Love and My Teachings
Part 136's.
Silvia was clear on her initial explanation.
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"Then it makes me have the least chance of dating or anything of the sort. At that time because Kak Resa was very close to Kak Noa, Kak Resa often invited Kak Noa to the house and played games together, doing tasks and others. Indeed the beginning I strongly object or close myself, will avoid if you know Kak Resa will go home with Noa. But over time, I unconsciously felt comfortable with the gaze of the eyes emitted by Kak Noa, from her smile, from her, and his attitude seems stupid because it could-cannya He was fooled by Kak Resa who always pranks him at all times. Not until there, Brother Noa looks very cool and in accordance with the man I often see in the drakor I used to watch. Even then I thought because I was a kid, I ignored that thing that made my heartbeat abnormal. But the more I came here, the more I realized that, I... Have fallen in love with Him, on Brother Noa !"
Said Silvia while turning her eyes in the other direction, because Silvia knew that the response from Resa and Raisa would seem very shocked to hear this statement. Although Resa and Raisa had suspected that this might happen, they still could not accept the fact that the reality came out of Silvia's mouth, The sister they had thought of all this time was very innocent.
"And whether this is a gift or an accident, "Silvia continues to explain. " But I know for a fact that Sis Resa and Kak Noa are both fighting for the one woman you seem to love. That woman is Raisa's sister. " Silvia clearly looked at Raisa.
Silvia still showed a smile to Raisa, then continued to speak "I can not comment anything, but it hurts yes of course I feel pain. It was as if I was so claustrophobic, to just breathe I found it hard. I was like a stupid boy, who was just starting to learn how to breathe."
"Every time I see Brother Noa giving a different treatment to Raisa and to myself, it's really something that erodes my patience. Once several times the envy almost controlled me and made me want to attack Raisa, but thank God because the logic still lingers in my mind, so that I can only hold myself back with all my might! "
"Once in a while I try to find a new person, or a new man who can take the place of the position filled by Noa's presence. But back to the beginning, I was afraid to socialize. I even laughed at myself, for coming up with an idea like this. Then I found a way, a way that I could put myself, and realized that I was only Silvia Aditya among you. I decided myself, that here I was just as a spectator. I'm just a person who sees and knows everything that's going on between Sister Resa, Brother Raisa, and Brother Noa. This makes Me strong, but still cannot cover that I am running away from reality."
Resa and Raisa feel that they are failing and do not deserve to be a sister. Not for nothing but, where were they when Silvia felt cornered like that ? They feel that they are less sensitive, they are too concerned about their own world. Forgetting the responsibility they have to take.
If only they thought about the condition and existence of Silvia, Resa and Raisa would have preferred to hang out at the cafe or in other places with Noa and not have to bring Noa into the house, where that has become his one-on-one nest and the safest place for Silvia.
According to Resa and Raisa, currently they are less wise. Those who do not take into account the situation, it could be their fault. Either because of their immature age, or because they are also in their teens, who are happy in enjoying whatever happens between the struggles of romance, and the stronger the friendship.
"Then when I found out that Raisa's sister confidently and stubbornly wanted to marry andre, I wasn't they happy or happy because Raisa's sister would suffer. It is precisely I am suffering even more because Raisa Brother hangs two men at once. I felt that Raisa's sister was too selfish back then, I felt that if Raisa's sister didn't like Noa, at least Raisa's sister chose Resa ! Hasn't it always been there when Raisa's sister is crying and happy is Kak resa ?? Why did Raisa choose the bastard who already loved the woman named Fitri? Then I was sadder and when I found out that Kak Noa had chosen to continue S2 in the Netherlands.
"Ah... Like her I'm not explaining but I'm confiding. Okay okay, when I was 17, by then Raisa was married to andre. But Raisa's sister still coming to my birthday, because Raisa's sister loves me. This is where the beginning of the error or unintentionality, which makes Me who in a state of not being able to accept how the world works, forced to become a woman who is no longer holy ! "
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Resa and Raisa were immediately shocked, because from that moment their focus was not going anywhere, so they could know and could quickly digest every word that was thrown by Silvia. Therefore, the word is not holy anymore, making Resa and Raisa inevitably have to think in that direction. Towards a conversation like his will be more vulgar.
"Yes ... That night, the night we had a party on my 17th birthday, the night I was in my adulthood, and so the night that I should be happier than her usual day, Me and Brother Noa did just that. Me and Brother Noa have sex, like someone who has officially become a married couple. At that moment, everything was completely chaotic and uncontrollable. Even that night I could not control myself, who at the beginning had promised to be a spectator. and will never take on the role of Side character or the role of a figurehead in her."
