That man is my husband

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The clock kept turning fast, it didn't feel like I was waiting for three more hours. I can't wait, I want to know what really happened.

"Where's the hell is she going?" intercept one of the mekap teams.

I stared at my arm held. "I have to find out. I can't stay like this without knowing what's really going on" I'm sure.

I don't want to be a fool without doing anything. Hugging without clarity. Then I continued my intention to look at the place where the meeting-living event will take place.

The heart that rumbled with curiosity instantly felt subsided. From above I could see a man shaking hands with Abi.

The man was behind me. The ijab kabul process.

I was a little relieved.my anxiety was not proven, I know the reason why in the living room there sounds quiet as if there is no wedding ceremony. The reason is because it does not use a microphone until the sound is only heard around there.

But. wait! There is something strange, why I see faces full of sadness. Their faces looked like they were grieving. Again, I circulated the gaze to every corner there was no figure of my friend-Reni. What, yes, he intends not to attend my happy show?

My eyes and Abi meet. I smile because I am happy right now. Married the lecturer himself without the courtship process, only limited to ta'aruf only. This was my dream from the beginning.

Abi should look happy, right? But. Abi's gaze looks sad like that. I really don't like puzzles. I don't like it when I have to collect these weird pieces.

Abi looks at Uma, then Abi is seen giving a signal to Uma. And that second also Uma immediately walked up like she was about to catch up with me.

"Uma" I said as Uma stood before me. I also hugged him right away. Happiness hug.

I flinched as Uma's embrace turned tighter and tighter. And.. wait! Uma crying? Ah, yes, maybe Uma was crying because she was so moved and happy. I also now help strengthen Uma's embrace.

In my mind, I thought that Uma had come to me because she wanted to invite me and lead me down. As I've seen. After the kabul process, the bride will be welcome to sit next to the groom. Then why am I not? Why did Uma bring me back into the room?

At that time my head started to hurt. I began to feel an increasingly clear incongruity.

"Why did Uma take me to my room again? Ijab is over, I should be right now next to my husband."

From my series of questions there was not a single one Uma answered. Uma just asked me to sit down, then she clasped my finger tightly. His hand was like he was giving strength.

"Uma, Ais ask you please don't be like this. Did Uma change her mind to not accept my marriage to Mr Zain? Why does Ais feel that there is something strange. What the hell is going on? What did Ais accuse of was true?"

Suddenly Uma bowed and sobbed. Her body shook signifying that Uma was trying not to cry but unfortunately failed. Uma kept crying.

"Uma...., why is Uma crying?"

Uma. Then look at me inside. But before that, he wiped his tears.

I nodded in understanding. "Yes, trust Uma. Because believing in destiny includes faith number six."

"If Ais believes, it means believing also if everything that happens to us belongs to the destiny of Allah SWT. Neither good destiny nor bad destiny."

Uma paused her words, she took a deep breath. Then slowly puffed from his mouth. While I can only wait for what other words Uma will say.

"We cannot deny destiny at all. Because actually what is happening now has Allah SWT record before we are born into the world. Anything that we go through and we can have Allah SWT arrangement with Serapi, as good and fair as possible."

I was getting confused by the direction Uma spoke. In my mind I asked what does Uma say to this marriage?

"Uma, what's the matter? Just tell the ice. Why did Ais feel that Uma was just talking in circles?"

"Uma just wants you to accept whatever happens to you. All is not spared from the destiny of Allah SWT. Trust God SWT knows what is best for us. Whatever it is, accept it with all sincerity, pleasure and willingness."

"Ais knows Uma. Everything that happens in this world is nothing but the intervention of Allah SWT. Sadly, all belong to Allah SWT. Even we belong to God. Uma, Abi, the sisters of Ice, treasure, son and all belong to Allah SWT which He will take back at any time."

Uma hugged me back. I really don't know what's going on yet. I feel something is strange. But I try to shake off all doubts. I leave all my business to Allah SWT.

Uma once again held my hand. It was like he was getting ready - ready to talk again.

"Aise. It was hard for Uma to say this. But Uma really has to say this. Whatever Uma and Abi hide this truth, you will know. Because this truth is so real." Uma said with a lump.

The truth? What truth does Uma mean? Why do I feel so bad? Something bad happened, but what?

"Uma, don't make Ais afraid. What Uma really wants to say."

"It's about Zain."

"Sir Zain? What happened to Ais' husband, Uma?"

Instead of answering, Uma instead cried more and more. He also brought my body back into his arms. His embrace became uncontrollable again.

"He .. he...,"

"Why?"

"Zain .. he.. his car."