Love and My Teachings
Part 86's.
And everything looks so good.... Until the day I found out I had cancer. I think this cancer is a hereditary disease, because my mother also died of this disease.
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...[ ADVANCED POV RAISA ]...
You know Res ? I cried so when Lisa tearfully told me I was positive for end-stage brain cancer. Ask Lisa Res... He even followed her so nagis.. Coming home from the hospital, I was crying in the middle of Res... No one walks on pedestrian sidewalks, no two-wheelers or four-wheelers pass by. Only heavy rain will I Res... I protested so much while looking back !
Why should I ? of all the people who live on earth, why should I.? Why must I suffer, after passing through many streets full of bushes with thorns ? Why do I have this disease, when I am near the happiness of living with Resa ? WHY ?? WHY ?? WHY ????
It took me two days and two nights to calm my mind! Until I got the idea, to carve out happiness with Dad, Silvia, and you. Even I ordered a photographer to capture the moment with all of you through photos.
If I die later, you can take a picture of Me as a memory and strength to live and smile. I really think that living happily with you is just a fairy tale to me. Whenever, fairy tales are fairy tales.. Therefore, I had the idea to write this Diary.
Because I know, Res... You must be in the confused phase, brother ? You must be questioning the same thing or even the same thing. Do I love you or not ? Did I give you the green light for wanting to be happy in the little time left, to replace Andre who never gave me affection ? And many similar questions....
Okay I'll answer all that Res... Your thinking is a big mistake Res.. I really love you... Dear, I'm aware of how I feel about you, at the wrong time.. Until here you understand, right ? My explanation is very satisfying, right ? Ress.. You can sleep quietly without feeling restless again, you can already smile as sincerely as he is now, nothing can make you become thought again. Especially me and Andre.
That's all Ress.. Sorry, I'm too mean and heartless to you. My apology will not be enough to heal the wounds I have caused... Res... I love You's... I Love You So Much... Either I still have time or I don't say this word to you later. I hope I still have a chance to say it.. If not, read and smile as wide as he reads my love statement Res. Promise me, can't cry ☺...
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"....... " Resa was confused after reading Raisa's writing from sheet to sheet. There was no specific reaction Resa caused, only... Resa's eyes began to emit a lot of clear circles.
"Sa... If you tell me to smile after reading this Diary of Mu, isn't that a difficult request ? How can I smile when I know the reality, huh ? Uggh... You are a cold-hearted woman Sa... " Rengek Resa then slowly the land began to close his eyeballs.
" I'm sure you're gonna make Sa.. After that, I'll make you one of the happiest women in the world.. " Resa muttered and a few seconds later, Resa immediately fell asleep in her sleep.
It didn't take long, Resa was immediately in her dreamland. As if the heaviest burden of the mind had been completely released from Resa, Resa felt able to sleep without having to continue thinking about something that could cause his brain to dream nightmares.
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And then, the day kept changing.. Monday moves to Tuesday and meets Sunday.. Then again spinning like a motorcycle tire. The same thing happens in months, years, seconds, minutes, and hours. Nothing can stop the most important component in the world, only to continue to accept new things that happen in every second that will come and be missed.
...[ Three months later ]...
Three months had already passed just like that, with no change at all ! No change ? Well, because Resa still does not point to any reaction. He didn't have seizure seizures, his brain didn't have thinking paralysis, and other symptoms were feared. It is like a person who is sleeping well.
Indeed there are still some tools attached to Raisa's body, but not as much as the time completed in surgery. Now there is only a monitor screen that shows a heart rate chart, an infusion hose stuck in the left hand, and O² that is still attached to Raisa's nose.
Only three tools, it is not her curse Raisa to continue living like this, but with the reduction of medical devices stuck in Raisa's body, indicates that Raisa is approaching the word healed and will be awakened, right ? In amin...
Surya, Silvia, Lisa, Erna, Dika, along with Selvi spent their time during this one month in just two places. In the hospital and in the villa to sleep. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, in the hospital cafeteria. In addition to Silvia who if. can not stand it anymore, directly order spicy and sweet foods in large quantities, and eat together at the hospital cafeteria table. What irony it is.
While Risa spent her time in three places ! Hospitals, Villas, and the last branch office of the Aditya family in the Netherlands. Not her want to take over the responsibilities that have been given to Resa, but Risa tries to help Resa who is being overwhelmed in dealing with office problems one month ago.
