Loving You In Silence
Episode 44
Behind Zahra's house, Anita sits on a bench under a mango tree.
Anita is busy with her cell phone. In her chat group were crowded messages from her friends. Anita did not immediately reply, instead busy sorting photos in her gallery. Choose a photo with a good angel in his opinion and send it to someone.
“kok not baled anyway? Though it was read. What's busy?” he muttered alone.
Waiting for a reply but never arriving. Anita decided to reply to messages from her friend who was excited in the group chat.
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In Bandung. Hanif's hand was dancing on his laptop when a message came in. Hanif has moved to Bandung to continue his studies two months after his graduation.
A Photo. Hanif stared at the photo. Suddenly his heart rippled. Hanif was just confused with his own thoughts.
It was not the photo that made him feel upset. But the sender who made Hanif suddenly upset. He did not reply to his message for a long time.
Tonight the sky is full of stars. Anita took Zahra out earlier, she enjoyed the night while walking around.
He was upset because he was waiting for his message to be unrequited, when it was clear the message was read by the si
beneficiary. Zahra took him to the suburbs, enjoying the night atmosphere there. They looked for a seat after buying some snacks. Then Anita opened the conversation.
“Zah, what will marry make someone change a lot?” ask Anita. His curiosity from yesterday he finally said.
“You mean?”
“I feel you've changed a little, you've become more sensitive, not Zahra the prik boy I know.” Anita.
His eyes continued to look forward, recalling these few days Zahra was very different. Zahra nodded slowly.
“noah. I just felt like there was going to be a big change in my life. Honestly there is fear too.”
“Fear? Scared what?” ask Anita.
“doesn't it clear. I'm afraid my marriage won't go well. You know I don't know Wildan at all. Just talk to him today. I'm afraid she'll be.”
Zahra's words hung, she was very afraid to continue. Anita said nothing. Just hugging calms his best friend and gives strength.
Suddenly Anita's phone rang. Anita let go of her embrace. By Hanif.
“mas Hanif, I lift ya” first said Anita while away from Zahra.
“assalamu’alaikum.” Sapa Hanif's.
“wa’alaikumsalam” Anita replied.
“again what deck?” tanyakanya.
“again streets with Zahra.”
“Zahra? You came to palembang?”
“heem” Anita cleared up.
“ya I will call again, please continue the streets. Be careful yes. assalamu’alaikum” then the phone connection was cut off. Aita Kamebali approached Zahra with a sour face.
“very big phone?” zahra asked when she saw Anita back. Anita gave no answer and sat down next to Zahra.
“ayo home..” says Zahra without guilt.
“I just sat Zahra..” pekik Anita. While Zahra actually felt funny with the reaction of her best friend, she laughed out loud and stood up and walked away from Anita who was getting upset.
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Arriving at the house Zahra Anita again sent a message to Hanif. Not long after Hanif called again. Anita ran out of the house and sat on the porch before she picked up the phone.
“Zahra want to marry ya?”
“iya”
“When?”
“after the final exam, August he said. But the date is not fixed.” Answer Anita.
Silent. Hanif fell silent as well as Anita who did not know what else to say.
“dek, do you also want to get married soon? Like Zahra?” ask Hanif suddenly.
“ya want to know aja.”
“pengenlah, time does not want to be married..” Anita deliberately paused. Hanif felt something bad in his heart when he heard Anita's words.
“but his soul mate did not come true, maybe God knows better that Anita is not ready. If only I wanted to know who wouldn't want to get married. Getting married is not easy. And it looks like Anita is not ready.”
“but if someone suddenly proposes to you? Are you going to accept it?”
“who's it?”
“if only, I don't know anyone”
Anita fell silent.
Aren't you going to propose to me?Anita said in her heart.
“Dek?”
“hmm, Anita can not answer the business of receiving or not, you have to see who the candidate is first. Cannot accept or reject it. If anita answers now I will accept just because anita wants to spit marriage, it turns out later in bad behavior to me how? I'm right, aren't I?"
“Heem.“
“why?” ask Anita.
“why what?” ask Hanif.
“why am Hanif nanyain me about getting married sooner or later?” Anita slowed down her speech.
“as consideration.”
“what material to consider?”
“nothing. Forget.”
“isshhh.”
“can't like to say the same old one.. when to go back to Jogja?”
“3 days more..” the answer is short and ketus.
“kok answered ketus, Why? Angry huh?”
I know it's still going on.
“Anita.?”
“hmmm.” Anita is still with a tinge.
“why? You have a problem?”
You are Hanif Rahardian's problem!! Pekik Anita in heart.
“still want to continue this is not the phone? If you are still angry mending to the bathroom gih, take ablution continue to rest. Ok?” pinta Hanif soft.
But not the answer that was obtained but the sound of the phone that was immediately interrupted. Hanif was stunned, instantly provoked by emotion. He didn't wait long to call Anita.
“What else? said he was told to take wudhu?” ask Anita without guilt. It is still consistent with the tone.
“at least say hello, wasn't it rude of you earlier? I'm sorry if I accidentally hurt your feelings, deck. Ii'm sorry. And also, next time, when I have something wrong that I didn't know or intentionally, say! Don't make me guess what's going on. Ok?” pinta Hanif was still in a gentle tone.
He was an emotion but he could bear it as much as he could. He did not want to further hurt Anita's feelings.
How could I not fall in love more if she was this gentle to me? He didn't even say anything about how our relationship was. Huuuftst.
Anita breathed a heavy sigh.
“ok.” Said Anita lirih. Now he regrets his own actions. Not completely Hanif was wrong. Even Hanif was not wrong at all.
Only Anita's prejudices rule her heart and mind. After saying hello they ended the conversation on the phone.
Mom, what exactly did that attitude mean? Aren't you going back to your lover ?
