MAMA's Soul Secret

See an obstetrician

"Waaa... New menu, Ma?" Alfan exclaimed, he immediately pulled out the dining table chair to immediately sit near Shaina.

"Yes, baby, try to taste hopefully this does not disappoint like that time, baby?" sahut Shaina, feed his cooking to Alfan.

"Alice also wants Ma" interrupted Alice who nudged her brother so that he could also be close to Shaina.

"Don't push, everything is part" said Shaina who took turns to feed Alice and Alfan.

Shaina could not help but laugh at the behavior of the two children who were scrambling chairs to be able to sit nearby, but soon they made up again thanks to Shaina's persuasion. But their behavior reminds Shaina of her life and her siblings in her childhood who often quarrel because of the ignorance of one of her brothers and Shaina who always succumbed for her sisters as she was first child.

"Enak Ma" added Alice.

"Thank you dear..." Shaina Sahut.

Alice and Alfan continued to eat bribed by Shaina, making them very greedy to spend their lunch, and Shaina herself also happily fed them.

"How am I not taught?".

Shaina and the children turned to the origin of the voice and it surprised them so much at the sound.

"Uncle? How are you still at home? Not going to work?" Ask Alfan.

"Aren't you happy if I'm home?" Ask Joon.

"Not so, this is just not usually uncle at home" Alfan said.

Shaina asks nothing and lets the two children ask Joon because he is still embarrassed about the events of the night, to the extent that Shaina also seems to often throw away so as not to see Joon as well as Joon himself, he also became wrong in front of Shaina.

"Fan, why don't you eat yourself?" Joon asks Alfan who is enjoying Shaina's feed.

"In bribe Mama better uncle than eating alone" replied Alfan.

"Yes uncle, the food is so amazingly good, we are happy Mama Shaina is a good person, we can eat Mama's cooking anytime and Mama is not busy anymore" Alice said.

Shaina chuckles a little with her genuine smile, hearing Alice and Alfan's true praise from within their hearts. Joon was silent while observing them.

"emmm...really? it's not just in the praises, is it?" shaina's chirping and chuckling teased the children.

"yes, Ma! we really love Mama" said Alfan.

"OOO.. makaciih.." exclaimed Shaina with a moved expression made up and looked adorable.

The cup! The cup! Muaaah!

Sweet kiss landed Alfan and Alice on Shaina's cheeks are excited to get the recognition of love from the children of Helena, he was not ceaseless smile to show a row of white teeth neat and beautiful, the increasing beauty of Helena, especially Shaina, who is a smiley person.

In the opposite direction Joon sits and watches only the woman's actions with the children who are getting closer and closer, no one even suspects that Shaina is not their real mother.

"You eat with your own hands, don't use bribes like that little boy!" Joon's grunts at children.

Instantly all was silent, because if Joon had spoken no one dared to argue, so they just shut up and obey.

"Why with you? I have no problem!" shaina's sergeant to Joon who doesn't accept Joon's attitude scolds the kids.

"You're spoiling them too much, you better eat for yourself, especially your baby also needs more attention" Joon said.

"What are you talking about? It's so strange" muttered Shaina, astonished by what Joon meant.

Alice raises her hand to Shaina to get closer to her and whispers.

"Ma, like a jealous uncle, likes to snack like a child" whispered Alice who broke into laughter with Alfan but not with Shaina.

"Hahaha.." Shaina unexpectedly laughed because of Alice's whispering to her.

The words Alice whispered can be heard by Joon himself, so he set his eyes on Shaina who is too indifferent to Joon's gaze, but suddenly her memory revolves around the events of that night that make Shaina again misbehaved, even so, they still act calm as if the incident never happened.

"When haven't you used a spoon?" Joon asks Shaina who eats with her hands without using a tablespoon like the others.

Shaina is aghast because Joon suddenly asks her, "i-it, I'm going" he said.

"Use your spoon don't be like that, it's not polite" Joon said.

"Yes uncle, I ud-" interrupted Alice.

"When you eat, don't talk" Joon said.

"But pa-" continued Alice.

Again Joon glanced sharply and made Alice shudder but Shaina immediately turned the boy's attention to his food.

After the drama at the dinner table is over, they sit down to relax in the living room, and Joon is also invisible from earlier. Like the previous days, Shaina chatted with the two cute and handsome boys who always managed to make Shaina happy.

