Loving You In Silence

Episode 51

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After the prayer Hanif took his phone in the bag, checking some incoming messages. Hanif's gaze stopped at Anita's message. Read it for a while and then Hanif called.

Tut tut tut tut

Until the call breaks off on its own. Anita did not pick up her phone. Hanif then sent a message to her.

Later if it's loose call yes, I want a phone.

It had been a long time since Hanif continued his S2 in Bandung, Anita was like medicine to him. When tired, tired and difficult Hanif then remembered Anita.

Anita finds out, that Hanif is tired despite not saying he accompanied her to talk about many things. Hanif would tell about his activities all day ago the problems he faced that day. Anita even memorized the habit.

Sorry, Anita just got home, just a minute. I'll be on the phone later.

Once the contents of Anita's message, now the clock shows at 8, Anita has just arrived home after a day of working on her thesis in the City Library.

Not long after, Hanif's phone rang. He immediately grabbed the phone because he knew Anita was the one who contacted him.

“assalamu’alaikum.” greet Anita on the other end of the phone.

“wa’alaikumsalam.how is today deck? Where's the script?”

And that conversation flows. Anita tells her activities throughout the day as well as the progress of the script. Hanif responded by giving some advice.

“mas Hanif why? Difficult yes his thesis, many revisions?” ask Anita now.

Anita is always ready to listen to Hanif's story and vice versa. Only with Anita Hanif can tell everything, and after that the burden she carries all day feels light again.

“you have people's mind reading skills huh?” Seloroh Hanif then chuckled to himself.

“Means?”

“means nothing.. hehe..”

“always so. Just answer why the hell.” They fell silent again.

“dek.”

"hmm.”

“mas will quickly complete this thesis.”

“Why hurry? Now it is faster than the time it should be.”

Because I'm gonna propose to you soon..

“because it's very kangen same Jogja.hehe”

“jogja hers aja kangeni?” ask Anita. No matter where the wind came from, Anita was surprised by her own words, in her room there she was cursing her original speech.

“no. Many reasons that make me want to come back soon.” Said Hanif pensively. The faces of his brothers, uncle and his symbol. And also the face of Anita who dominates her daydream.

Hearing Hanif's reply, Aita was lured to know something. About Hanif's ex-girlfriend. Like asking for an explanation of his current relationship.

“include him?” ask Anita.

“dia? Who?”

“former mas, Kiara?” lure Anita again.

“why discuss him?”

“isn't mas going to marry him?”

“mean? I won't go back to her again let alone marry her.”

“then why did Hanif go with her to the jewelry store?”

“jewelry store?”

“hmm” Anita replied limp. Lazy actually he discussed others. But Anita has to assert who she is for Hanif.

“where do you know?”

“nindi who told me. she saw the same mas Kiara in the jewelry store.” said Anita quickly.

Hanif took a deep breath, then exhaled quickly.

“i won't marry her. At that time I just drove him to the store because he said he wanted to buy a gift for his mother.”

“why should the same mas?”

“because he keeps whining. She kept calling me and carrying around her parents which made me unable to resist. Believe me, Hmm?”

Anita was silent there hearing Hanif's explanation. He no longer had a proper argument to argue with. No, Hanif's explanation is not up for debate. He just wanted a clear explanation for their relationship.

“dek... want to know why mas desperately finish this thesis as soon as possible?”

Quiescent.

Anita. His eyes were glazed over as a feeling of pleasure burst forth instantly. But he held on, Kiara's name reappeared in his head.

He would hold back his feelings of pleasure until Hanif actually came to his house to propose.

“but she wants you back to her mas.” said Anita lirih, Anita held tightness in her chest.

Hearing that remark Hanif chuckled, his emotions overflowing. That's not the word he wants to hear.

“why are you talking like that? you met Kiara? Or did he call you? Does he bother you?” asked Hanif to hunt, he was afraid if Kiara was really reckless and disturbed Anita.

“no, he just told me about his relationship with Hanif mas. And she hopes you will come back to her.” Anita. Anita felt something new for her, happy feelings mixed with sadness. Hanif took a deep breath.

