THE BEST BROTHERS

S3 Love For Them Chapter 37 "You Are Indeed Perfect"

Annisa went into her room, wanting to feel like she told her father-in-law all about Arsyad's attitude that suddenly changed when after the incident at the restaurant yesterday. Annisa also did not know why her husband became like that. Yesterday he had admired her enough because his indifference turned into a caring attitude, and he liked to joke. Annisa gets carried away when Arsyad treats something that makes her heart beat fast.

"I don't understand what's going on in my husband's mind, and I don't know when my husband will continue to be, even if he does, he's still my husband, and I'm going to try to be my best wife, without loving her and being loved by her," muttered Annisa.

Vino and Arsyad are still in the living room, they talk about work and sometimes they turn to their personal problems.

"Syad, good old or now?"vino Ledek.

"You ask me what the hell, Vin," Arsyad said.

"Just ask, have you ever felt two women" said Vino.

Arsyad was silent, he didn't know what to say. Moreover, he had not touched Nisa at all.

"Let's daydream." Vino punched Arsyad's arm.

"Oh yes, maa, Vin," Arsyad said.

Arsyad exhaled violently, he set his breath back and started talking to Vino.

"You know Vin, how I and Almira used to be, I can't forget it yet, Vin. I don't love Annisa at all" Arsyad said.

"Don't be like that, you have to learn, Syad. Don't be like that, the past is better to be shut up, keep the past in your deepest heart, the present, start with all your soul again, love your wife now, love your wife, before he loved anyone else" said Vino.

"Come, Vin. Don't talk about this, " said Arsyad.

Arsyad fell silent again, he felt that everyone needed him to love Annisa. But Arsyad does not want to try to love him, how he will love Annisa, Arsyad alone from yesterday every day he was at Mira's house. And office work until he takes it there.

"Mira, I'm sorry, I don't want to share this heart, I don't want Mira. This heart is only for you. You're wrong Mira, I don't love Annisa. I didn't love Annisa anymore, I was only concerned about Dio and Shifa back then. You were wrong, you shouldn't have told me to marry Annisa because you thought I still loved her. There's not the slightest bit of feeling for Annisa anymore, Almira. I only love you, forever, for the rest of my life" Arsyad murmured.

*Flashback On*

After the incident at the restaurant, Arsyad felt that he was not ready to love Annisa. He knew, at that time Annisa was jealous to see him with Lintang. Without him realizing his ignorant attitude he even slightly grew the love of Annisa on him.

As usual, Arsyad went to the office with Annisa in the morning, and from then on, she dared no longer tease Annisa and kiss Annisa again. Before going to the office, they take their children to school first. After taking her children to school, Arsyad and Annisa go to her office. Arsyad first escorted Annisa to his office.

Arsyad's car has entered Annisa's office area. Arsyad stopped his car in front of Annisa's office.

"Sister I'm in, huh?"pamit Annisa while kissing her husband's hand.

"Yes, be careful" Arsyad said.

Annisa knew that her husband would never kiss her again, even if it was just kissing her forehead. Because Arsyad slept in his room last night, he didn't sleep in Annisa's room.

Annisa got down and walked slowly, hoping her husband called her and kissed her like yesterday. But, that wasn't the case, before Annisa got into the car Arsyad was gone.

"Then, yesterday for what? Very quickly his attitude was fickle, wishy-washy," Annisa muttered while exhaling violently.

Arsyad drove his car to the office, but he abandoned his intention to go to the office. He just called his secretary, prepared the paperwork he had to work on and told the office driver to drive him to Almira's house. For some reason the soul of Arsyad thrashed eager to visit the tomb of Almira and eager to spend time in the house of Almira.

He arrived in front of the house of Almira, after which he went to the tomb of Almira to send Do'a. Arsyad was welcomed by security guards and some assistants in the house of Almira who still faithfully take care of the house of his employer, and take care of the reading garden owned by Almira. He immediately went into Almira's room and himself first, a room that still looked very neat and clean. Because every day is cleaned by an assistant who is at Mira's house.

Arsyad opened the closet on Almira's desk while she was still actively writing. He took Almira's laptop and turned it on. Seen on the laptop screen is a photo of him with Almira. He opens a file belonging to Almira, Arsyad finds the file "My Lovely Husband". Arsyad opened it, he saw a lot of photos of Arsyad, which he took secretly without Arsyad's knowledge. There are also some writings for her husband in the file.

