his business. There's no way he knows you. Maybe if you know your brother and opa is natural. Because your family is all businessmen. Calm down don't be tense like that. If you know also, yes it does not matter, early next year we will go to Indonesia. Do not think hard" explained Habibi.

"Yes, anyway. I'm just a little worried. But, it's true you said. Why do I think about it," Ainun said.

"That dong, that's Ainun's new name. Never be afraid, because fear will not solve everything. Smile dearly," Habibi pulled Ainun's cheek to conclude a smile.

Only Habibi, who made Ainun can smile while nearby. Even until he laughed. For Ainun, having a man like Habibi makes him believe more, that the man who is serious to us is not a man who is too fond of love. Like Habibi. He rarely speaks of love. However, Habibi's love was certain, and it hit Ainun's heart.

Ainun had just felt the love of a man who did not show much love. Though he knew, Habibi may have loved other women, and maybe very deep in his love for the woman who had once stopped in Habibi's heart.

Ainun paid no attention to Habibi's past. Wanting to be as complicated or as smooth as any past Habibi, Ainun only believed, if now Habibi would love him, unconditionally and without tarnishing the love for him. Because love is holy and sincere. Like Habibi's love for her, sincerely unconditionally and accepting herself for who she is.

"I will continue to cultivate love for you, Habibi. Like you who have always loved me who are full of flaws" Ainun murmured.