Sorry Boss, I Love U
SB 85'S
" Dear, are you conscious ??? I miss you, don't you miss me ??? " my greeting to my beloved husband who is lying helplessly in the VVIP room of this hospital.
There was an infusion hose, and several other tubes that served to keep my husband alive until now.
The sound of a loud heart recording device made my hair goosebumps, not to mention the sound of snoring from James' mouth that sounded faint even though he was fully aware.
The sound made my voice growl.
Oh my God . . . Is this all you James???
The more I felt guilty and afraid I would lose James by my side.
" I love you Princess "he said in a raucous and soft voice, breaking my heart.
Then I held his fingers in his cold hands.
I endured my cries very, very hard to hold it as hard as I could.
I remembered the message of mommy, papi and mama to always be strong in front of James.
" LORD, I BEG YOUR HUSBAND TO PROTECT ME, I DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIM. I WANT TO LIVE WITH HIM UNTIL WE GET OLD.
LORD . . .
LET ME DO MY PRAYER THIS TIME, I BEG GOD "
My moaning in today
" Dear, you don't move much. Please save your energy, I'm sure you'll be healed and we'll be together again huh " I said to James with a soft caress of his chest which he held steady when he spoke or when he moved.
" There is no time for my wife, I have to finish my duties as husband and head of our family "said James crazily while still enduring pain.
" It's okay princess, let James tell us something, while he can still deliver it. James, try to tell us what of your unfulfilled desires son ", Papi said trying to calm me down.
I can't dodge it anymore either, ' said Papi. I will do what I can to ask James for the last time, maybe this is my love and devotion for the last time for my beloved husband.
" I'm thankful enough for Pi, that all my wishes have been achieved before I close my eyes. Even my greatest desire to marry the woman I love so much has been achieved. I just want Princess and Bang Angga to get married right now before I finally have to leave her alone in this world.
I hope that you princess will accept my last request ", James said at length
" Crazy you Boy, I'm not Sudi. "I said with my chest that arrived - suddenly claustrophobic to hear my husband's unreasonable request.
" Dear, listen to your husband's explanation first "mommy James said by holding my finger and then squeezing it gently.
" I want you to have someone accompany me later if I'm not by your side anymore baby. I deliberately chose Bang Angga, because I already knew him inside and about the first time he abandoned you I also already know the reason and I can also accept it. Please, baby, please. I just want you to be happy with the people you love. Thank you for your love, care and togetherness throughout this time. I'll keep it in here until I die. Aaaaaaaakh . . "jamea said by pointing at her chest and suddenly she held her chest pressing firmly and her eyes closed and her mouth groaned with pain.
Spontaneous we who are still in this VVIP room was a fog in the making.
James' right hand was still holding my hand tightly as I panicked for help.
It's like James doesn't want me to leave his side