"While I cannot achieve your love, I am happy to have you, my husband. I really love you. The heart cannot lie, even if the mouth says no. Is there still love for Annisa, my husband? If there is still, what should I do, so that you can be happy with Annisa?

You often tell me, with me, you learn what love is without expressing the word love. Indeed you are a man who never indulged in the word love, mas. You are a man of certainty. How this heart is unhappy to have you. The man I always hoped for, whom I always called his name in the do'a, so that God could unite us in the sacred bond of love that is marriage. And God granted my request. Isn't that beautiful, baby?

Day after day we knit the strong rope of love, the more I feel your love fused in my soul. I know, I loved me only half-heartedly back then, when we were new together. Love is still there for Nisa, right? I know that, mas. But I won't give up, I'll make you really love me completely.

Until one day we gather at Papah's house, you always steal a look with your sister-in-law. Yes, it's not wrong if you still put your heart on him. She was your first love, and so were you, you were my first love. I tried to accept that, again, the heart never lies. I believe you love me, love me so much, but in the trough of your heart you still love Annisa. Yes, I was jealous at the time, I admit, I was very jealous. Because I can't take first place in your heart, even if I'm your wife.

I am happy to have a husband like you, a husband who always understands what I want, a husband who always spoils his wife. You really are the woman's dream husband, mas. When Najwa and Raffi were born, you were always the best husband, loving me and the children, until when I lay weak because I had to have surgery to remove one of my kidneys, you always took care of me, and take care of our child.

Mas, remain my Arsyad, the Arsyad who has always loved me, at any time in our household. You are Abah and the greatest husband. And the moment after the death of your sister, Arsyil, you always came to Annisa's house. Look at the life of Annisa, the children of Annisa, until you forget there is me beside you, there I am your wife, there is Najwa and Raffi your children. I know I lost Arsyil, and Dio was the one who healed your longing for Arsyil.

Back then, I was thinking of asking you to marry Annisa. Because I know, mas, my love for Annisa is still there and blooming, even though I love me very much. I would have liked it if you had combined this love. I can't force love, I don't want to be selfish. But all that, did not happen, because Annisa left all of us, after I felt disappointed and rebuked her to stay away from you.

It's my fault, mas. Separating Annisa from the papah, and her husband's brother, let her go leaving a million memories with Arsyil here, leaving behind her husband's grave that even daily she visits him non-stop, although heavy rain flushed his body at that time, he remained to the tomb of Arsyil. It's my fault, but I promise you, Annisa will definitely come back, and I'll have you marry Annisa, if she ever returns. I'll bring your first love again, mas. Even if this heart hurts, I will still ask you to marry Annisa. With or without your consent. I'm sincere, she's a good woman and she's your first love."

Arsyad's tears were flowing very hard. She cried until she hiccupped. He could not believe that his wife had written it all, and there were many more Almira writings about him, from the beginning of the meeting until he died. It was written by Almira the day after Annisa's departure to Berlin.

"You're wrong, Almira, you're wrong, I don't love Annisa. You are the only one in my heart to date. Yes, I used to love Annisa a lot, but since I've been with you, I don't feel that love anymore, not at all, Almira. So, just because of your guilt, you told me to marry Annisa? By giving a terakir message to the papah and a letter to Najwa as well as Shifa? It's not fair Mira. You're the woman I love, I can't love Annisa anymore. I promise, I will never love anyone but you, even though Annisa is my wife now. I'm sorry, I've touched Annisa, but just kissed her and hugged her, I'm sorry, Mira." Arsyad cried hugging a photo of Almira.

Arsyad fell silent, sitting himself in a chair where Almira often sat there while writing. He recalled when he teased his wife who was seriously writing, until there was a flashlight on their bed.

"I miss you, Almira, if you will when I will give you one of my kidneys. You must still be here, with me, we're happy with our children"how Arsyad.

Today Arsyad does all the office work in the house of Almira, a house full of memories with Almira, his late wife.

*Flashback Off*

Rico, Shita, and Rico's grandchildren enter the house. They approached Arsyad and Vino who were still in the living room. They sat back and chatted in the living room, while the children went to his room. Najwa, seeing that her mother was not in the living room, searches for Annisa to her room. Najwa knocks on Annisa's bedroom door. Anis who was pensive and crying, she was shocked by the knock on her bedroom door.

"Mother, this is Najwa, what's the mother inside?"ask Najwa.

"Ah, yes, just a minute, son. Mother is in the bathroom." Annisa immediately wiped her tears, she washed her face and after that she reflected on the condition of her eyes that were quite swollen.

