MAMA's Soul Secret

conscience

"If you just stood there I could freeze to death" Joon said.

"Good! No wonder what can't?" Reply Shaina.

Joon approaches "if I'm not worried that this won't end properly" Joon whispers, again giving Shaina goosebumps.

With a jutek expression Shaina grabs the shower of water from Joon's hand sitting on the front bench of the sink, and, Joon relaxes himself by leaning on the sink while his head above the sink hole so that when doused water does not wet the floor.

Joon continues to direct his eyes on Shaina to pay attention to every detail of his expression, smile, nose eyes until his eyeballs roll, in between his busy washing and massaging Joon's head filled with shampoo foam.

"You ever work in a salon?" Ask Joon.

Shaina smiled and said, "there's only you" and continued her work.

After washing her hair, Joon goes out to get dressed as well as Shaina who wakes the kids up so as not to miss going to school.

"Shaina, can you help me change the bandage?" Joon tells Shaina who was in bed when he woke up the children.

" All right, come here" Shaina said. "Alice take a bath here and Alfan's in the room? Let's not be late because of the tantrums" Shaina added.

"Good Ma" they said.

Joon brings all the necessary tools including drugs into bed. Shain grimaces to see Joon open the bandage before making Joon on his back.

"There are you, my bones are cracked even you who look sick" Joon said.

"But it seems so painful to know! I'm trying to get your feelings out, not like you're a big-ass" Shaina snorted.

"It's up to you" Joon added.

Shaina rewraps the new bandage in Joon's arm and ignores Joon's attention, who has been looking at him ever since.

"Did I look like a painting from earlier you just look at me?" Sudi Shaina without looking at Joon.

"Yes, you are like a beautiful painting from the greatest masterpiece to my eyes just want to see you" Joon said.

"Betch...!" Shaina was the best, "you must have seduced women a lot" she added.

"No, I've never seduced anyone".

"I'd be a fool to believe it".

"It's okay to not believe it, because those women just came to me without me calling her or seducing her" Joon said.

Shaina lifted her face and looked at Joon, "you used your face" she said.

Joon chuckles, "what's my face?" Added Joon.

Shaina gets misbehaved and returns to hue like before, especially when Joon raises his eyebrows asking Shaina to continue his sentence.

"All right...." Shaina said, "you are so shameless! Huhahaha....!" His laughter broke.

A thin smile expands on Joon's lips in silence seeing Shaina laughing, slowly he starts to embrace Shaina who starts to stop laughing but he still smiles because he finds Joon's face very close to his face.

Joon winks his eyes with interested lips so it looks very tempting.

"Alice in the bathroom when she's out?" Shaina whispers to Joon who looks at each other and occasionally on the lips of the opposite sex.

"You know what you do, you know the codes when I don't say anything" Joon replied with an expression like someone won the lottery.

Shaina's smile fades and is replaced with a cold and jutek expression, but Joon is more and more excited to see it.

Cups!.

A warm kiss landed Joon on Shaina's neck as he turned his face.

"I love you" Joon whispered as soon as Shaina turned her face to Joon.

"I love you" Joon repeated, putting Shaina's hand on her chest, so that her heartbeat can be felt directly by Shaina, "you have made me fall in love with you every time, my heart just can't lie" continued Joon.

Shaina is silent, her heart thumping, as if not believing what she just heard, Joon declares his love for her and it's the first time Shaina has someone claiming to love her.

"Why are you quiet, you don't believe me?" Joon's gaze grew closer and closer to Shaina's eyes, "Shaina, someone who is in this body, I love you, I want you to be my last love and end up with you, if you disappear later I will find you and bring you home with me even if someone else holds your hand" he continued.

"Joon, I also do not understand this feeling, either just desire and lust because we live together too long so naturally there is a feeling of liking" said Shaina.

"Shaina" Joon interrupted.

"Joon, you like me because my physique Helena the rest is not" Shaina rewinded her body and sat on the bed she forced her lips to smile despite swallowing the bitterness of reality, "if this is my physique maybe I doubt you'll say it, in my village alone no one is interested in me I am, that ugly stupid black slender that's me, that's me, there's nothing special about me, even if we meet again later, I'm sure you'll pretend you don't recognize me because I can only be shy" Shaina laughed disguising her true feelings.

Joon came back closer to Shaina, "Shaina, I'm sure to myself you must be wrong to think I'm like that and not even once did I consider you Helena even though my eyes looked at Helena, I like your personality not your physique" Joon wiped Shaina's cheeks, looked at her deeper and deeper, "I know this is a bit strange but that's how I feel, I want us to always be together like it or be sad, to be the home where I come home that always gives me warmth and comfort".

Shaina is stunned to see Joon's eyes twinkle, "love? If I'm disabled or whatever it is do you still love me and still say it like this too?".

"Shaina, love is not from the physical but from the heart, I learned it from you. You were present at times when I needed someone to hold my hand to make me realize that it is still valuable when I am ignored" Joon continued.

Shaina removes Joon's hand from his face, holds back the dam of tears that begin to pool in the eye, there is a strange vibration that enliven his heart, but he still doubts his every feeling, he said, because he can't trust Joon's sweet words completely so that he doesn't feel disappointed later on.

"I hope you can prove it, Joon. Your love is not a mirage that pleases me for a moment and disappears with time, changes when something new comes and makes you happier and turns away from me" Shaina said.

"Shaina, I promise I'm not like that, I'll prove that my love is pure and will always be for you" Joon grabs Shaina's hand and kisses the back of the hand gently.

"I'm looking forward to it, don't disappoint me because I hate the promises that can't be kept, don't promise anything that's better for me so we don't hurt each other, either, after this we will also marry without a word of love I can still live well as long as you do not wish me when we are still in the marriage bond" said Shaina.

Joon continues to look at the sad face in front of him who does not believe in the expression of his heart, although he repeatedly assured him, Shaina is still firm in principle who considers love is not something meaningful but a sweetener word. There is a sense of uneasiness when Shaina says she can still get married without necessarily having love, therefore Joon assumes Shaina does not love him and does not have the feeling as he feels.

"Shaina, don't you love me?" said Joon.

"Well?!" Shaina glanced in all directions while grimacing frantically, "a-I don't know..." Mumbled.

Suddenly the question surprised Shaina, confused what to say, because he is not a person who likes to express his feelings to just anyone let alone people he likes, because he likes, but he also does not put great expectations on Joon even though in his prayer Joon's name is always pinned.

Seeing Shaina's expression further upsets Joon and further justifies his assumption that Shaina has different feelings like hers.

"Mama" said Alice who suddenly came out of the bathroom.