While everyone is laughing Joon comes out of the room and confuses Shaina.

"How are you still at home? You're not working?" Shaina asked Joon who came from the room.

"I don't work today" he said.

"Why?".

"I want to take a day off from my job" Joon replied.

Shaina nods and she shifts around a bit with the kids, giving room for Joon to sit on that L-shaped sofa.

Shaina got up from her seat, "what do you want to drink?" Shaina asked Joon.

"No need" he said.

"It's okay, I want to make juice for them" Shaina explained, "teh? a coffee? Added Shaina.

Joon glances next to the kids while nodding at Shaina.

"Jus is just like them" Joon replied.

Shaina immediately heads to the kitchen to prepare the children's request juice including Joon. Five minutes later, Shaina returns with a tray filled with juice glasses, after sharing with each of the juice owners, Shaina sits with them again, though she is still reluctant to start a conversation with Joon, but there's something very important that he has to talk about.

Stuttering Shaina let out a voice that wanted to start a conversation with the charming man, who was ready to take aim at the hearts of the women who saw him.

"Joona... You got any money?" Shaina asked Joon.

"You want to go shopping?" Reply Joon.

"No. We haven't checked my womb for a long time, I'm afraid there's a problem with the baby because I'm not pregnant yet" Shaina said.

Joon is silent for a moment his gaze is fixed on Shaina's big belly.

"Don't force her if you don't have money, you better take a break, tomorrow-tomorrow if we have new money to go" continued Shaina who smiled.

Joon's silence implies the sadness that Shaina means, although it is not said directly by Joon himself, but Shaina feels something strange with Joon who looks lethargic after hearing his statement. Joon just took a few sips of his juice he passed away going into his room. In the room he immediately took out his account book stored in his wardrobe and opened each sheet to check the balance.

"Damn! I only have enough savings for this month, how is this? I also have to take Shaina to the doctor" Joon said.

Joon's bad luck is not there, which in his wallet also only leaves a few sheets of paper money that is planned to pay for home electricity, which is also only, but hearing Shaina's words, she is forced to use the money to charge Shaina to the gynecologist. Joon shouldn't be that quick if it wasn't for paying for his car repairs that have been breaking down a lot lately. By establishing her heart Joon goes out to meet Shaina who is with the kids.

"Prepare, we'll go to the doctor to check your uterus" Joon told Shaina.

Shaina was shocked, "Joon...".

After talking about no longer checking her pregnancy, Shaina is not feeling well, let alone seeing Joon's daily life is not a person who has more income. So Shaina tried again to try to postpone her to not want to listen to him on the grounds that he would try to be able to take care of all their needs and needs well, inevitably Shaina can't refuse him not to go with Joon to the doctor.

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In front of the doctor who handled it, Shaina began to say all her complaints, ranging from her frequent pain and discomfort in her hip bones to several other problems. But the gynecologist just smiled and said Shaina is experiencing significant changes in her body because of the development of the baby and it is normal experienced by pregnant women.

A stick-shaped object was rubbed into the surface of Shaina's stomach lying on the patient's bed by the doctor, the stick is called a 4D USG stick where it can capture the activity and facial expressions of the fetus more clearly. So that Joon and Shaina who saw him looked happy, there was no stopping a happy smile on the red lips throughout the examination.

"Ma, that's the baby's sister?" Alice asked enthusiastically looking at her sister through the dimensional screen while holding onto Shaina, as well as Alfan who was not far away with Joon.

Shaina herself who had just seen such a clear fetus was amazed at the same time gaping, unconsciously her tears came out of her eyes, her eyes, it reminded her of the figure of the woman who had conceived her nine months while she was still like that fetus, his longing deepened and deepened how he used to always be strict with his mother because of differences in views with both parents. But Shania did not hate them even though she did not obey and did not show her gentle side, but actually she loved them very much, trying hard to protect his younger siblings secretly and become a figure who is always there when needed, beside his own wounds to look perfect for those he loves, because he was born as the firstborn who must always be strong without having to be known by others and a soft heart as snow to embrace those who need it.

But since becoming Helena, the deepest side that he always hid first really appeared, easy to cry and often considered Joon whiny or spoiled is the real figure of himself.