Love for Hana

CHAPTER 2

The cool morning air and the quiet sound of nature, can indeed be a natural sedative. After a month out of the hospital, Effendi decided to take Hana and Kanaya on vacation in one of the top areas in Bandung. Very cheerfully Hana was running around in the front garden of the villa they occupied. Simple villa with incredible views. High trees towered, the roar of the sound of river water faintly sounded. Birds chirping at each other.

It was perfect to see Hana and Kanaya laughing happily, but Effendi felt guilty in his heart. “I beg you, keep laughing like this even if we are not together.” Effendi cried in silence.

“Mas, you why? What are you thinking?” Effendi did not realize Kanaya was already standing before him. Kanaya could feel that her husband was having a very heavy mind load. Since leaving the hospital, Effendi was more often daydreaming and silent. After hearing the story of Kanaya who met Dani while in the hospital, fear seemed to haunt Effendi every time. Now he is faced with a very difficult choice.

“I am grateful and very happy to have you and Hana. There is not the slightest bit of regret in me for letting go of everything I have for the sake of being with you Naya.” Words are beautiful but able to make Kanaya menagis haru dikelukan her husband. Long before Effendi said this, Kanaya felt the same way. Every day he is grateful to have Effendi and Hana in his life.

“Buna, Hana hungry.” Effendi and Kanaya laughed at her pouting daughter. “Ayo last much longer.” Effendi said while looking at Hana. His father's words successfully confused Hana.

On the way home, Hana fell asleep. How not, half of the day he spent running after the butterflies and birds he found. Even when they arrived at Hana's house, they remained asleep. After bringing Hana into his room, Effendi sat in the garden behind his house following Kanaya. The garden was not spacious, roofed with clear glass, and there were several flowers in each corner. But the garden always gives peace to him and Kanaya. Don't ask Hana, of course the park is her favorite playground.

Effendi clasped Kanaya's hand warmly while staring at the clear night sky. Next to him Kanaya sat with her head resting on Effendi's boat. They both fell silent. Busy with each other's thoughts, before a sound from the living room door sounded. Awakening from the daydreams, they looked at each other. Who comes at a time like this? What's more, who knew they lived here? Don't get me wrong, Effendi and Kanaya are good neighbors, they just kind of shut themselves off from other people.

...*****...

The sound of knocking is heard again. This time it was accompanied by a female voice. “Nay, that's the sound.” Effendi's eyes are fixed back on the living room door. Kanaya did not know what kind of response to give. She knew her husband missed her mother so much, he missed her mother-in-law so much. Alita – mother Effendi standing behind the door. Kanaya immediately ran to open the door and hugged Alita, but her steps stopped. He was afraid if he found the figure of Bramantyo along with his mother-in-law. “Mas, Mom.” Kanaya turned towards Effendi. She knew her husband was thinking the same thing.

Alita believes her son and daughter-in-law are behind the door. Which mother can endure longing to be separated from her child for years. Alita knocks again, but this time Alita says something that can not make Effendi and Kanaya remain silent behind the door. “Mami kangen really, please open the door.” Sure enough, when Effendi opened the door, Alita immediately hugged Effendi full day. The longing that he has been yearning for so many years today he can release in his only child's arms.

Kanaya took a distance behind her husband, giving her mother-in-law space to release her misses to her son. There was a warm feeling coming into Kanaya's heart seeing this scene. He felt very guilty for making Effendi take the path to part with his own mother in order to stay with him. “I'm sorry God, I'm sorry because I have been selfish in separating a son from his mother.” said exclaimed Kanaya while hiding her tears.

“Naya, here son.. Mami also misses you.” Kanaya walked slowly towards Alita. Tears began to pour down his cheeks, how much he missed a mother's warm embrace. Kanaya since her teens has been an orphan, which is why Bramantyo has never been able to accept Kanaya being with her only son. To her, Kanaya is just an orphan woman whose origins are unclear. A great disgrace to a Bramantyo Permadi if people know that he has a son-in-law who is nobody.

For Kanaya, Alita was the second chance God gave her, the opportunity to serve a mother. Kanaya loves Alita very much and always thinks Alita is her real mother. Alita becomes one of the reasons why Kanaya can stay in her marriage with Effendi. In contrast to Bramantyo, Alita treats Kanaya with affection and care. A mother loves and loves her own child.

Haru's atmosphere came to a halt when a voice sounded from the direction of Hana's room. Hana who had awoken looking for where her mother and father were. Hana walks out of the room while carrying her beloved doll. "Dad, Buna, how come Hana Cariin's time?" the protest was half whining.

Hana who is still not fully aware, has not realized the existence of Alita. Slowly Alita approached Hana. The look of amazement given Alita to Hana, it feels like just yesterday she was holding Hana when she was born. In her heart, if only her husband's heart was not as hard as a rock, maybe they were playing with this beloved grandson.

Hana hides behind her father's body. He feels alien to Alita's presence. Realizing that, Effendi then held Hana. "Hana, this is Dad's Buna. Hana can call Dad's Buna Oma. Kiss your hands, baby." Hana was still a little afraid when carrying out her father's orders. Especially when she saw Alita crying after Hana kissed her hand. Hana started crying, thinking that she had made her father's mother cry.

Seeing Hana crying, Alita hurriedly wiped her tears and gently stroked her grandson's hair. Looking at Hana, it was like looking at Effendi as a child. "Oma nangis not because sad because dear, Oma cry because it is so happy to see you again. Oma kangen very much with Hana." Alita took out a small box from inside her bag, a gift she had prepared for her beloved granddaughter. A necklace containing the name Hana with a small jewel forming the letters.

