Not Suited to Exposure

Pretend Not to Know

There are two things I hate most in this world. The first time my illness came back and I couldn't handle it myself. And the second is when I can't do anything when people are chastising me like this.

Does gossiping about someone include crime?

Just think of it that way. Because it pisses me off and there's nothing I can do about it. Why would I know? Because they were talking right near me. Whether intentionally or not, their voice was not small enough to gossip about someone.

I immediately came out of the toilet which made my head hot. Class was quiet when I got there because it was still in break time. I'm not in the mood to eat anything, since hearing the talk that pissed me off earlier.

I pick a song in my phone playlist and pair a headset. As I was about to put it in my ear, I saw Adrian coming in with a disheveled face.

I looked at him passing in front of me towards his desk which was at the back.

"Why look?"

I almost choked as she looked back at me with words.

I'm throttling. "Tumben at home in class?" I half quipped without looking at him.

For a few seconds I heard nothing until he said it again. "Don't keep busy with me. Busy are you guys who are the same other girls there."

I gasp.

I turned my head towards the back, towards Adrian. The guy puts his cheek on his left arm that sticks out on the table. Stare at me expressionlessly.

I could say nothing and straightened my body forward.

I laughed without a sound. In my head, I suddenly imagined how the atmosphere was when Rael with another girl. Doing what he used to do to me. Or maybe even sweeter.

"So much love" I murmured to myself blankly and then smiled.

I put on a headset that I couldn't fit. But again I couldn't get rid of Rael in my mind.

Damnit. I've guessed this. But it still hurts as if this was never my mind.

Aloona, you think about it every day. You've been imagining it even when Rael first asked for it back. Why do you feel upset?

"Futsal field. If you want to know."

I heard Adrian say again. My chest tightened until I took a deep breath. I unplug the headset I have installed and put it in the drawer.

I know, I look stupid. Maybe Adrian will laugh at me after this, but somehow I really want to see it with my own eyes. Let's say I want to make sure what he says. Say I still hope.

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I walked quickly to where Adrian said. Ignoring Andin who had called me when passing the canteen earlier. I just want to solve my curiosity. Yeah, I was really curious to see who Rael was with?

The malika? Or another girl?

Do I look enthusiastic? Maybe so. But my chest hurts if I want to know.

Maybe I was in too much of a hurry, until when I passed the turn at the end, I did not have time to dodge and hit someone. As a result, the Rael jacket I was wearing was doused in something bright yellow and smelled sour.

"Aloona. Oh, my God, I didn't mean it."

I didn't say anything. I was only stunned when a girl I knew wiped the stain of juice spilled on Rael's jacket, even if it was a waste.

I sighed feeling his actions were useless. "Udah. No papa. Lo lap until tomorrow will not disappear" I said.

Sheva put on a sorry face. "Sorry."

I gave her a faint smile and soon passed away leaving her. I'm in a hurry. It's not more important than my business.

While walking quickly, I took off Rael's dirty jacket and placed it on my arm. I slowed down my steps at the end of the corner to avoid being caught.

I pulled the corner of my lips and smiled curiously. Now the curiosity was gone, changing to something else. I regretted being curious to bring me here.

I took a deep breath and leaned my body against the wall. Rael's jacket hugged him in the stomach while staring at the field.

"A week? Two weeks?" ask me to myself. My eyes did not come out from the front. "Ah gak's. At least three more days Rael cutusin me."

I promised myself I wouldn't be bothered if this moment came. I have to keep it, right? They fit in anyway. Malika is the perfect figure for Rael. And Rael is the right person for Malika to feel special.

Why does my nose feel sore?

"Try a wink."

I gasped when I heard a whisper next to me. I looked up and saw a guy next to me. I blinked and was surprised when something warm ran down my cheek. I rubbed it and glued for a while.

I smiled and looked at the guy next to me. "It's terrible that you make me cry."

"If you don't tell me to blink, my tears won't fall." I rubbed my cheeks until there were no more tears.

Adrian clucking. "If you cry, cry. Don't you fuck around."

I flicked my lips and looked forward again. Unconsciously, the object I was peeking at was staring at me.

A sharp gaze and brows faintly looked wrinkled.

I stiffened. Swallowing with great difficulty, I pushed Adrian around the corner and disappeared.

I catch my breath, ignoring Adrian who is looking at me in wonder.

Holy hooch! I looked back. To the corner where next to it is the futsal court where Rael caught me. Anxious if suddenly his figure appeared from behind there.

What have I done?

Why am I running? And why should I pull Adrian with me?

I looked up at the tall guy in front of me. Adrian looked at me with raised eyebrows.

Idiotically. I cursed myself.

"Lo—kokkok see that demon anyway?" adrian asked strangely. "That's lo's guy. Still humans are not demons."

Because he's my girlfriend, that's why I'm like this. If not, how could I care?

Wait for. Why am I so scared? It was as if I was the one betraying her, not her.

I straightened my body. Is correct. I didn't do anything. What am I afraid of? It won't matter anyway, Rael won't care if I cheat though.

"Gue go back first" I said at last. Regardless of Adrian's response, I left him alone.

I changed my steps to the toilet. There was no one there in connection with the break that was coming to an end. I looked at my face in the mirror and grimaced at her unsightly condition. I washed my face for a moment.

Relax, Aloona.

Huft—

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Rael called several times when school ended. Maybe because he didn't find me in class, naturally, I wasn't there. As the last subject teacher came out, I darted into the library to avoid it.

I sighed as the incoming call to the five came. I finally decided to lift it.

"Where?"

I cleared my throat when Rael asked directly.

"Gue there's a group assignment at Andin's house."

"Where are you asking?"

Hey, why is he so sniffy? I folded my lips. "It's again on the road" I replied lying.

I heard him clucking softly. The few seconds he didn't answer made me wait for what he was about to say while playing the tip of Rael's jacket I was holding.

"Where's your house?"

I cringe. "Make what?"

"Gue is next."

"Don't" I said. Surprised to hear him coming. "There all the girls. There are no guys. It's not good if you come," I'll lie again.

I bit my own lips when there was no answer from across. "Lo—kotor package got juice. Not intentionally, sorry," I said quietly and did not get a response. "Gue wash first tomorrow I turn around."

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"...Hm—"

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