Love Blocks the Past

CHAPTER 47 ~ Memories ~

The engagement has finished. Although without planning, unexpectedly, Mikho was happy. His hand reflex grabbed something on the wall shelf on his desk. The man was shocked to find nothing he was looking for.

A habit for him, before sitting at the desk, his hand grabbed something on the wall shelf of his room. However, it is not found immediately. Mikho frantically shifted his hand to another position but still did not find.

Mikho sat down and laughed, the more he grew up. Mrs. Anisa was even anxious to hear Mikho's laughter coming downstairs.

"Why Mikho!" exclaim Anisa.

"It's okay Mom!" mikho replied and then laughed again.

Mrs. Anisa shook her head, then returned to her activities. While Mikho switched to staring at his engagement ring with Celine. Pecking the ring many times then looking at him and talking to him.

"Nearly you belong to that nation. It's a good thing you don't want to, but instead, the thing I had for a dozen years just vanished. Because of you, I lost the thing that had accompanied me all along. But it's okay, 'cause I got the truth. Thanks to you, I got the real Evita, who can smile at me, talk to me, return my words, hug me back, return my kiss. Thank you for your loyalty to accompany me. Makes me love you. Oh ... Thank you Oma Celine, for handing her that clip. Thank you for lending me for a dozen years to accompany my grief. Thank you Oma, from now on I will always be happy and always try to make Celine, your granddaughter happy" Mikho said.

Mikho looked down at the ceiling of the room. Smiling at the moment of her engagement. Although his body felt tired, but not felt at all. A day that drains his emotions and energy. But it ended in happiness for him.

Unlike Mikho, Tiara was instead pensive in her room. If a few days ago broke off the engagement only in front of Mikho, today instead announced it in front of everyone. Tiara had to face her own disappointment both families. His family and Mikho's family. Disconnecting suddenly certainly makes both families very surprised.

"Geez Tiara, what are you thinking? Just a step away from the wedding, you decide halfway? What would the Mikhos say? Mommy didn't think. Mommy thinks you're so happy with this engagement" Merry said as she paced back and forth in front of Tiara who was crying as she pleased.

The girl cried as soon as she came home from the hospital. Jumping into his room made his mother who was relaxing in the living room panic. That day, the day on which Tiara broke off her engagement to Mikho. After not being able to bear to see Mikho who lived his days like an undead.

Pensive on the hospital rooftop, staring blankly and unresponsive to Tiara's greeting every day. Since then Tiara felt it was pointless to keep their engagement. It could only have Mikho's body stepping without a soul. With a whimper, Tiara finally cancelled their engagement.

"If you're sad, why take this step? Can't we negotiate anymore? Let's reconnect with this engagement, Tiara. He's very compatible with you, you're a very good doctor couple. Why did you decide to split up? After that cry?" merry asked.

"He doesn't love me Mom" Tiara replied sobbing.

"What's? Then why are you so close? Everywhere together. Laugh together, attend any event together. Why is there such a close relationship between a man and a woman without love?" merry asked in amazement.

"Because I'm not being honest, Mommy" Tiara said.

"What's? Whatchu mean?" ask Merry.

"I pretended to be sad to lose Celine to be with her," Tiara replied.

"What's? What does this have to do with Celine?" ask Merry.

"Mikho loved Celine, since she was in sixth grade, Mommy," Tiara said honestly.

Making Merry flabbergasted, not expecting the girl they had thought of as their own daughter was the girl loved by her dream daughter-in-law. Merry sat down after walking back and forth. Then held his suddenly throbbing head.

"Celine committed suicide because of her blocked love for Mikho" Tiara said.

"Because of Mikho? Why?" asked Merry curiously.

"Celine thought Mikho hated her because of a childhood incident. Though I know, Mikho doesn't hate him for that. Mikho loved him from then on even until now Mikho only loved Celine," explained Tiara.

"That means Mikho tricked you? Accept the engagement but still love another girl?" ask Merry emotions.

"At least Mikho didn't trick me. Mikho never said he had forgotten his love for Celine. Mikho never forgot Celine for a second. I cheated everything, including myself. Feeling that one day Mikho will forget Celine and will love me. Mommy, Mikho never loved me, we were together, because we loved Celine. Mikho was saddened by Celine's departure. I hid behind our longing for Celine. Though I, at least used the departure of Celine to be with Mikho. I'm a fraud, I'm insincere, I sinned Mommy, so Mikho's love never grew on me" Tiara said sobbing.

Mrs. Merry hugged her daughter. Unable to press and force Tiara to change her mind. Mrs. Merry resigned, willing to lose the prospective daughter-in-law who was so proud of him. The lady chose to give up her daughter's decision on appeal to see Tiara suffering from feeling guilty towards her best friend.

