Not Suited to Exposure

1. A Lie

December of this year was the worst December of my life. My life is home, hospital, and home. My last condition managed to hold me a few days in the hospital and a week of rest at home. It doesn't make me feel better, my first day of school, I've even been time corrupt for a week more.

The umbrella I was carrying, I folded and held it for me to bring into the classroom, precisely in the drawer. While sweeping the little dots of water on my black sweater, I tucked an invisible attempt into my classroom. The rain during the night made me unable to escape from the sweater if I did not want to get sick.

I sat in my chair quietly pretending I didn't know what kind of stare someone was pointing at me.

"Don't pretend you don't know" said someone approaching me. "Aloona," the screech again made me sigh.

"No news a week, suddenly appeared and ignored me."

I try to give you my best smile. "Andini how are you?"

Andin—my best friend, shaking his head. The girl sat in front of me. "Wordy girl" he said. "Gue tried asking Rael, but he said I don't need to know. I just want to know about you."

"My boyfriend really. You don't need to know" I replied lightly.

Andin grunted in annoyance while I myself drew a knotty smile. Offending Rael, I suddenly want to see that guy right now. These two days he didn't come home to see me as usual.

Rael is a guy with a sweet treatment that managed to make me lose again. Getting me used to his presence and then disappearing made me feel like there was nothing lacking. I suspected that this was his strategy to make me unable to turn away from him.

I breathe, again. Because I'm not stopping to think about Rael.

Four hours later, the first break began, I refused Andin's invitation to the cafeteria because I brought lunch today. Deliberately prepared Mama on the grounds that I am still sick and should not eat carelessly.

I'll just say, Mama, I won't resist unless it's poison.

While trying to enjoy the food that tasted bland to me, a box of milk appeared beside my provisions.

I smile when I know who is coming. I've got a habit of who this is.

Without saying anything, I immediately took it. Take a straw and stick it on the milk box in front of me. I enjoyed the sweet taste after eating Mama's lunch that tasted bland because it only contained vegetables and a few pieces of meat.

"Where did I go yesterday?" asked Rael who was sitting in front of me.

"Gue guess you'll be in charge of futsal," I replied as long as I put the half-living milk box.

Rael smiled with a shady look. "I'm sorry I didn't get it."

"Gue tau's. Ordinary times. I wouldn't have died if I hadn't told you two days."

Rael smiled broadly. The kind of smile I like. "Today I was empty. Go home with me yeah."

I just nod. Who would refuse if offered this sweet? That's my own boyfriend.

After that Rael went from my class, either to the cafeteria or to her class— I didn't ask either.

I don't know, I feel like today is so light for me. After being cooped up in the house for a few days, I was like a bird free from its cage for years.

From the beginning I said I was happy. Family, friends, friends complete my life. The rest I don't think I need anymore. My life slowly changed. Now it's not just about myself, but about the people I care about starting to turn around so I hope time stays in place.

How much I love my life.

But they never know. That was a lie.

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I think it's more interesting if you use the first-person perspective.What are you guys? comfortable not reading it?