Loving You In Silence

Episode 30's

There's no answer yet. All eyes were on Hanif. Hanif misbehaved. Her eyes turned and stopped at Anita's gaze. Sighing deeply while raising his eyebrows. Actually more to give the code to Anita to approve it. Then Anita looked at her mother.

“please son.. Zahra can join aunt to the back.” Mama Rani.

Hanif made sure that Zahra and Mama Anita were already behind.

“you said what the hell mas, why should both?” asked Anita who had been staring curiously at Hanif.

Don't tell me you're going to be like you were before, get close and leave all of a sudden. Sucks.

“I want to tell something.” Hanif.

“apa?”

“you still remember the time of Ramadan yesterday when I disappeared a few days.” Further.

Anita nodded. Of course I remember. You messed up my days how could I forget.

“actually I already have a candidate, An.” Hanif. Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight, Anita was fixated on hearing Hanif's words, her hands clenched, she felt pain in her heart. But he tried to calm down so as not to overreact.

“terus?” ask Anita.

“we've been 3 years together , when suddenly last semester, he called me to ask for separation. He said he wanted to focus on college. But during Ramadan yesterday my friend called me, asking me if we were going to get married. Of course I dodged. Because it was only a month before that he asked for my break up. And then I found out that it was true that she was going to marry someone else. He said he wanted to focus on college. My heart ached at that moment because not only did he betray me but his parents at once. What happens next you know. I disappeared for a few days because I wanted to restore my focus, An.” Hanif said at length. Anita's eyes are breaking. His chest rumbled violently hearing that Hanif had had a candidate all along.

What the fuck this guy. He said he already had a candidate but his attitude.astaga. Astgahfirullah that. Or I went to GeeRan. Anita. Anita clenched her hands, her chest rumbling. But still try to behave and react as normally as possible in front of Hanif.

“ehm ehm.. So, I mean Hanif told me this what?” ask Anita. Anita makes her voice as normal as possible, when the original voice vibrates.

“because I owe you a story. I said one day I would tell you right.”hanif looked at Anita sad.

“oh, so.”

“kok what?” ask Hanif.

“kok is what?” ask back to Hanif.

“why is your reaction so?”

“so I have to how?”

“thank you Hanif for telling me. Although in fact I also have no right to know and it is not important to know.” Anita. During the talk she kept trying to stare at Hanif, but when their eyes met, Anita immediately turned her eyes away.

“Anita.”

“hmm.”

“Anita..” call Hanif soften her voice.

“iya...what?” Anita immediately looked up because of the second call whose voice was very disturbing. He fell, and their eyes met.

“aku will go.”

Deg.

“want to go home? I'll call mom to Zahra.” Just as Anita was about to stand up, Hanif continued his words..

“not, it's not. I'll be gone temporarily.”

“where?” ask Anita. Hanif did not answer. Giving a small smile and then looking down.

“mas want to move to college?”

“no. I'm still here. But while I'm going.”

* I won't say it Anita. I don't want to ask you to wait for me. I don't want to hurt you. I know how you feel but I dare not ask you to be with me for now. Just pray for me. And in time, I'll be back.* Hanif

any more? want to avoid me again? then why should it appear

now it? Anita

“i still don't understand. But yes it's up to me.” Said Anita cuek. Now he does not want to be complacent, does not want to repeat his mistakes too hopeful on Hanif's ambiguous attitude.

Same with Hanif, right? same, author too..