Marriage Ends in Love.

CHAPTER 46 DISAPPOINTED

Tone alarm coming from mobile phone mas Tama build ku. When I opened my eyes I saw the chest of the field of men from the dim light of the lamp that came from the terrace. I raised my head and saw the handsome face that last night treated me so gently. Either a few hours of activities that cause strange and delicious sensations behind the blanket last night.

And I can't believe last night the first day I fell asleep in the dark, though there were still dim lights from the porch lights coming in through the air vents.

I just want to shift my body to turn off the alarm on Tama's mobile phone but the embrace of Tama mas tighter. He makes a noise when he wakes up.

"Where are you Ran.. Let it go in a moment he'll stop by himself" and one kiss landed on the top of my head. His hand pulled me back into his arms.

There is a sense of uneasiness because I can feel we still have not worn clothes only wrapped in blankets.

"Shubuh mas soon" my great-granddaughter softly in her arms.

"Hem....Here we can take a shower and shampoo in the room and can pray in the room. Thank you Ran.... Thank you for opening my heart to me. Promise me to tell me your heart. Because mas only once close to the woman was we LDR and mas do not understand much if you only hold back what you feel. Say what you feel, what you want"

"Hem.." I tried to wrap my hands around Tama's waist.

Soon there was the sound of the shabuh adhan.from inside the room, there was the sound of Tama's mother waking up Dwi. I feel sad if I have to get out of the room after sunrise because today is my first day as a daughter-in-law in this house.

"Mas, I'm gonna take a shower. It's not good to have bad luck with mom" My voice softly.

"Let mother also know we are still newlyweds even if not for mother then surely among us there must still be a roll hehe"

Deg. I was surprised how Tama could tell his mother about what happened between us even about the bolting he told his mother. My heart was in pain and disappointment. I know he's a nice guy and he loves his mom but open means he's telling us what happened between us. I was just embarrassed to be considered as an ungodly wife to her husband for withholding something that I should have given to mas Tama the first night we were married.

I immediately let go of my embrace from Tama's mas and I pulled the blanket and walked towards the bathroom. Mas Tama immediately sat down and pulled my hand.

"I'm gonna take a bath. I don't want to be ashamed on the first day I became a son-in-law". A little I press the words shame and daughter-in-law. Mas Tama let go of her hand and let me into the bathroom.

"Is that you mas? That's how you feel about your mother. Until the bed you tell your mother". I muttered in tears under the shower.

A few minutes later I came out of the room wearing a bathrobe and wrapped a towel around my head. I sat on a dressing table identical to the shape of the mirror that was square and very wide. 

Mas Tama wrapped in a towel is now behind me and holding my shoulder. He'll kiss my neck. I stood up and walked over to my cover. I still want to have no interaction with Mas Tama. There is still disappointment in my heart.

"Hurry to shower mas if you want to congregate shubuhnya if you don't want me first" I said quickly while opening the cover to look for a change of clothes and hijab.

"Yes.we worship you wait for the bath first. Oya Ran was covered on the left empty yesterday mother deliberately said tidying up the closet so that your clothes can be arranged there"

Mas Tama passed by and went into the bathroom. I took my breath back. I don't know why after mas Tama told me about the roll that I deliberately did not prepare in our room made me a little upset, and this was back the closet was still tucked away said the mother.

I'm not jealous of his mother but there's a sense of resentment in my heart, because I used to hate it the most when there was one secret that I thought no one else needed to know but someone else knew let alone told.

And today my husband innocently said that asking his mother not to prepare the bolster in our room. Of course you'll think I'm not a good woman. I took a deep breath and quickly changed clothes worried the room owner came out of the bathroom and I was confused to change clothes.

I was ready with my face and sat on the table. Mas Tama came out of the bathroom casually opening the closet and wearing a sarong and Koko's clothes. Then approached and we performed congregational prayer services.

After the prayer I put on my hijab and wanted to go out of the room. Suddenly I hugged Tama from behind.

"Mas want to make tea yes Ran"

I let go of Tama's embrace and just dehem agreed to Tama's request and came out of the room. Still entrenched my annoyance and disappointment in mas Tama.