Hana was so happy when she received the gift necklace from Alita. He also promised not to take care and would not let go of the necklace. The night passed with warmth that had been lost for six years. Tells a beautiful memory for their small family amid the many bad memories stored. But apparently no one can think, that after this painful destiny they must experience.

...*****...

The night was getting late, the sky was getting darker. No stars filled the sky at that time. The clouds cover the moonlight. One by one, raindrops come down to wet the earth. The universe knows that tonight might be the last night for them to laugh together. Yes, his mother's visit was not just to let go of longing, but also bring news that might change the life of Effendi and his family.

Sure enough, once Effendi opened the room door, he could immediately see the gaze of his wife. Since Alita came home, Kanaya had been waiting for her husband to explain the purpose of her mother-in-law's arrival. Before walking towards Kanaya, Effendi stared at the rest of his bedroom. The room was not large, but it was enough to lay a large bed. There was a long sofa just under the window and a dressing table beside the bed. The room became a place for Effendi and Kanaya to combine love, encourage each other, and become a place of rest after they had a hard day.

Seeing her husband's attitude made Kanaya get out of bed to approach Effendi. As the time to stay with her husband was not going to be long, Kanaya hugged Effendi very tightly. There was a sense of tightness that he felt in his heart. Now he knew the meaning of his mother-in-law's arrival. They both can't do anything anymore.

“What this time do we really have to part ways? Is there nothing else we can do?” kanaya's voice shook breaking the silence between them. Effendi again tightened his hugging. This time, he was unable to hide his tears anymore. Effendi felt guilty for failing to maintain the integrity of his family.

“May I once again be selfish Naya? May I ask you again to stay strong and persevere? Once again we have to fight Naya. for us. for Hana.” request Effendi greeted nod Kanaya in his arms.

They both walked towards Hana's room. Effendi opened the door to Hana's room slowly and entered with Kanaya. Hana goes back to sleep after Alita gets home. Kanaya gently stroked Hana's head, while Effendi clasped Hana's hand. Only the sound of rain was heard. I want to make time stop so that the morning does not come. But in fact it is impossible. The two of them hugged each other with Hana being escorted them. Their time is not much anymore. In fact, perhaps, there was no tomorrow for the two of them to be able to hug like this.

...*****...

Kanaya awakens from her sleep after hearing someone knock on her door. Last night he and Effendi fell asleep in Hana's room. While Hana is still asleep, Kanaya searches for her husband's whereabouts. Before finding the figure of Effendi, the sound of knocking was heard again. Reluctantly Kanaya walked towards the door and opened it. How surprised he saw the figure of Dani behind the door. Not yet had time to ask a question, Dani immediately gave him an envelope.

Brown envelope with medium size. There was no writing on the envelope, so Kanaya hesitated to accept it. But his curiosity was greater than his taste. Kanaya carefully received the envelope and took out the contents of the envelope. Inside there is a savings book and a house key. With a surprised look he looked at Dani. “Please read the letter first Ma'am. I will wait for Bu Naya and Miss Hana outside,” Dani said as she gave a letter to Kanaya.

To my wife, Kanaya..

I'm sorry I had to go like this. I'm sorry I didn't wait for you to wake up so I could say goodbye. I don't want to see you mark my departure. By God Naya, it's too hard for me to leave you and Hana. But I'm sorry, I have to go. For your safety and Hana's sake, let me sacrifice. I can't imagine being able to live in a world where you and Hana are not. Although the distance separates us, but I can rest easy if you guys are okay.

Kanaya, in this envelope there is a savings book and a house key that you can later use to live with Hana. I have prepared a house for you to live in with Hana. Live quietly there with Hana, my departure is Naya's guarantee. The savings book contains some money that you can use for living purposes and Hana's school fees until it is completed later. I love you so much Kanaya, you are the only woman in my heart. My heart will be forever closed to others, for you are Kanaya's key. Would you please raise our little angel, Nay? I'm sorry I'm not beside you to support his growth. I'm sure you can teach him to be a great kid. Tell him the ideals that we both have dreamed of, build a beautiful house and can bring happiness to anyone who lives in it.

Wait for me to return Kanaya. Believe me, my departure is to make our family back intact and can live happily together again. I will be strong Kanaya because I am sure you will be strong too. Sitip hugs and kisses for Hana huh?

I love you always and forever...

___Effendi___

The contents of the letter were like hitting his chest, creating a painful sense of tightness. Bowing still holding the letter, Kanaya's tears dripped one by one. As if rejecting what she had just read, Kanaya cried out her husband's name in silence. Dani who heard Kanaya's scream behind the fence could only be bowed silently unable to do anything. Kanaya's shout also made Hana wake up and run out of her room. When she found her mother crying, the little girl hugged her.

As if knowing the contents of her mother's heart, Hana tries to calm Kanaya down by continuing to hug her. “Buna, there's Hana here. Buna is not alone, there I am Buna. Ashana Effendi Bramantyo, father's son and Buna.” Hana's words made Kanaya look at her little daughter. Hana's words made Kanaya aware, true what her husband said. That he must be strong and persevere, for Hana's sake.

Kanaya took a deep breath trying to calm herself down. After feeling quite calm, he wiped away his tears. Then looked at Hana and smiled. “Thank you for saying. Buna is happy that you are here. We have to be strong, huh Hana? So that Dad can survive there too. Now Dad is not with us, but Dad keeps us from far away,” Kanaya said while kissing Hana on the forehead. Despite not understanding her mother's intentions, Hana still nodded and smiled.

After finishing packing their belongings, Kanaya and Hana came out of the house they had been living in for four years. Kanaya clasped Hana's hand tightly, promising in her heart that she would not let go of it no matter what. “I'm ready. Take us to the home that Effendi.” has prepared Dani nods and lets Kanaya and Hana get in the car.