Marriage Ends in Love.

CHAPTER 49 YOUR LOVE MIRAGE MAS

"Ran. Then why almost this week you seem to stretch the distance"

Mas Tama who was now sitting on the bed was staring at me who was lying on his back.

"I'm sleepy mas, tomorrow the first day we go to work, tomorrow the Monday you are usually the morning apple and I'm the ceremony so we can't be late". I closed my eyes and pulled the blanket.

"Roman.... Speak up if you don't like something. I feel like you're keeping something with your attitude..."

I chose to be quiet and still close my eyes. I felt Tama's movements and she hugged me from behind. Her arms began to gently caress my hair. And when I felt one more hand trying to get into my pajamas, I held that hand.

"Mas has promised not to ask for the right when I can not open my heart completely, I promise to be ready to wait" said I by holding the left wrist of Tama.

"Ran.... didn't you say that night you opened your heart to me?"

Suddenly I heard a ringtone that I had never heard from a cell phone like her from the desk mas Tama.

Mas Tama rushed towards the work desk and opened his drawer. He looks like he pulled out a cell phone. How can I not feel more disappointed and upset at my husband who has 2 mobile phones and he never said that. Even more so tonight when there was a call from the mysterious cell phone he accidentally came out of the room to receive the call.

I seemed to close my eyes again. But still unable to make these tears flow. I quickly decided to turn off the lights. I don't want to go back and ask Tama who will know that I'm crying.

Long enough I tried to sleep in the dark even when mas Tama returned to the room I immediately said do not turn on the lights because I want to sleep in the dark. And again he was insensitive, he was not surprised how his wife who could not sleep in the dark suddenly wanted to sleep in the dark.

Minute by minute as I struggled to fall asleep, mas Tama was already enjoying his dream realm with his snoring voice. Ah... Why do I feel you're a foreign man. And the thump of our first week of being brides seemed to disappear without a trace in my heart, now it seems not to want to be responsible for the actions that made me want to give something that I take care of for the people I love. It is not easy to fall in love after marriage. Where is Bagus Pratama who fought to marry me after college, and where is the sincerity of his eyeballs when he applied for me the second time. Your love Fatamorgana mas.....

Finally I decided to go down to the room below because of my struggle to close my eyes and rest my body which was almost an hour in vain.

I sleep in Dwi's room, usually this room will be used by Dwi if you come with your father and mother to stay overnight.

Finally, a few minutes I was able to sleep.

I woke up earlier than Mas Tama, because when I came back at 4am and went to the room to pick up a change of clothes, the man was still under the covers. I looked at the man from the direction of the Wardrobe. Would every man be so clueless that his wife in her circumstances was not okay? Is this what mr. le and my in-laws say that in the household needs to be discussed if there is a problem.

"Hhh...... "I took a deep breath. I think maybe the advice from the parents is right. And it seems like I have to say what I feel and think because this man who's been my husband even he knows there's been a change in my attitude in these weeks, after I handed over my chastity to her she still had no idea what had happened.

Well, later after teaching from school or afternoon I have to discuss this. I remember the message Mak e do not let a problem drag on in the household.

I took a shower in the bathroom in the kitchen and then I prepared breakfast and supplies for Tama mas as well as myself before long the sound of azan and mas Tama had come down with clothes for praying.

"Why don't you build Ran...."

"It's okay mas, it looks like mas is very sleepy"

"Last night it was pretty cold so I could get good, what are you cooking?"

"I cooked Sop chicken and And sambal tomato mas, Oh, is that enough?" ask me while opening the lid of the provisions I have prepared earlier.

"Enough, you should just buy it in the cafeteria, Ran so you don't have to bother"

"Oh. ya already left, and tomorrow I will not prepare provisions for mas Tama. I forgot that the Tama people bear not like me who may every day have to save even a stock can save costs then noon" said flat by closing the container of Tama mas stock. I took another deep breath. Even in this state of my mood I am still trying to be a good wife. And come back as if what I did was meaningless. Can't he thank you?

"Roman...... Loving and loving you does not mean that..."

"I used to hunt the sunrise and I had to leave at 6 o'clock through mas I did not want to be late on my first day after taking 14 days off" cut me quickly and passed to the upper room.

"Your love and affection is a mirage." I muttered as I entered the room.