Love Blocks the Past

CHAPTER 81 ~ Back with Disappointment ~

Mikho woke up at dawn. Once he woke up, his eyes could no longer be closed. Mikho finally decided to return to the city after feeling his body condition had improved. The man wanted to say goodbye to Lola. However, seeing the nurse sleeping so soundly and looking tired, Mikho snarled to wake her up.

Mikho stepped towards his car. After sure close and lock the clinic door. Then tuck the key under the door. Mikho didn't want anything bad to happen to the nurse who lived alone in the clinic.

Sorry Lola, I have to go now. There's no point in me being here anymore. This may be our last meeting. I'll find another doctor who will replace me at this clinic. Thank you for your devotion during this time and for everything, Mikho whispered inwardly.

So long staring at the door of the clinic that has been in the key. Then slowly left the clinic and drove off with his car. Along the way, recalling the early days of the man chose to open a clinic there.

All because Mikho often visited the memorable campground with Celine. Mikho even repeatedly went down the mountain alone. Repeatedly found climbers who experience hypothermia from mild to severe attacks.

Mikho was willing to help them. Mikho accidentally recalls a time when he helped Celine from hypothermia. Every time he remembered it, his heart felt warm. The coldness approaching his body was gone. It was as if feeling back the warmth of her body that shared with the coldness of Celine's body.

Mikho finally finds a situation where a climber who is still a girl has a severe attack of hypothermia. They did everything they could to help him, and finally chose to do the skin to skin technique he had done to Celine. The difference is, the climber did not do it with a loved one until there was an argument.

"Try there's a health clinic around here. We don't need to use that technique" said the climber girl who regretted the actions of a friend.

Mikho just stayed in his tent which was not far from the group of student climbers. Mikho finally decided to open a health clinic not far from the village. Each day can remember his good times with Celine so that they finally really meet again.

Mikho threw his body on the bed after being tired of traveling long distances. The man covered his face with his arms and cried sobbing. All the good memories with Celine were forced to leave him along with his decision to leave the clinic.

Her heart ached, looking at Celine who had been happy with another man. Celine found happiness by living in that village. Leave all the bitter memories in the city. His wife seemed to have succeeded in continuing her life.

All right Celine, grab your happiness. You deserve that. Leave this cruel me, the man who claims to love you but can hurt you. I don't deserve you. Maybe he's better than me. Leave me alone with my regrets, I won't bother you anymore, you won't meet any more selfish and cruel men like me. I'm sorry Celine, please forgive me, inner Mikho cried.

The man tried to rest and intended to ask permission not to practice in the hospital. Mikho felt his body was very tired. The man eventually got a fever. Erica who wants to find Mikho in the hospital is informed that Mikho is unable to practice in the hospital because of illness.

Erica who was curious to know the results of Celine's search, decided to come to the man's house and all wanted to see him. Mikho who had no interest in meeting her downstairs, finally asked Erica to go upstairs to her room. At first Erica felt strange to get a chance to enter the room of the man she loved since setting foot in the High School.

After speaking of trite, Erica asked Mikho's search results to the village. Mikho told me what he saw. Including Celine who had turned away from him.

"No way Mik, Celine still loves you. There's no way she's with another man" Erica said in disbelief.

Mikho who was leaning against the balcony guardrail could only stare straight ahead. Erica did not believe her words because she did not see for herself what the situation was like. Celine was hugged by a man and Celine did not refuse.

"Is that man his brother?" erica asked after Mikho told her what he saw.

"A brother would not hug with such a gaze. I backed off, unable to continue my steps. To be honest, I was afraid I couldn't bear to hit that guy in the face. Like I did to Teon, but what I got. The hatred of Celine. I love him, I don't want him to hate me. I can't take any more hate from him, so I chose to give up. For the sake of my love for Celine, I chose to give up. Letting her be happy with that man but at least Celine no longer hates me" Mikho said.

"What if she wants to marry that man? I obviously have no hope with him anymore. How can I not despair?" ask Mikho.

"Can you forget it?" ask Erica.

"I don't know, obviously, it's going to be very heavy. During my time with Tiara, I .. loved Celine. Tiara didn't help me forget Celine at all. It is precisely he who often evokes my memories with Celine. I don't know what the purpose is? Maybe because they are friends. But now Tiara is happy with Teon. I don't have anyone else who can help me forget Celine" Mikho said.

"Tiara did that to make you happy. He thinks if you're happy with him, you'll fall in love with him. Without her knowing it, it makes you even stronger to love Celine," Erica explained.

Mikho pensively heard Erica's thoughts. It made sense to him everything Erica explained. Mikho felt he needed someone who could make him forget Celine.

Seeing Mikho who was getting sad after his failed attempt to chase Celine out of the city, Erica decided to let the man calm down. The girl also came home. As she passed by Mikho's desk, the girl saw a clear box containing Celine's hairpin.

"You haven't fixed this hairpin? How about you fix this hairpin? After that we give it to him. At least you have a reason to see her again?" ask Erica.

"For anything else? He has forgotten me. I better forget it too. Erica ... Help me! Help me forget about it .. marry me-"

"What's? You're going crazy! No matter how much my love is with you. I will not marry you for that reason! I want you to love me not because you want to forget Celine! What if you can't forget it for the rest of your life? I have to marry a man who loves another woman. Nope! I don't want to!" erica replied firmly.

Mikho was confused, he only realized his mistake. His chaotic mind made him not think long so he finally regretted his own words.

"Why am I always like this? If my mind is messed up, I can't control what I say. Many times I hurt Celine because of my words, which I eventually regret for myself. I'm sorry Erica, I'm sorry for what I said earlier" Mikho said at last.

You don't know Mikho, how happy I am when I hear your request but I am grateful to still be able to stand on earth until I realize this is impossible. You love Celine too much. You won't be able to forget it. I can't imagine having sex with a husband who imagines another woman. Let us be friends only. I opened my eyes that saw there was no chance for you to love me, Erica whispered and stared at Celine's hairpin.

"What if I help fix this? We deliver him together? I knew he was preparing this when he was leaving, but somehow he forgot. Maybe it's Mikho's destiny, maybe it's a way for you to be together. I brought ya, I'm looking for an expert to fix this pearl pin?" asked Erica excitedly. Mikho smiled hearing Erica's fiery words.

Maybe Erica can make me forget Celine but not by marrying her. By making friends with her, it might help me to forget about Celine or maybe to help me reach for Celine's love again, inner Mikho.

"Let me fix it. If it's done in the fix I'll tell you, " said Mikho.

"Don't be delayed! I'd like to see Celine right away" Erica said.

Mikho nodded. Erica came home. They go back to their own thoughts. Erica who felt that maybe one day would regret refusing Mikho's proposal. While Mikho was grateful because Erica rejected his proposal that did not think long.

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