Shining Sunny's

Letter From Alina

Since Alina's death, Sania has become very shy. Doctor Marta as her close friend did not even dare to interrupt her time even though Sania was not at work, she chose to give him time to calm himself down.

" Shhh.. Doctor Sania is so sorry, yes. He's been trusted to handle professor Ryan's niece but he didn't make it."

" I think because he's Professor Ryan's golden boy he's as great as people say."

" However he hasn't got his degree officially, why is professor Ryan expecting so much from him."

Braaks..

Doctor Marta breaks the table as some of the doctors who are having lunch gather while gossiping about Sania.

" hey.. You guys can't talk a little slower. I even the ones far away can smell the unpleasant smell from here and make my appetite disappear." doctor Marta reprimanded with her ferocious face.

" Doctor Marta, what the hell is your problem with us?."

" What are you guys having trouble with Sania? You should have sympathized with him but instead talked about him behind the back. You're a lot more senior than him but don't demean him like that just because Professor Ryan prefers the way he works to you."

Doctor Marta turned around and left the doctors after making a scene in the psychiatric center cafeteria. Sania who just entered for lunch apparently heard what she said and it made her very moved because among the many people who often gossip about her, doctor Marta has always been the only one who dared to defend him.

" Senior.wait."

Sania chased after Marta who was walking down the hallway.

" Oh, Sania."

" I'm sorry for ignoring you these few days. It's just that my feelings are being messed up and I don't want you to be my impingement."

Brug.

Doctor Marta spontaneously embraced Sania.

" Basic bad girl. What good do you think a friend is if you can't even share your grief. I'm so worried but I can't do anything when you're in trouble."

Sania's eyes began to blur. Though he had promised not to cry about the incident again but because the doctor Marta who showed her sincerity as a friend he finally could not hold back his tears so much because it turned out he was not there are always people who remain on his side no matter how much he makes a mistake he thinks.

" Doctor Marta... Huhuhoo.."

Sania cries a little in Marta's arms as she continues to rub Sania's back.

" Don't pretend to be tough. When you want to cry, find me."

Sania was unable to say anything she could only nod. Since lunch was still a long time ago the two decided to go to the roof together and enjoy coffee before returning to work. Sania's eyes were still damp because she cried for a long time but she was finally relieved because she could release the tightness of her chest for the umpteenth time.

" Professor Ryan made the right decision. Among us there is no one as good as you to handle Alina. Although she ultimately chose to take a decision we didn't expect but during the course of treatment with you, Alina showed progress and everyone knows it."

" Yes I know. But still I feel bad for professor Ryan who has entrusted it to me."

Alina rubbed her face with still feeling a stifling feeling.

" Sania professor Ryan and Alina's mother are on their way here."

Sania turned her head in the direction meant by Marta, she reflexively stood up nervously as the two people approached them.

" l-yes. Greetings know me Sania."

Sania shook Ryna's hand with an awkward smile.

" I'm sorry doctor Sania for greeting you now and I'm seeing you all of a sudden like this."

" It's okay. But if you ever get to see me like this, there's gotta be something important."

" Well, can we talk with four eyes?."

Ryna gestures to professor Ryan and Marta understands that so she follows professor Ryan to move and make room for the two men.

" Doctor Sania, I heard during the treatment with you Alina made a lot of progress. I haven't thanked you for that."

" You don't thank me, because I can't even help her."

Ryna then grabs Sania's hand and holds it in her lap.

" I know you must be as devastated as we are as your family. But I hope you don't blame yourself because everything that happens is Alina's choice."

" Yes, madam. Thank you for accepting my shortcomings as doctor Alina."

Ryna took a long breath. His eyes were bright and Sania could see the sadness still very clearly radiated on his face.

" I only realized after Alina left that the way we loved her was wrong from the beginning. If anyone is to blame of course it is me because I am the cause of him having his mental disorder. I thought I was doing my best for him but all I did was hurt him. I was too stupid to be treated arbitrarily by Papa Alina, I thought as long as I survived I would be able to protect her but in the end her guilt took her life. If only I had fought back then maybe he would still be with me."

Sania shed her tears upon hearing the words of Mama Alina.

" But now that my eyes are wide open, I've lost the only thing I want to protect. Alina's courage gave me strength so I'm going to get divorced from my husband and live to be who I want to be like Alina's always wanted to be."

Ryna smiled bitterly with teary eyes. Sania really did not expect that Alina's mother was so strong and strong all this time to endure all her pain just for Alina's sake. And so did Alina she even sacrificed her life just to make her parents aware of her mistake, what a very brave child.

" I'm very concerned about what you've been going through all this time. I just found out not long ago from the pictures in Alina's book."

" Thank you and also, Alina left a letter for you."

Ryna took out a paper from inside her coat. He finally said goodbye after saying all the things he wanted to say to Sania.

Dear doctor Sania,

By the time you read this letter I might have been in a beautiful and pleasant place. Doctor, thank you for making me realize that I am innocent. Thank you for always saying I'm good enough and always a good listener. Now I can go with no burden and all this is thanks to you. I'm sorry for having to go this way but the doctor don't hate me..

The doctor will probably grieve and blame yourself but I hope you understand this decision I made...

If only I could get to know you earlier maybe I'd be so happy to have such great friends, brother and doctor like you.

Alina's.

Sania smiled but still her tears came out first. He then flipped the paper and in the back of the page was Sania's face drawn by Alina. Sania was moved because in the last seconds of her life it turned out that Alina was still thinking about it. I don't know why his heart was warm and his burden seemed to just disappear after reading a letter from Alina.

Alina's.. Hope you're happy there.