"Cock-ass? Surely Najwa knows I've been crying, let it be, I'll just say later if I wake up, because I fell asleep," murmured Annisa.

"Mother, how long?"najwa asked from behind the door of Annisa's room.

"Yes, baby, just a second." Annisa answered him and walked up to the door of his room.

Annisa welcomes Najwa with a big smile, rubbing her head.

"Mother, are you on a march with Abah?"this made Annisa think.

"Why did he feel it. And only Najwa always asks like this, when I and Brother Arsyad are silent to each other" Annisa murmured.

"No, you're not married to Abah, baby" Annisa said.

"Mother's lying, mother's crying, right?"ask Najwa.

"True, he talks like this" Annisa muttered.

"Mother doesn't cry, baby." Annisa tries to evade

"Mother, may Najwa go into your room? Najwa wants to talk to you, "ask Najwa.

"May, come on in" Annisa said.

Najwa enters Annisa's room. Annisa closed her bedroom door and locked her bedroom door. Annisa's room was airtight, so no one could hear them talking in her room, not even shouting even if the people outside didn't hear her.

"What are you talking about, this one's daughter?"asked Annisa while putting herself on the bed.

"Are you not happy to be married to Abah?"ask Najwa.

"Forcuse Najwa, who forced mother and Abah to marry, Najwa only wants to fulfill the ummi request for the last time, because after that, Najwa does not know what ummi wants, mother," said Najwa.

"Mother's happy, baby. Mommy is happily married to Abah, mom is happy to have good children and Sholeh is also Sholeh like you, mom is very happy." Annisa hugs Najwa and kisses Najwa on the top of his head.

"If you're happy why last night and last night Abah and mother sleep in their respective rooms?"ask Najwa.

Annisa is confused to answer what, Najwa is very mature, she understands what Annisa feels, and she knows that we are having problems since the incident at the restaurant yesterday.

"So sleep in your bedroom, really," replied Annisa.

"Don't lie, you don't lie, Najwa at 3 am is awake. Najwa saw Abah coming out of Abah's room, with a wajaw like waking up, it means Abah sleeps in Abah's own room," explained Najwa.

"Get up at 3 in the morning?"ask Annisa.

"Yes, Najwa always woke up at that hour, since ummi was sick, Najwa always woke up at 3 am, for evening prayers. And until morning Najwa never slept again" Najwa explained.

"Yes, my mother, yesterday bundan and I slept in my own room?"ask Najwa again.

Annisa could not escape, she did not know what to answer, other than being honest with Najwa. Najwa can always guess the look on the face of someone who has a problem. Not just Annisa and Arsyad. With Opanya even Shita and her brothers. He knows if someone has a problem.

"Mother, why not answer?"ask Najwa.

"Yes, yesterday and last night Abah did sleep in Abah's room, Abah said goodbye to mother, because Abah wanted calm to do office work," explained Annisa.

"Can't you do it in your room? Will Abah sleep in this room tonight? Or in another room?"ask Najwa again.

"Yes here dong, baby. It's Mother and Abah's room, "try Annisa.

"Let's have lunch, Mba Lina is done maybe arrange the food," Annisa said.

"Yes, Najwa is hungry too, let's go out." Najwa took Annisa out of her room and called out to everyone gathered in the living room.

They were all at the dining table. The silent atmosphere enveloped the dining room, Only the sound of the clanking of plates and spoons was faintly heard.

"Wouldn't you go?"ask Annisa.

"I am full" replied Arsyad.

"Normally he calls brother, not me, now completely different, Brother Arsyad. Why is it so cold again? Oh God, am I strong enough to live with a husband like this?"annisa murmured in the heart.

"They both do not love each other, Annisa is trying to be a good wife for Arsyad, my son. But Arsyad's heart seemed frozen and would not accept Annisa. What's the matter with him? Though from yesterday the beginning of their marriage, it seems like Arsyad is mediocre, even often judging his wife. And last night, I saw that Arsyad wasn't sleeping in Annisa's room, what were they hiding?" Rico wondered in his heart.

After lunch, they all said goodbye to go home. Rico deliberately let them alone, because Rico believes Annisa and Arsyad are having problems.

Arsyad and Annisa re-enter her house after they deliver Papah, Shita, Vino, Farrel and Rana ahead to return home. The children had already returned to her room, Annisa called out to Arsyad who was already walking in front of her.

"Sister, wait," call Annisa.