Mrs. Merry had not realized, if the prospective daughter-in-law turned out to have a relationship with Celine. The girl he knew and knew his parents. Now Tiara has released Mikho.

Fear looms over her throughout the engagement procession. Afraid that Mikho would suddenly cancel the event on H day. Fearful of Celine suddenly appearing and scolding her as her lover's thief girl. Fear both families judge her as a girl who has the heart for friends. 

However, the procession went well. Nothing is in the way. Tiara fell asleep, feeling the position as a real fiancee. Everything is fake. Engagement without love. Love that only claps one hand. Makes him even more cruel. In front of Mikho always supported the man's love for Celine. Behind him, hoping Celine never comes back, accident, suicide, drowning, getting lost, whatever. Anything that makes that girl never show up again.

Tiara kept the box containing the engagement ring. Then lay down while staring at his plain fingers without a single ring there. Tiara closed her eyes, trying to shake things up. Including a momentary memory, the times of being the fiancee of dr. Mikho. Only then did the girl realize, all those memories were never free from Celine's shadow.

"It's Celine's favorite food" Mikho said.

Tiara nodded, they both ordered the same menu, hodgepodge. The man ate it with great zeal. Whenever they have the opportunity to have lunch together, they look for restaurants that provide hodgepodge menu.

Not a little object if you have to choose the menu every time. I don't know because I want to appreciate Mikho so much. Either because he likes it or indeed for the sake of Celine. It felt comfortable for Tiara.

"This is Celine's favorite song!" yang Tiara stared at the ceiling of the mall.

Stepping leisurely along the mall while flanking Mikho's arm. The man so enjoy the song that is said Tiara as Celine's favorite song. The two of them walked leisurely, enjoying the song without saying anything. Silent, only smiles on their lips, hearing while imagining Celine's face.

"You remember? Once accompanied this song on a guitar when a schoolgirl was sentenced to sing a song at the camp," Tiara said after the song ended.

"Oh, is it true? I forgot, so many songs I've been singing. I forgot to accompany this song," Mikho said with a smile reminiscing about the good times.

"Yes! I immediately saw Celine's expression. She ... smiled. Enchanted with you. I think ... back then she fell in love with you. I'm grateful and hope Celine will be more friendly with you from then on" Tiara explained.

Mikho nodded. Tiara happily recounted memories that could make Mikho happy. Still flanking Mikho's arms, they together enjoy the streets during the practice holiday while remembering Celine.

"Celine prefers this actor, but he's not the main character!" tiara exclaimed as they enjoyed the Tiara collection movies while staying at the girl's house due to her parents being out of town.

"Oh yeah? Why?" ask Mikho.

"Let's know, I think he looks a bit like you," Tiara replied, staring at the Korean-American actor. Mikho's forehead wrinkled, feeling a little astonished.

"Am I that handsome?" ask Mikho not to go around.

The girl laughed with Mikho's insecurities. Making Tiara laugh while staring at the ceiling of her room. The girl returns to her memories of Celine vacationing on the beach.

"Celine likes to vacation at the beach, but most do not like to be invited to bathe at the beach. According to him, the sea water was sticky and too salty," Tiara said with a laugh. Mikho laughed too.

"Who told him to taste the sea?" mikho asked while laughing.

"Eitherway! Where did that idea come from. What was clear at that time was that Celine never wanted to bathe on the beach again," Tiara said with a laugh.

The two of them laughed in memory of Celine's funny with her manner and innocence. Never call a bule and invite the bule to speak to smooth his English. Then covering when the bule asked her out. All those memories Tiara told me made Mikho laugh out loud.

It was only Celine's story that made Mikho feel happy and Tiara had a myriad of funny stories to tell the man. Tiara forgot, the girl was not aware, what she did made Mikho can never be separated from his best friend.

"If you are happy, I will be happy. Although it makes Celine's memories never die in your memories. Stupid me," Tiara said as she closed her eyes.

Tears flowed from both sides of her eyes. Still lying on his back facing the ceiling of his room. Tiara wanted to release the burden of her regret on Celine who had been betrayed by her. To Mikho for trying to reach his love.

"I'm putting everything back in Celine's original position. Because there is no place available for me. May you be happy, the happier you are because there is no past blocking your love" said Tiara Lirih looking back at the ceiling of the room.

Tiara had taken off Mikho and was now trying to have no regrets. Follow trying to be happy for the sake of his two friends even though they do not know how to go ahead. Although her heart felt hollow, lost, but Tiara hoped to see Celine and Mikho happy, she would also be happy because all of that happened because of her sacrifice.

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