Sorry Boss, I Love U

SB 45

When I woke up from my sleep that I accidentally because of the soy sauce because I cried last night, I saw the clock on my HP already showing at 00:15.

My face to my left, there is a Mama who sleeps right next to me.

I don't know when he slept there.

Slowly - I got out of this bed.

hope not to disturb her sleepy mother.

I stepped closer to the sofa in this room to pick up my cardigan, I felt this chill run through my bones - my handyman who made me feel sick.

I opened the door to my mother's room very carefully, even though it didn't sound at all.

I came out of the room and put on my cardigan.

I set my feet to drink mineral water, after I met I took a full glass and drank it, after I finished filling my empty glass with mineral water again, again and again.

Four glasses are not felt.

My throat was very dry and my stomach was hungry.

The prospective baby in my womb seemed to kick - kicked my stomach to ask for food.

" Patience baby, for a while Mother Carikan eat first "my whisper on my stomach with my hands rubbing - ngusapnya.

After a long search, I also found rice, side dishes, and complete vegetables are still served on the right table.

" Mom may have prepared it, but because of Big Brother Tasya who was angry - angry so we all stopped for dinner.

I ate it a little greedily without before I heated it first because I was hungry.

In the middle - the middle of my eating ritual, suddenly a burst of ideas

" Where if I just leave this house, tomorrow Angga will take me to the hospital to "Kill "my fetus.

My hands stopped to put rice in my mouth.

Feelings of fear and horror arrived - suddenly coming into my heart and mind.

" Don't worry son, mother will protect you. neither Angga nor Kak Tasya will you allow to tease you dear "my word is clean and sure.

I shed my tears, and I began to rise from my seat, I stepped my feet slowly - the land went into Angga's room, it turned cososng there.

" Is it possible that they both went out ??? " ask me in the day.

" Aakh what my business is, I no longer care for them "my mouth and then comfort myself.

I packed my clothes and other items that I deliberately brought from the Angga house to stay at this mama's house a few days ago.

Don't forget I brought my wallet and my HP.

I threw out my first card on my phone so no one could contact me.

Steadily, I set foot to leave this house, leaving behind all the bitter memories and good memories that I had been through all this time.

After being outside this house, I look for a moment at the beautiful house full of memories.

" Mommy forgive me, I leave without saying goodbye. May your mother always be healthy and happy "I said softly with my eyes that began to look glassy.

I set my feet to go away from my home and my destiny with Angga, my mother, Tasya's sister and my parents.

I'm pretty sure they won't defend me, none of them will protect my son from killing him.

Let me open a new leafan of my life to live alone with my son when he is born.

I've sworn to raise her no matter what happens, I'm sure only God will take my side, protect me and love us both.

Along the way, my tears were unrelenting - stopping them rushing out.

God protect me, protect my baby-to-be, give me your sustenance, throw down hard and hallal for us to eat and the needs of me later.

Yes, even though I actually still have a little savings, which Angga always sends to me every month as a wage to rent my womb.

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May this money be enough for our lives ahead, Lord. "I wail in my heart by tightly grasping the bag I carry.