Marriage Ends in Love.

CHAPTER 26 THE DECISION OF THE SHUTTER

This afternoon I and Buk kades met after I finished the interview in private school earlier I was called by buk kades and picked up at private school earlier and now we are in one of the fish sacks burn in one of the typical suburbs with views of Padi as well as its natural beauty.

We sat in a Gasebo in the middle of the rice field. Seen from the direction of the fish pond Dwi and Mas Tama back to this Gasebo.

"It's been ordered, ma'am, delivered soon. Dwi order double jumbo menu Mom...."

"Mom promised her that if she could memorize half of Juz Amma then she would follow her one-week request for Tam's favorite menu,"

"Wow amazing just a little while left because you are getting smarter... do you want to rival your mas this fat guy? hehe..."

"Look at me when I'm an adult like a big brother then I can make sure my body will be more athletic than mas, and I will be better at luring girls with my good looks. unlike many mas Tama who ngincer, once met a beautiful eh.. left the rabbi...."

"Dwi! disrespectful, I'm sorry about Tama. Mother never taught such a thing the same Dwi. Joking can be but Ndak can be late." The tone of the buk kades spoke slightly raised but did not sound like snapping and his gaze was still very soft on Dwi.

In a state of anger to his son buk kades still with this gentle fashion. I don't know how any woman could be like this, Mak e alone who I think is the most gentle woman in my life will raise her voice octave with slick eyes or a pinch slid on my waist when I do something rude or wrongful.

because the principle of make manners is the most basic and main thing that must be instilled in his children because when he is an adult it will be difficult to instill it.

"Yes mother.sorry mas Tama"

"Yes sorry I like to call you fat. It turns out that yesterday mas attended a seminar to avoid bully on children in the world of education new year that the word fat that mas often directed to the sister mas terchubby was one of the actions of bully. Mas even repeated again earlier hehehe.." explained Tama with a smile to Dwi.

Mas Tama does look handsome now different from his appearance at the first time we met at KKN. when he was headed plontos with a slightly charred face and skin that looked very black. But now his hair with soft side parting style looks macho. His nose that was like an Arab followed by his thick black eyebrows made him more handsome and sweet. The dimples on both of his cheeks add a plus when the man smiles.

With all the changes in Tama I still have not felt that I like her as a woman there is only a sense of comfort near her and awe.

"How was Ran's interview?" mas Tama asked me.

"Alhamdulilah went smoothly only the announcement is still one week later contacted via email"

"Thank God, may there be acceptance."

"Aamiin's."

"you have no intention of returning to Ran's village?" buk kades asked me by staring at my shady face.

"Not yet Ma. I want to get some experience in the city. Worried about going home and getting married. Because on average we are women if we have returned home even those who are proposed by people".

"Mean you also have no intention to accept the intention of the family mother to propose to you Ran?"

"Mom... we eat first... This food has come Ndak delicious if it's cold talk can later, right?" Mas Tama cut out the kades buk question before I answer it.

Hhh.. I think I breathe a sigh of relief because mas Tama can divert the conversation for a moment. I was confused by my feelings, but I didn't want to get married.

We enjoyed the atmosphere of lunch by chatting various topics, topics about the selected kades again into kades as well as the atmosphere in the village today. about the life of mas Tama and my life.

Arrive when all the food menu we eat has finished buk kades seen raise his eyebrows while glancing at Tama and re-directed eye glances followed by raised eyebrows towards me as if giving the code Mas Tama I don't know what it is.

"Ran, mother paid the bill first all want to order for Father at home yes come on Dwi said you want to choose the menu as well" Invite the kades with Dwi who looks sweaty and busy with his cellphone screen.

"Yes mother but I want her lobster who is still alive so that it can be considered a father using a special menu dad"

"Okay, Yan Ran's mother lives first... Tam's..."

After the buk kades and Dwi left the Gasebo towards the cashier who was far enough from this Gasebo.

"Har.ehem.... Ran, as I told you a month ago, I can get the certainty to take where our relationship is. My age is ripe for Ran's household. Whatever your answer inshaallah I appreciate".

I took a deep breath after revealing my heart to Mas Tama, and I led to look at the handsome face of mas Tama. There was shade, comfort did stare at this man's face but that alone wasn't enough for me to marry him. I don't want to hurt each other when married with great love Tama mas on me with me reply just a sense of awe it is my principle and my decision.

"Hem..well Ran thanks for the time you gave. Glad to meet you. Mother also often advised as hard as we fight for what we want if God does not want then what is our power is only his servant. Sorry if during our introduction mas Tama there is a wrong word or attitude mas uncomfortable in the heart of Rana and family. Mas accepts whatever your decision Ran, mas also do not want if to be in a relationship. And if you wait too long you can't remember your age"

"May mas find who can love mas to be invited to sail the household ark together"

Buk kades seemed to walk towards us with some plastic and asked Tama to take him.

"Hayo our tam home are you done?" buk Kades asked Mas Tama as if he had left earlier indeed given us time to hear my decision.

"Already mom....Hayo Ran I'll take you home" Tama still with her gentle fashion to me. There was no anger from the radiance of his face and still the shade and patience I saw behind his handsome face from mas Tama.

"Ah. I'm sorry mas. If there is a little bit of throbbing in my heart then I accept you. But this heart has been lost in half and does not tremble when it is near you".I murmured inwardly as I stepped following Dwi and mas Tama who walked ahead of me and the bouquet of kades

"Whatever your decision mother will not be angry Ran although it is disappointed because according to your mother is a good woman and suitable to accompany the mother's child" Buk kades seemed to know what I said to his eldest said as he grasped my left hand which was next to the buk kades and we walked together.

"Thank you Ma'am, sometimes good we don't think is necessarily good according to Gusti Allah Ma'am" I said looking down at my footsteps in the direction of the parking lot.

And it was as if the heart of this car driver felt a wound throughout our journey that the distinctive voice of Ariel Noah echoed with his deepest song.

Buk kades seemed to understand about the meaning of the song that was running melow not as usual he just silently stared at the outside of the car and occasionally reminded Dwi who played mobile phone.

I took off everything I wanted

I won't repeat

I'm sorry if I loved you

And if I wait

Have you ever tried to understand?

Look at me here

Could it be if I was dreaming?

Is it wrong to wait?

I will not be tired waiting

I will not lose this love

Until when you don't come back

'I just remember in my heart

You have left

The deepest heart

Until there is no love

Remaining in the soul