Loving You In Silence

Episode 33

Month to month, year to year. Anita has now stepped on semester 4, meaning Hanif is already in the completion of his thesis.

From that day on, Hanif was no longer visible from his nose. They are a college building, an organization. They may have met accidentally.

But somehow it's been almost 7 months Anita hasn't seen him.

Anita's feelings for Hanif never go away, although she hesitates when Hanif reveals that she already has a candidate.

From that day on, Anita continued to search for Hanif's whereabouts, when she finished her studies, in the parking lot, in the cafeteria, in the library, wherever she remembered she had met Hanif, he hopes at least he can see the heart.

It turned out that there was one place that Hanif could not hide from Anita. The campus mosque.

There are certain times Anita accidentally saw Hanif in the front row shaf. Instantly Anita smiled, and when she finished praying Anita always slipped Hanif's name in her prayers.

“ya Rabb may mas Hanif always be in your protection and care. Strengthen me Rabb, if Hanif is my soul mate then close one day, and if he is not my soul mate then strengthen me to be able to release him.” pinta Anita lirih.

It was so quiet that even those near him could not hear.

On the Hanif side. Hanif is deliberately avoiding Anita. In the campus environment, he always circulated his gaze looking for the figure of Anita. When his eyes managed to find the figure, as soon as possible Hanif hid or avoided going to another place.

For almost 7 months Hanif managed to do so. Unbeknownst to Hanif, there is one place that is difficult to avoid Anita. The campus mosque.

Secretly Anita watched him from behind as those eyes found Hanif's figure in the male shaf.

Of course Hanif didn't know.

This year Hanif will complete his studies. He has successfully passed his scripture exam to earn his bachelor's degree. There is only one ritual that must be taken, namely the graduation procession.

“assala’mualaikum. Paklex. Hanif next week will diwisuda paklek come yes, invite adek-adek and sober also if the cessation is pleasing.” Hanif.

“insyaallah yes le. Later paklek also said the same seimbah. If we can't come how? What's nothing about? Your waste is already very sepuh, if paklek stay seimbah ndak no one guard.” The sound there sounded sad, with a thick Javanese accent.

“nothing paklek, but Hanif please try first. It's Hanif's moment of a lifetime. Hanif wants to boast of the waste and also paklek with toga that Hanif uses later.” Said Hanif while holding back tears so as not to fall.

“alah le, paklek try yes, insyaallah.”

“ya already paklek, assalamu’alaikum.” Hanif turned off his phone.

Hanif breathed a heavy sigh. Mr. Lek and his sobering are the only closest family he has. My mother and father have been separated for a long time. Since Hanif was a kid.

The mother left little Hanif and the young adult, with no news. Until now Hanif still does not know the existence of the

mothering.

While the father is looking for a better life. His father still often gave the news, once a week, and once a month sent money for the cost of Hanif and his grandfathers. If it's a difficult time, every three months his father just sent money.

Hanif recalls his childhood. He was eager to meet his mother. She never felt the love of a mother. He never felt the warmth of the whole family. He doesn't even know how the mother looks.

Hanif rubbed his face rough. A clear drop of tears escaped. Then he went to the bathroom, just wanted to wash his face but what happened was that Hanif was crying so badly in the bathroom.

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