“I told you that I won't be returning to her, since a few months ago. Still remember, right? Mas don't know what he told you, but trust me I'll never get back to him Anita.” Hanif said firmly that determination. She was sure of her feelings for Anita.

Anita fell silent. In the corner of her room there, Anita was touched by her tears.

“you don't trust me?” ask Hanif back. He also felt a tightness in his chest. He could not bear to hear Anita crying.

“you want me back to him?” hanif asked once again, but Anita was still silent. Anita could not open her voice.

“well.. rest..” said Hanif, he considers Anita's silence is the answer YES to him.

“no, wait.” sergeant Anita fast. He did not want to end it just like that, at least Hanif had to clarify their current relationship.

Although Hanif had already said that he would propose to Anita, but it seemed that it could not make Anita calm down. In the past, Hanif also promised to propose to Kiara.

“mas will really come back to her?” continued.

“if you want it like that, I'll come back to her!” Hanif tried hard to hold tightness in his chest. In his heart he struggled, sad and angry as one.

Come on Anita, tell me not to. Tell me you'll wait for my proposal.

“mas still love her?” anita asked, though she had to hold the pain in her heart.

“astaga Anita.” Hanif let out a heavy sigh hearing Anita's silly question.

“answer mas!”

“no!” sahut Hanif's. His breath was stinged because he was so upset.

“what love me?”this time Anita asked for a statement.

“maybe!” answer Hanif. I was lazy to answer Anita's silly questions. So now he will make Anita feel what she feels. No, not revenge, just a little lesson for Anita so that she knows that Hanif is really serious to her.

“why possible.?”

“because you just made me hesitate.” they fell silent in their respective places.

In her room, Anita cries again, regretting that she has now doubted Hanif.

“so, you still want to send me back to Kiara?” ask Hanif again. Anita. And Hanif clearly heard that, his chest tightened again because of it.

No. gabe. I don't want Hanif to do it.. Anita murmured in the heart.

“Alright, no need to answer. Listen carefully because you will only say it once. Hmm?”

“I've already committed myself that I will fight for you. I tried to avoid you first, because I did not feel worthy, nor did I dare to promise anything or express my feelings to you. I'm afraid that what I feel with Kiara will reoccur, then I better free you and especially myself. Then you showed up with Zahra at graduation.You know how I feel? It's like healing from a wound. The wounds that had hurt me for years disappeared when I saw you that day. And

now, I desperately struggle to finish the thesis as quickly as possible because of you, Anita. I'll propose to you when I get back to Jogja later, because now I'm sure about you.” Long-length Hanif explained.

He took a deep breath and exhaled it rough.

“I shouldn't say it now, these words I've arranged to propose to you later. But you screwed it up. And I shouldn't deserve to say it over the phone like this, right?” Hanif chuckled small.

On the other end of the phone, Anita smiled. She felt a sweet taste in her heart along with the still tight chest. He had absolutely no idea it turned out that Hanif had thought about it long ago.

“mas..” call Anita, her voice is raucous once. It can hardly be heard clearly.

“hmm.”

“I will wait for you.” said Anita. Then the two smiled in relief at each other's place. If faced head-on, could it be that they would be flocking to each other? Ah, it doesn't seem. It is not halal.

“thank you deck.. Do’a mas also to smoothly complete this thesis.” pinta Hanif.

“certain.” Anita did not stop smiling even though her eyes were grievous from crying.

“already yes.rest yes. My ears are already hot from earlier.hehehe..” said Hanif a little joking.

“iya.”

“Assalamu’alaikum.”

“wa’alaikumsalam.”

Then tut tut tut tut, the connection was cut off. It was a long night because their conversation was finally over. It's 23:00 now. Anita's eyes that had been painful were getting worse because of sleepiness. He finally fell asleep still holding a cell phone.

Hanif could not sleep. Hanif felt an incredible relief. A smile continued to linger on his face, his spirit also returned. So tonight he decided to overtime work on his thesis.

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