MAMA's Soul Secret

Disillusioned

Staying with Joon, the uncle who promised to look after them like his brother's will is also unable to restore the children's smiles, because even though Joon promised to look after them but he did not show his compassion and precisely he only gave a ride in his house for them. In addition, the situation of Helena who does not know them sometimes he also did not respond to their calls when calling her Mama it makes them sadder.

At the dinner table Shaina is busy serving the dinner menu with the kids while waiting for Joon to come out of the room, his heart feels more sensitive even he wants to cry because Joon ignored his request to buy the fruits he wants.

"Mama, let's eat" Alice who sat on her stool with the tableware in front of her and some food has also been presented Shaina with ingredients available in the refrigerator.

"Wait a minute, let's wait for your uncle first" Shaina said.

From a distance Joon can be seen coming out of his room approaching them, his hair is still wet which indicates he just finished bathing.

"How's your nausea?" joon asked who was standing in front of the table with his eyes fixed on Shaina.

"It hasn't been since noon" Shaina said.

Joon pulls the chair to his seat facing Shaina and the woman seems like something is pushing him to serve her first, like the atmosphere of dinner shown in the movies.

"Which one do you want?" Shaina asked the children while setting her eyes on the dishes on the table.

"That's Ma" said Alice and followed by Alfan.

Shaina extends her body to reach for the food that Helena's children want, while Joon occasionally glances at Shaina's attitude that serves her and the children, the scenery that he had long forgotten and now reminded him of the figure of his mother who always served his father also took care of him and his brother when they were children first.

Slowly Shaina turns her eyes on Joon and emboldens herself to ask "Sir, did you forget to buy the fruit I said this morning?" his heart was racing just to ask Joon.

"Yes" joon replied.

Instantly it felt claustrophobic and also as if something was piercing into his heart, hearing Joon's short answer, as well, not at his will also his tears just flow even though he tried hard not to cry.

Joon sees Shaina wiping her tears and makes her wonder at Shaina's attitude. "Why you?" Ask Joon.

As soon as Shaina wiped away her tears before the children saw her "nothing" Shaina drank the water until it was not left in her glass, "i'm full, you guys just continue eating it" Shaina said, then he left the dining table.

After everyone had finished dinner, Shaina returned to the dining room to clean the tableware, but she did not forget to tell the children to teach their pr, although not their mother Shaina has no other choice but to accept her present state of being someone else in the body of another person, starting to familiarize yourself with the call of Mama and the condition of her pregnant body where she has difficulty when she moves, pregnancy symptoms are also somewhat troublesome, frequent urination, difficulty sleeping, difficulty sleeping, often sultry even though he was in the air-conditioned room, sometimes he also felt like a person catching a cold. But, it did not make her panic thanks to her reading nature so she understood a little about pregnancy, she said, even he felt he was craving about his desire to eat young mangoes but he did not dare to tell Joon about it.

After doing his job, he rushes to sleep to forget the desire to eat mangoes, and he feels annoyed to see Joon in the living room who is fun playing online games.

"Behind! in the back! Shoot it! Shoot it! Ok bro!" Pekik Joon who is fun playing games.

Joon's voice is like someone yelling not to mention the volume of his phone is also loud enough to be heard all the way to the room and it disturbs children who are learning.

Shaina saw the two children looked sad and anxious, "Don't mind that you just focus on learning" said Shaina.

"Can't Ma.." said Alfan. Alice also nodded her head.

"Why can't it? Let's just say you're testing in the woods and there's a creature who wants to thwart your victory by roaring to scare anyone, so do you want to fail?" chirps Shaina.

"No way" said Alice

"Then you must defeat the creature by ignoring its voice and remain concentrated in your trials right?"

"Yes Ma, Mama's right" said Alice.