In the kitchen looks like mom is preparing food for breakfast.

"I'm sorry for the bad luck" my voice softly.

"It's okay Ran. Is she awake?"

"Already Ma'am, again reviewed. Ask to make tea"

"Yes.yeah. If he had not lost the same as Dwi even though he was an adult like that. It seems outside like independent and authoritative. But men should be so Ran.... because indeed the mother or wife is the place to complain and show her spoiled side because maybe out there they are men, especially husbands so much to pull their nerves in front of colleagues, work, or their leader or their responsibility" Mother told me as she moved Oseng kangkung onto the plate. And I listened carefully but my hands were busy with tea making activities for mas Tama.

"Yes, KKN time said your friends say your favorite menu oseng kale and tilapia fish sauce. So today's breakfast menu special favorite of his mother's daughter-in-law"

Ah... if you know that it is not my favorite menu but Ardi's favorite menu. When KKN I was still learning to forget about Ardi.

"Thank you Mom, it should be Rana who cooks for mom and dad" my great-granddaughter felt embarrassed because on the first day even my in-laws made breakfast.

"There are still days tomorrow. Later in the afternoon you can cook your husband's favorite food Ran"

"What is Miss Tama's favorite food?"

"Tongseng chicken same pickled cucumber Ran. That's if the menu that Tama can intermittently eat if first. Bring the tea to the front and say the breakfast is ready to be afraid of going to the afternoon rush a rambunctious race comes" I assented and walked with a tray containing tea.

Arriving at the news, Tama was chatting with his father. I put the tea glass in front of Tama mas and saw Mr. Narso sipping his coffee.

"This is the tea. Oya mother said that the breakfast is ready if the same father mas Tama want breakfast".

"Dwi. that breakfast is ready from a busy time..." Mas Tama nudged Dwi who was engrossed in his online game.

"Bag mas... again this farming..,"

"The dwi.... Eat first... later again play his cell phone" Mother has now been present among us.

"Mother in a minute..5 minutes is okay...." Looks mom soft dyed the top of Dwi head.

"Okay, we're having breakfast together, 5 more minutes."

The buk kades sat next to me.

"Hopefully you feel at home, Ran here, although later you will be the same Tama back to the capital city hope you also come here often".

"God willing" answered me briefly.

"You don't make drinks for you, Ran?"

"Ga buk will immediately eat rice only. Rana rarely drinks sweet in the morning"

"Wah. means there is a similarity dong Ran same mother.... I also never drink sweet every morning.It's appropriate that I like you at all there are many similarities yes sir" mas Tama responded.

"Mom or do you like....? You know Ran's mother and Tama will continue to talk about you if after coming from the city that you like to be irritated is the wong that is talked about does not know the same of them."

"Father..this is your own firstborn who does not want to go forward. Mother already wanted to have a ghost but the disorder of thinking good match Rana" denied the mother while eating snacks contained in the jar.

"yes yes.women are always right and men are always wrong even when women are angry in our silence men are required to be paranormal. Say no problem, it's okay but it turns out to harbor anger, keep suspicious. You know Ran... I just told you and Tama if there is a problem discussed not saved as if nothing happened because of fear it will be a bomb in the middle of your marriage" For some reason it seems that now I even feel my father has become a psychic who seems to know what I feel and give me advice in the first part of our marriage.

Yes I think I really should talk to mas Tama about my annoyance about the bolsters that mas Tama told his mother.

Remember the message of Mr. le Yatno when going home to Klitang to me and Tama mas.

"Married it is impossible to be happy if we cannot accept the shortcomings of our partner with grace. Our partner is not an angel then there must be a deficiency in him and if you do not demand your partner to be perfect but you express your grief about his shortcomings that disturb your heart then it is better rather than holding her nduk. Complement each other's nduk."

My shoulder was touched by my mother.

"You daydreamed what Ran.. let's same father Tama was calcined" said the gentle mother to me. I was stunned for a moment.

"Ran, Tama is not an angel.I'm sorry if Tama may not have understood you and may have hurt you for the past week"

Deg. My heart was beating again. I'm trying to guess where mom's talking is going.