Not Suited to Exposure

4. Talk Time

Malika Ashifa's.

The name skyrocketed again for the umpteenth time when a biography was displayed nicely in Mading Journalism. Beautiful and accomplished with unquestionable intelligence. His position as a major in the Marching Band made all schools know him.

I turned my eyes back to the front and continued my steps to my class. For some reason after seeing a glimpse of the biography made my mood even worse. Last night I kept thinking about Rael until I had mild insomnia.

Ever since I accidentally said that taboo sentence yesterday, I don't feel like I have any face to face with that guy who is my girlfriend status.

I knew Rael would leave me, but I sped it up. Maybe after this Rael will say, 'Lo really. I shot you again because I broke up with Malika. I'm sorry. We're over.'

Ja. Malika is Rael's ex. More precisely, because that girl Rael decided on me. And when they broke up, Rael asked for another relationship with me.

Sounds like a jerk, right?

I-i know.

I sighed and patted my face slowly before entering the classroom. Andin was already sitting sweetly in his chair while playing his phone.

I sit in my chair. "Liona's not coming?" I asked to see the seat on my right was still empty, even though the doorbell was about to ring.

"coming. Go to girlfriend class. Ganjen," replied Andin with a curse at the end. It sounded rude, but for both Andin and Liona, it was no big deal.

I shook my head. Just as I was about to tinker with my phone, Rael suddenly came and stood in front of me. His sudden arrival made me not even think of saying. Say I'm trying to avoid it.

"Gue wants to talk. Not here," he said with an expressionless face.

I opened my mouth to say, but I had no idea what to say. When Rael seemed impatient waiting, the bell rang until all the students outside went inside.

I saw this guy in front of me clenching his lips with fused eyebrows. I knew he was upset because his intentions were hindered. I averted my eyes because she looked at me for a long time making me feel uncomfortable. People started asking what this guy in front of me was doing.

After a moment of silence, Rael finally decided to leave. But I'm sure he won't give up. I started to think of a place to escape during the break. Because for God's sake, I don't want to talk to him yet. Not mad at him, but I'm ashamed of myself.

Haah—

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The break time felt faster coming. I packed up my book and told Andin that I wasn't going to the cafeteria. I want to find a calm atmosphere first.

I walked in the corridor without a sound while wailing.

God, why am I being such a fool?

My shoulders came down and my breath came out of my mouth. Just because of Rael I became like this. I'm sure I don't like it, but a part of me says otherwise. What's the matter with me, actually?

Unknowingly, someone grabbed my arm from behind. Not yet able to look, the strong pull pulled me back. I who was about to wash my face to the toilet was forced to follow in his footsteps. Failing was my plan to dodge because the person I wanted to avoid had brought me to the top floor.

I looked at him who was locking the door of the rooftop door with enlarged eyes.

Why would Rael hold the key to the rooftop?

Why do we have to be locked from the inside?

The guy got his keys and turned to look at me. I was nervous. What am I supposed to say? Rael himself even silently looked at me with furrowed brows.

I finally saw him sigh and reach into his right pocket. Without me thinking he's giving me the box of milk he used to buy me.

I clucked in my heart. Oww.

Given yesterday's incident, I don't think he should have bothered to buy me a milk box before this cold is over.

I looked at Rael and the milk box alternately, after I picked it up, the guy instead pulled my hand closer to the parapet that was directly opposite to the air blowing a bit hard. More than that, he climbed up something like a wall step and sat there.

I screamed out in protest because he took me too. My heart immediately jumped up and down as I looked down because our position was higher than the barrier.

"How did it fall?!" I tensed up while clutching his arm.

"Yes dead," he replied casually making me cluck furiously.

I still tremble when I look down.

"Lo will really fall if you continue to squirm down."

Rael pulled my shoulders back and I held my chest in dismay. Rael let go of my shoulder but I still grabbed her hand.

Fuck the prestige. My life is more important.

Rael put his foot on the barrier and reached into his pocket again. After trying to calm down, I was again made shocked when Rael took out a cigarette complete with a lighter.

"Nyalain, I'm down." I threatened sharply.

"The key is in me" he said to piss me off. Just as he was about to burn the tip of the cigarette, I hurriedly grabbed him and threw him down to fall from the school building.

We were both silent to see the cigarette fall. He stared at me with a flat gaze and then lazily kept his lighter.

"When have you been smoking?"

"New."

I clenched my lips tightly. Rael has never been like this before. I don't know what really happened to this guy.

Is this a form of frustration because of breaking up from Malika?

I decided not to care about it anymore. Besides, Rael can't be spoken to right now.

"Just in" I said. Deliberately coded for him to immediately tell me what his purpose was to bring me here.

I looked ahead but I knew he was looking at me. Suddenly his head fell on my shoulder and then it went down until his head was on my lap in a tilted position until I only saw the side of his face.

I screamed. "Don't mess around! Do you think we're in the field again? What if it falls?!" I cried because Rael really doesn't know the place. I'm still scared until now but he's lying down like this.

He didn't see me. "Stupid with me," he said slowly as if he was persuading.

I'm pissed off.

Why does his stubborn head have to appear now?

I didn't say anything. Showed her I was so upset. He also nodded with his eyes closed. But, seeing it like this, I suddenly sighed.

"Reverse."

Rael made a sudden noise until I was confused looking at her who wasn't looking at me.

"Hm?"

"Gue doesn't want us to reverse it because I broke up with Malika,"

"..."

"But I broke up Malika so I can turn her back together lo."

I blinked.

"Gue gamon," he said.

I speak a thousand languages. Either my lungs were expanding or my chest cavity was narrowing, which I must have felt so full that my fingers could not stand still.

"Sama dong," I said.

"What?"

"Just like when we broke up. Lo mutusin I can date Malika."

Rael opened his eyes and changed his position to make me glare. "***no motion!!" seruku held her body afraid that she would fall.

Rael ignored my warning. "Lo's angry."

It is not a question but a statement. I didn't know what to say anymore so I just kept quiet with a hostile look.

"Lo's not my escape," he said.

I turned my eyes away as long as I wasn't staring at him.

"Lo doesn't have to dodge. I just went back to where I was supposed to be. Aloona, I love you."

Please give me advice, what should I answer?

I took a deep breath and leaned back. I don't know how I feel right now. Rael could very easily flip through it. He made me hate him so much.

And now, just by hearing his words I have so easily collapsed.

Stupid me.

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