"What's Annisa?"arsyad asked without looking at his wife.

"I want to talk to you for a minute" Annisa said.

"What are you talking about?"asked Arsyad while sitting himself on the porch seat

Annisa sits next to Arsyad, knowing that her husband doesn't want her.

"Sorry sister, um." Annisa's words were cut off, it felt like she would heavily get her words out.

"What do you want to say? The chunky!"arsyad Tukas.

Arsyad spoke in a half-angry tone with Annisa. Annisa who did not know her husband to be changed, she was very afraid because Arsyad a little snapped, especially when she saw the face of Arsyad that looks there is a streak of anger on his face.

"Prophe Nisa, be patient, you can definitely go through this, and then you can be snapped from a man called a husband, who is called, after almost 10 years of being housebound with Arsyil who was filled with laughter, you have to face a sumai like your sister-in-law, this," murmured Annisa.

"Najwa tonight look, you didn't sleep in my room, she thought me and brother were marching" Annisa said with a slight relaxation.

"Just explain to him, if there's nothing with us, and sorry Nisa, we sleep should be separated, I want to win myself first, I'll sleep in the guest room, I'll sleep in the guest room, or in the upper room. I'm sorry I couldn't touch you" Arsyad said.

"No matter I am not touched by my brother, even being a wife is not considered no problem, I will still fulfill my obligations a wife at home, without fulfilling the obligations of the bed with my sister, I will continue to fulfill my duties, because that's what you want, so I'm innocent, and you're going to bear it all, because you don't give your life as a husband" Annisa said

"And one more, brother. I ask in front of the children do not look brother like this attitude, if you do not want, my sister and child become burdened by the problem of Abah and her mother," said Annisa.

"I'm sorry I'm going to sleep in the guest room, this is my sister's house, so I have the right to sleep in my sister's room. And I'll be out of my sister's room at 12pm, after making sure the kids are sleeping well" Annisa added.

Arsyad just silently said his wife, he was still sitting glued to the porch chair. Annisa was also sitting next to her husband. Whether what makes Arsyad like that, Annisa is also very confused. Annisa wants to go home, but she does not want her children to think that she is having problems with Arsyad.

"What makes your heart freeze like this, brother? Can't you treat me as your wife well? Even if you never touch her later," Annisa muttered.

"I'm sorry I yelled at you, somehow I became angry with you after reading all Mira's writing inside her laptop. I don't know, I got this angry and I feel so guilty for following what Mira wanted. Yes, marrying you is Almira's last wish. She asked like that, because I still love you, I don't love you at all, Annisa. I'm sorry, I can't fulfill my duty as a husband" Arsyad murmured.

Arsyad is perfect, he is a man who obeys religion, but he fails to be a husband, he fails to be unable to control emotions, that makes Annisa disappointed, with a loud tone Annisa was forced to say harshly with her husband.

"You are perfect, brother. Brother, a hafizd Qur'an, a graduate from Cairo, if he says he is perfect for his religious knowledge. You know, all of it will collapse and in vain because you treat your wife is not good, especially to hurt her. It's not that I'm advising you, it's not that I want you to touch me, treat me like your wife. I'm talking the truth, brother. Isn't that what religion teaches about husband and wife? Should we give and take each other? Love one another, care for and respect his feelings" Annisa said.

"I will fulfill my duty, the birthplace I will give all to you, Annisa. I am also responsible with your children, and love them like my own, Arsyad said.

"I can too, make a living born to live me with my son, brother. Don't you just give me I can, already I don't want to argue anymore, whatever you want, sorry Annisa has spoken rudely with sister and has patronized Annisa's husband." Annisa moved from her seat, she went inside with a chest that felt tight to hear her husband's words.

Annisa as much as possible held back her cries, she did not want to look weak in front of her husband.

"I don't want my brother to touch me, love me, like a husband and wife. I want you to respect me as a wife. The brother who taught me to say rude earlier, and I'm sorry I was also able to rudely talk like that," Annisa muttered.

Arsyad is still glued to the patio chair. He thought about Annisa's words earlier. Yes, indeed he studied the science of religion will be in vain, because he could not accept the reality, he could not make a living to his wife and still remember his past too deeply.

"Yes, I realized I was wrong, I was sinful. But this is a very bitter reality, I can't, I can't love Annisa, I can't give an inner living to Annisa. It is very difficult for me to accept all this, O God. Forgive me. I don't know when I'll take this sin" Arshad murmured.

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