Love and My Teachings
#part 156.
After finishing serving dinner for everyone, the four of them would immediately eat the dishes that had been heated before by Resa, Raisa, and also Noa.
Either because it was too tired or felt the anxiety that had hit the four of them since last day, dinner was going on very calmly and without the usual commotion and excitement.
Surya himself, Resa, Raisa, Noa and Silvia. The four of them ate at the table, just to appreciate each other. Each of them just drowned into their daydreams, with hands that did not stop moving while putting rice and friends.
Maybe this situation is strange, because it is. But it is natural, because now they are just
wanting happiness should even be hit by problems that are no less big than
before her.
Either tomorrow the sun rises from nowhere, but tomorrow Resa and others must be ready to spend all their capabilities to solve the problem this time.
***
The next morning, at four in the morning...
Surya had woken up from his sleep. The habit of his life to wake up in the early hours to be able to complete homework, make his body become accustomed, so that no matter how small Surya, He will still wake up.
“Air..” Solar monologue, and head straight to the kitchen.
After pouring water into the glass, and drinking it until it runs out, Surya moved back to the second floor. Because as he remembered, last night the porch lights on the second floor had been turned off. But when he looked, the lights were still on.
Which means there's someone who turned on that light, right ?
Surya also walked as slow as possible, afraid to wake up children who are still sleeping in his house today.
As Surya got closer, Surya knew who was standing on the second floor terrace, with an iron fence as a place to put his hands.
Feeling that someone was approaching, making the person who was standing behind Surya instantly turn his gaze towards him
Solar.
“Eh, Om Surya... Wake up ?” His greeting as neat as possible, because he did not want to start a meeting that was quite awkward.
When he got the greeting, Surya just smiled a little with eyes that showed that he was quite kanget with what He saw.
But as fast as lightning, Surya stabilized his expression, and began to open the conversation.
“You haven't slept at all right Sil ?” Ask Surya to the point, while looking at the home damming residents from the second floor, which inexplicably vibes bring calm at four in the morning today.
“Emm.. As hard as Silvia tried, Silvia still could not close her eyes to rest. What should Silvia buy sleeping pills ?”
Silvia did not want to play the role of an innocent child in front of Surya anymore. Moreover, Surya already knows everything, so if Silvia continues to explain the role of an innocent child, it will look very embarrassing and hypocritical, right ?
“Do you think Resa and the others will allow you ? Especially with the statement of the Doctor who told You to stop taking sleeping pills, because You have entered into a phase that can endanger health, so you think You can buy sleeping pills again ?”
“So yaah..”
Silvia only answered briefly with a smile. It made Surya realize, that Silvia did not want to talk long again. In other words, what Silvia needs right now is skeening, or at least sleeping pills.
“You never thought that your way of life would be like this, did you ? There is a sense of regret, and many words *If only*, *If only*, *Should*, and the like that comes to your mind right ?”
Surya opened a serious conversation. Or according to Surya, He will enter into the advising phase. Because Surya is not his name, if his self follows the will of Silvia, who wants solitude, when his mind is filled with many things.
“....” Silvia simply kept silent and looked at Surya with her tired gaze.
Surya knew very well that Silvia was waiting for Surya's next words.
“If you think so, then there is nothing wrong with you. It indicates that you are a normal human being, the same human as the person you used to meet Silvia.”
“Then ? Is it just by considering myself the same as everyone else, then my problem will be solved ?”
Silvia asked with eyes that were either flushed with soy sauce or were holding back tears, at its core He needs an answer that at least can make Himself aware of the world full of its own scenario.
“Of course not. Is not the answer clear ? Om just tells you to assume that you are the same as the people out there, who need rest, eat, cry, angry, confused, and as her. Not telling you to consider yourself the most despicable, and feel that indeed this contemptible Self of Yours, deserves to get into trouble at the end of its tree.”
“....” Again, there was no reply from Silvia. And it makes Surya no intention to turn and do contact eye with Silvia.
“You just have to believe that you are not alone right now. There are many people who are genuinely sincere and willing to sacrifice anything for your sake. If indeed this problem You already believe exceeds Your ability, you should not share Your problems with others, so that Your problems feel in accordance with Your abilities ?”
“....” Silvia answered nothing more. But one thing is certain, Surya saw for himself that Silvia seemed to have just awakened. This is evidenced by the Silvia netra that is patterned.
“If in the future, you encounter a bigger problem than now, just believe one thing. That you are indeed that strong, so that the problems that come as if you can not face. Have you forgotten some of the motivational words that often circulate on the internet ? The higher and larger a tree, the stronger the wind. For now and in the future, You will indeed feel yourself that You are weak.”.
Surya took a quick glance at Silvia, then again saw the scene before him, which began to witness the disruption of color in the sky.
“...But are you really weak ? You are not as lucky as others, but aren't others not necessarily as strong as you ? Come Silvia, if you are indeed weak, you currently hold the title of Almarhumah. The evidence isn't it, is it ? You just need to tell more stories, ask for help when you can't solve a problem that you've overcome as much as possible. That's enough, right ? Awww.. There are a lot of mosquitoes. Because of health, Om enter first. If you feel overwhelmed, go in and
get rested. Om will wake you up at lunch. “
After saying a sentence that was quite long, Surya also left Silvia.
“... Substantial... Am I not weak ? If so, why am I crying just because of a few words from Om Surya ? Uggh... Again I lose strongly if faced with Om Surya and Brother Raisa... True true fruit fell not far from his tree.”
Although Silvia's tears just fell, but a sincere smile appeared on her face.
“Seperti his I'll have a wonderful dream this time.” Say it while walking with legs that look very limp.
When she arrived at the kamat that Silvia had used when she fainted yesterday, Silvia was right to pat straight away. At
estimate that Surya's words are true. That Silvia will be aware of
daytime. Because all of his limbs were already screaming in exhaustion.
***
At 04:30 in the morning...
Surya was washing dishes accompanied by his son. One of his children, who are always treated like the Princess.
“Who taught you to eavesdrop Sa?” Surya asked with her hands rubbing the plate with a sponge.
“Mr... There is no tuh... “ Raisa answered with deft hands drying dishes that she had just splashed.
“Then, what did you do just now huh ?!” Surya started to frown. If faced with Raisa, whatever her age, Raisa will continue to make her father dizzy because of her unthinkable actions.
“You Nanyea ? Daddy tanyea ?”
“....”
Ah, Surya really cannot say another word if faced with the Princess. Other people, the more mature the better, but like her it does not apply to Raisa who in fact does not want to lose in the oral debate.
