That man is my husband

A Confession

Sayup - Sayup heard the sound of adhan reverberating calling all Muslims to get out of his bed to wake up and carry out the obligation of prayer. Now I have woken up and feel heavy in my stomach like someone is piling up . I looked and I realized that beside me there was a person I missed who I loved who from the beginning of marriage wanted to continue with him now in front of my eyes, and remember the union of our love last night for the first time that was so beautiful. I stared fixedly at my husband's face so it looked peaceful, calm different when he realized he always showed a cold face, indifferent to everyone except me, his family and close friends, but everyone should know that the man in front of me is my husband.

Too cool to admire Abang to forget the obligation of prayer that I have not done, then I went from the bed to the bathroom to do a mandatory bath ,after I finished I woke up Brother to tell him it was time to pray .and to take a shower immediately.

" Dear brother woke up, already entered at dawn" I said while moving - shoulder movements Brother

Abang was immediately surprised to wake up "Astagfirullah. ..kok Abang to not hear the sound of adhan , never before like this"

" It's too good my brother slept. "

" Maybe?.but of course because there is Adek so Brother sleeps really good because it has a new roll, live again" said Brother while poking my nose. ..

" Ih Abang adek already have wudu tau even hold - hold it will be void "

" Your brother doesn't know, baby "

" Yaudah cepetan Abang bathe gih .kan want to pray together "...

" It. .He took a shower first "

Today for the second time I pray together with Abang, I hope that you can be the best priest of my life who can lead me to Your land, Lord, and forgive me for all the shortcomings that exist in me perfection is only God's, so that we can complement each other and fill the shortcomings that exist in each of us.

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Exactly at 7 am Brother drove me to the dormitory, there is a sad feeling it does not feel like parting to always be close to Brother especially from today Brother will be busy with pursuing his script, he said, will not meet, even if you have free time. But I realize I can't be selfish all these ends for the good of me and Brother ." O heart please just in the meantime cooperate with myself not to miss Abang "

Now I am in front of the door of my dorm room.I just realized since yesterday my phone died and I did not have time to charger must be a lot of calls and chat from my three friends . Please - hope the anxiety that I feel now.Why are they angry with me.

" hah "i was throwing a rough breath . I dare to enter, not yet I open the door handle has been opened by Sifa at that time I also , Sifa, Mery and Risya looked at each other from their eyes gazes full of worry as well as disappointment.

" Just returned, then,? I guess I forgot the way home" said Sifa ketus

" I'm sorry my phone is dead so it's not easy to tell the news "wrinkly answer.really this is my first experience in the introduction by my three friends. I usually act like this if they're wrong.

" Don't think how the cemsasnnya we think of you until we do not sleep well..timba Risya.

" What do you consider our friendship to be Aisyah? ??? ask Mery

" okay again I'm sorry my phone is really dead and I'm not perfect for the mencharger, and maybe it's time you guys found out about. ....I looked hesitant but this I had to do so that they would not misunderstand me .

" About what? ?? is there something you're hiding from us? ??

" What exactly do you want to say? ? mery

" Don't be too wordy - tele. .to the point. just overwrite Risya.

" Okay. .listen. ..Why lately I rarely go out with you guys maybe even every week au sellu go and you guys already know who I'm going with,

hmmm so the point is that I am married and I am married to Kk Rudi so I can serve my husband only on weekends.

" What? married married married? say my three best friends together

" Crazy...this is crazy.This big thing you're hiding from us, what do you consider our friendship? sifa

"I know I'm wrong but this is Rudi's wish

.he didn't want to interrupt my college so this wedding we're hiding includes the three of you. I'm sorry, yeah"

"Our father is disappointed with you. ..was you the one who likes to say that we can't lie we can't cover up our problems. .have you forgotten? risya said full of anger

" I didn't forget it at all, but it's different from my current position as isrti of course I have to listen to my husband"

" When did you get married ? ask Sifa

" It's been 3 months and I got married when I came home. Really my marriage with Brother impromptu because the initial intention of Brother will only propose to me but my father instead asked Brother to marry me directly on the grounds that here someone is looking after me and of course in order to avoid slander" I explained to them.

There was no answer from them.I saw disappointment in their eyes .What a thing I don't want to happen now then if they're like this what about me what about my days without them .

" I asked that big was my mistake ?? to the point that I see you don't want to forgive me for blaming me for serving my own husband? ?? I know I can't be honest with you guys but if I make. .my own husband wants this. I asked what if you were in my position ?? What are you guys gonna do? ??

they were silent and they started to tear up and began to drop a clear liquid, as soon as my three best friends glared at me with sobs.

" I'm sorry ..sorry if I'm in your position I'll do the same" Sifa said.

" So was I. ..sorry we were just worried because no one came home in contact was so hard" Risya said

" You're not wrong here I'm completely wrong" I said

There was a sense of relief after telling the truth of my marriage to my three best friends, feeling free from such a heavy burden. The burden that I carried for 3 months on my own.