Marriage Ends in Love.
CHAPTER 30 THE INTENTION OF WORSHIP
Two days have passed from the arrival of mas Tama . Today I am still sitting on my bed when I finished praying magrib. I was still pondering what answer I would give to mas Tama.
"Tok.tok.tok.." the sound of the door being knocked followed by the sound of greetings sounded like the sound of mas Hardi and mbak Imah and her children. I walked out of the prayer room to the living room but Mak e was at the door and said hello to open the door.
"Mbah.. This was Hilman the same Rohman fishing in the river can be favorite cork fish Mbah" The cheerful voice of Hilman carrying 3 fish known on a rope but like grass.
"Well, Mbah's grandson is already good at fishing all, just who to the river? don't go alone the danger huh Nang" mak asked in a worried tone while receiving the fish Hilman gave to Mak e.
"My name is Mak" Mas Hardi's voice interrupted between smoking his cigarette.
"Here Mak I clean the fish" I asked for fear of smelling fishy if left here.
"No need now Ran. Put it in the refrigerator is already in the wind at night" forbid mother to me and I nodded my head.
"Yes anyways, you're the same here someone wants to talk about you Ran" Mas Hardi asked me to go back to the guest room and save the fish, but he asked to make coffee first.
I came out with a glass of coffee and 2 cups of tea and boiled sweet potatoes boiled by Mak e this afternoon.
"Here sit here Ran" Mbak Imah asked me to sit next to him. And I happily sat next to him. Instantly mbak Imah wailed my right hand and grasped it then looked at me with full of affection clearly there is something that Mbak Imah wants to convey to me from his gaze.
"You know Ran, mbak is indeed your brother-in-law. But not once your heart may consider you just a sister-in-law. After getting married to mas Hardi mbak feel you're a younger sibling mbak must also mbak protect, mbak deari and mbak pray for his happiness" I looked at mbak Imah and heard carefully what point' who wants to tell.
"You know when Mas Hardi found out you were in town courting secretly with your girlfriend in college. Mbak tried to even often argue with your mas. And in the household mbak if mbak never disagree and argue with the husband mbak it is when mas Hardi want to go to the city and scold you. At that time, I tried to give understanding to Mas Hardi that educating our children or relatives could not use violence, must use a yardstick like a kite. Because no child today wants to be restrained, if he is angry then there is an escape or even an anger. And Alhamdulillah mas Hardi can understand after a few days of our discussion."
"The important "point' that you want to convey is Mas Hardi really loves you Ran, and you see now how happy mbak Imah is now? and Maak wants you to be happy like mbak has a husband who is not only a leader at home but also a friend, a friend sharing in life and in-laws who love you just like mbak. And that's what I saw in Tama and her family Ran. There is sincerity, there is honesty. Ma'am hope you don't turn down this second chance Ran Mbak wants you to be happy even happier than mbak"
"Now Mbak wants to ask you Ran, what does love mean to you?" mbak Imah looked back at me inside
"I thought.." I turned to Hardi and Mak e and continued the delayed words.
"A sense of affection, a sense of wanting to always be together, a sense of wanting to make the person happy and this heart can not be calm if far apart" said I carefully and slowly.
Our family has been getting used to it since we were Junior High whatever it was discussed together. Although the decision remains who will live it.
"How can you feel like you want to be together, want to be happy and feel calm if you are far apart if you and he have a wall that stretches the distance and time..... You know that the Lord is heart-turning, so when you have comfort, you are sure that the person is good to you, it is appropriate for you and vice versa he is good for you and he deserves you then not the reason for the word not love to reject him"
"The important thing is that our view in living life is the same Ran then it is more needed if what you think love must exist first before marriage how can it happen if there is a wall that must be you woke up with her which was a halal relationship" Mas Tama helped convince me to my decision.
"Tomorrow is 3 days from the time you promised nduk" Mak e remembered.
"What about Mak e? what do you think?"
"If you ask about the way of thinking and what Mak e feels then Mak e just want to say to you, you, so far Mak e feels comfortable if you have a besan Pak Narso and buk Point. And Mak will be happy if you have a daughter-in-law like Nak Tama then it will be complete happiness Mak has daughters-in-law who are devoted to both parents even though they are married. Do not discriminate the affection between parents and in-laws and most importantly can make the children happy. Not only able to accept the advantages but also complete the shortcomings and that Mak e see there in nak Tama" Mak has now moved to sit next to me and now I sit between Mak e and mbak Imah.
"Eating your heart Ran, mas mu and mbak Imah and Mak e just want you to not only rely on feelings for a relationship but also logic, and reality. Because the household is not built enough just with capital love but will be solid if built with the intention of worship to God because it will grow strong love to our partner if in our marriage begins us want to worship" Mak e again gave advice for the steadiness of my heart.
At least an important point' the family has got the answer. Stay now what about my heart. But it would be strange if living a household based only on comfort and is not a burden if the intention of worship? ahhhh I will rethink later on my last night in making a decision.
"God willing Mak, mbak, mas tomorrow there is the best answer for everything including Rana"