Alice and Alfan re-open their textbooks and do not care about Joon's screams echoing throughout the room. Shaina who was sitting on the bed went out, he wanted to enjoy the night breeze because he was bored in the room only and he could not immediately sleep because the children were still learning while he himself did not understand the children's lessons included difficult, because the value of Shaina's physics lesson was a bit low, and his desire to eat mangoes also has not been delivered that makes him only able to swallow saliva repeatedly.

"Where are you going?" joon asked as Shaina passed by the living room.

Shaina stopped her steps while saying "Sit outside". His footsteps slumped back.

"Outside the cold you have to take care of your health" Joon said again.

With regular steps Shaina treads the small path to sit on the bench while enjoying the moon at night, thinking about what miracle she experienced that entered the body of others, he was worried that if he really was a ghost, it would mean that he was dead. His tears flowed slowly but more and more his tears were getting louder even he sobbed by curling his body so that no one heard the cry that he could not stand it.

"Why are you crying?" joon asked who suddenly appeared while covering her with a thick cloth.

Shaina raises her head to look at Joon in the moonlight, the most handsome man Shaina has ever seen, and her heart shakes violently as if something is binding her heart.

"No one, hicks..! hiks...!" shaina replied with an unstoppable cry.

Joon looks left and right, scratches his temple and sits next to Shaina, "I know you must miss your sister a lot, but don't sit outside all night, think about your baby too" Joon's voice softly as usual.

"Know what? You don't know anything even to think of me as crazy" muttered Shaina, who curled up again.

"I'm sorry, if that makes you angry, I promise I won't say that again as long as you have to get back up and be the old Helena" Joon said.

Shaina fixes her seat and turns to Joon but he immediately turns his face away from Joon because it makes him nervous to see Joon looking at her.

"The old Helena? I'm not even Helena how can I be her, I don't know if I'm alive or not" Shaina said.

"Stop talking like that if you want to be considered normal"

"Hiks..! Hicks...! It's up to you, I don't care if I'm normal or not, but I'm really Shaina, not Helena you're talking to" Shaina said.

Joon's unhinged makes Shaina even more upset.

"How can you trust me? I'm Shaina I'm 25 years old, a few days ago I was shopping with my friends in my hometown and then suddenly the power cord cut off and hit me after that I don't know what happened, a week later I woke up and it was like this, impossible indeed but this is what happened" Shaina explained by looking at Joon hoping he believed his words.

"Let's go in. It's night, you have to rest" Joon said.

"Stupid" said Shaina.

Joon blinked, "What do you mean?".

"I'm stupid, because I hope to be trusted by telling that! leave me! I want to cry at least I can let go of the little burden I feel" Shaina said.

"Let's go in" teach Joon.

"What do you care? You didn't even bring me the mango I asked for!" timpal Shaina's.

Joon jerks, "Mango? you still want it?" ask Joon.

Shaina nods while singing her lips and even appears to swallow her saliva when Joon says mango.

"I don't want to go looking for him" Joon said.

Shaina puts her hand on Joon while saying, "Give me money because I don't have any money, I want to look for it myself".

Joon clucked but he took his wallet and gave some paper money to Shaina. Shaina's conical lips attracted her to create a sweet smile and said, "Thank you".

Joon is silent to see Shaina leave. Shaina is grateful to wear a cardigan and long pants also have a cloth to cover her head, so she does not bother to think about her appearance. Fifteen minutes later, Shaina realized that she did not know that the street also seemed quiet even on both sides of the road many houses, but she could not be denied that she was afraid of being alone.

"Helena...! Helena..!"'s search...!"

Suddenly a mysterious voice called out Helena's name to her, Shaina quickened her pace as the voice came from behind her. But by speeding up his steps made him tired and difficult to breathe especially he also felt pain in his stomach.

Shaina clutched her body tightly, "Sorry Helena... Don't ta~ku~ti a~ku..., Bu~kan ku ma~suk to tu~buh~mu..." shaina's grouse continued to walk without looking back because many said pamali looked back if walking alone especially at night.