Last Hope

Episode 38's

"*Let's go home." Ayumi nodded between Derick and Keiko and then walked past the three people who looked at her with their thoughts on Ayumi's decision.

Kenji himself immediately chased Ayumi who walked in front of him and intended to make sure that Ayumi really went home. Their home*.

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Kenji opens the door of his house and Ayumi follows him from behind, not saying much, Ayumi immediately goes to the warehouse that has been his room for seven years, leaving behind Kenji who returned could only see Ayumi without speaking anything.

Ayumi was a little afraid to enter her room, because there, in the warehouse which was her room had become a witness where Ayumi and the baby spent time together, a time where Ayumi felt very nauseous, and she was very sick, the time when the baby kicked and the time when Ayumi told me a lot about the day she lived and how Kenji was kinder to her. Ayumi is initially reluctant to enter the warehouse, but she has no other choice because the only place she can occupy is the old warehouse.

Ayumi then slowly opened her warehouse door and instantly her shadow while pregnant continued to scatter in her mind, yelling out as if asking Ayumi not to forget it.

His heart then turned to look at one small closet that he knew was the contents of clothes, shoes and some warm socks that he deliberately prepared for his future baby later. Ayumi slowly approached the closet and squatted down to open the closet containing the clothes of her future baby first.

Her eyes heat up as she picks up a pair of sweatshirts complete with her blue suit with a picture of a deer in her hand, Ayumi imagines how her son would look like if he wore that suit, then she took a knee-length blue dress like Snow white and imagined if her daughter was wearing the dress.

At the moment Ayumi was enduring the immense pain she felt every time she exhaled, she then tightly hugged the clothes she prepared. "Sorry son. Forgive eomma son. Eomma would love to see you guys grow up and wear the clothes I've prepared, sorry son. Forgive eomma. Eomma loves you very much."

Ayumi bit hard on her lower lip, holding a cry that seemed powerless she could bear again. She then fell asleep still tightly hugging the suit and dress that she deliberately chose for her future baby later "Yes God. Please give me back my son. Give me back my son arghhhhhh." Ayumi again bit her lips hard to bleed and soon fell asleep because she was too tired and hoped that everything she experienced would end soon.

Kenji who deliberately took drinking water in the kitchen, hearing all the screams of Ayumi, he could only close his eyes to hear every groan Ayumi sounded very desperate without knowing what to do.

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Ayumi woke up in the middle of the night, feeling her head hurt and she was very thirsty, but she frowned in confusion because she knew full well she was waking up not in the warehouse where she used to sleep. He wakes up in the room he knows the guest room. The room that always makes him beaten by Kenji for accidentally falling asleep there.

Not wanting to make Kenji angry again, Ayumi slowly woke up from her sleep and frowned when she saw herself wearing the pajamas that she guessed belonged to Kenji, because Kenji's scent was very smelled from the pajamas. Ayumi gets confused and decides to look for Kenji and ask Kenji.

But arriving at Kenji's study, Ayumi seemed hesitant to ask because it seemed Kenji was in a hurry to leave, he turned around and intended to go to the warehouse until Kenji's distinctive voice interrupted him.

"Where are you going?" kenji asked Ayumi who was approaching the warehouse.

Ayumi turned around in fear and looked at Kenji who was looking at her sharply "Back in my room." The reply told Kenji.

"Your room is there now. No need to sleep in the barn. Besides I've dumped your stuff in the barn, it looks useless."

Ayumi looked wide with Kenji's words and hurried to look at the warehouse that was indeed empty nothing was left. Ayumi felt very hurt and Kenji always treated her things as she pleased.

"Why are you throwing away my stuff. Why are you throwing away memories of my son." He said he screamed at Kenji and for the first time dared to beat Kenji's body which certainly did not hurt at all.

"Why did you see that stuff again? You'll only think of the child who will never be born." Kenji's growl clutched Ayumi's wrist tightly.

'HE'S MY SON KENJIIAAA" Ayumi screamed back at Kenji's shirt tightly.

"HE'S DEAD, YOU'RE NOT MAKING THINGS BETTER." Kenji also yells at trying to tell Ayumi that she doesn't expect her son to come back to life, because that's totally impossible.

Ayumi is taken aback by Kenji's remarks, she knows Kenji hates her, but Kenji says of their son who just left forever, make Ayumi more convinced that Kenji does not want the presence of a child for her.

Ayumi laughed bitterly and fell to embrace Kenji's feet"Yes right, my son is dead." He said he was sobbing his own chest.

"In that case, wouldn't it be better for both of us if I were to die as well? I beg you to kill me Kenjiaa, I can't stand it." He said he looked up at Kenji sobbing. "Kill me Kenjia, make me meet your father and mother and our son. I want to be happy." He said a little scream hugging Kenji's leg tightly.

Kenji does not know how much Ayumi wants to end her life, he does not know that all Ayumi wants is something that can make her have a reason to survive, and Kenji is definitely not the thing that can make Ayumi stay because he is the strongest reason why Ayumi wants to end her life.

Kenji trembled, but not out of anger that he was a little afraid that in the end this woman who begged to die under him was really gone forever from her life, Kenji should have crouched down to embrace Ayumi and comforted his wife, he should have said comforting words instead of words that further frustrated Ayumi. But all the obligations that Kenji was supposed to do was again restrained by Kenji, he still refused if in the end he returned to having feelings for Ayumi.

Kenji crouched down in front of Ayumi and held his chin a little rough "I'll kill you when the time is right. Now you can't beg to be killed, because the more you ask, the more I will ignore it. Youunderstand?" snapping Kenji made Ayumi look back at Kenji with a scared look.

"Maybe I'll grant your wish to die sooner when I get home later, now I have to take care of both******* that have been caught again."

Kenji's question made Ayumi wonder, but as if she could read Ayumi's mind, Kenji smiled disdainfully and again held Ayumi's chin "Your parents have been arrested, they will soon be given a heavier sentence. But I want to talk to them. There are a lot of things I have to ask them, including whether you're involved with their escape or not." He said growling furiously to tell Ayumi.

Kenji is always very emotional if the names of the two Ayumi parents are mentioned, he feels like he wants to kill the two people with his own hands every time they look at each other. But this time, Kenji wanted to make sure for himself that the punishment Ayumi's parents received was many times heavier and there was no possibility of even being released.

"I didn't help them Kenjiaaa." He said tell Kenji who doesn't believe in everything he says.

"May your words be right. Because if it's true you're involved, I swear you'll regret it." His muttering slightly gripped Ayumi's chin violently made Ayumi slightly grimace in pain.

"I'm leaving. Don't mess around while I'm gone" he reminded Ayumi and waltzed away leaving Ayumi who was still sitting on the floor.

"When Kenjiaaa?"

"When are you gonna love me again?" lirih Ayumi fell asleep on the floor and clasped herself tightly, she felt lonely.. but she knows that nothing can comfort her anymore because once again Ayumi feels hopeless that Kenji will love her again and become her Kenji. "I love you." His mutter noticed Kenji who kept away and never came back for him again.

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