It's like saying "I Miss You"
There can't be "She" anymore
His brain kept turning and thinking hard. Already several months Nada no longer remembers about Pandu. He was too busy with work. He recalled the terrible events that had traumatized his heart to restart a relationship. He just walked slowly without direction.
That afternoon, Pandu and Nada's relationship was in a long distance. Tone working out of town that makes them have to meet two weeks or even once a month. At that time Nada believed that Pandu would always love him no matter what. That was one of the stupidities he regretted the most. Suddenly Pandu sends a short message that their relationship must end because both parents told them to end it. His reason? because Nada's parents do not approve of the relationship between the two.
Though this problem had even been resolved a few months before, but why did it reappear? At that time Nada was just wondering in her heart. He thought if he would be fine even without Pandu beside him. Yeah, correct. Tone remained fine until Pandu posted a profile photo on his social media one week after they broke up. A picture of a smiling woman. Of course it's not Nada.
In an instant the questions that alternated over the previous week were answered already. Guide cheating while still together with Nada. That one sentence was able to answer everything that had actually been a sign before. All the anxieties, worries, and suspicions Nada answered already. As if he had received a powerful burst of fire, his heart was no longer in shape.
What was Nada's fault until Pandu had to do all this to her? What has he done? Has he been busy working and ignoring Pandu? Was the struggle so far not worth enough until everything had to end like this? Is he not worthy enough to accompany Pandu? The question further pierced his already bleeding heart. Slicing until it no longer has a shape.
One month after the break up, Pandu suddenly contacted Nada. Saying everything that happened to Nada. Explain how Pandu and the woman named Sasti can meet. Nada's palm seemed to want to slam the phone. How could she possibly tell her love story with that seductive woman in front of Nada? Where was his brain at the time? Tone is just trying to stay calm. It was as if he was facing all of this. All he had in mind at that time was how to end that phone connection.
Her tears accidentally dripped. Didn't he promise not to cry anymore for Pandu? Unknowingly he had arrived in front of the hotel where Maria worked. He took it all out again and again. It hurts everything related to Pandu. But why is it so hard to forget all those painful things? A few times Nada wiped her tears, but a few moments later came back dripping.
Tone took the phone and wrote a short message to Maria. The message said he was across from the hotel lobby. No need to wait long, Maria immediately came to Nada who was sitting on a bench on the side of the road. At the moment Nada does not want to be alone. His best friend Cecyl is returning home. Maria is the only support at the moment.
“You why are here? Did something happen?” Maria asked as soon as she saw Nada sitting with both eyes puffy.
The tone is silent. Doubtful what to say about that long-ago thing? He just bowed. On the one hand he did not want to tell Mary the events of today, but on the other hand he did not want to keep her alone.
“Say. What brings you here? Something must have happened, right?”
“I just met Dad Pandu. He invited me to meet. He apologized again for the incident. Then he also told about the news Pandu and the woman.” said Nada with a voice that almost trembled.
“The old man said such a thing to you? He and his son have no brains, right? How can you tell such a thing in front of you?” mary began to get angry. During this time the Pandu family did not only appear this time. Previously had appeared several times and acted as if nothing had happened.Their appearance always brought sadness to Nada. That's why Maria always nagged when she found out that the family was contacting Nada again.
“I'm fine, really. I'm doing fine. You don't have to worry.” said Nada forced to smile.
During this time Nada tried hard to forget everything about Pandu. He was several times close to men but then hesitated again because he suddenly remembered about the past. The trauma had unknowingly taken control of Nada's heart and mind. He was afraid to start a new relationship. All of those struggles were witnessed by Maria and Cecyl. But now Mary's emotions again peaked when she saw Nada crying again after a long time no longer seen crying Pandu.
“What's okay? Your eyes got so swollen. You must have cried on the way here. Why do you have to see that family again?”
Nada only looked down regretting her decision. If time could have been turned a few hours ago, he would have chosen not to see his Dad Pandu.
Her tears started to fall again. This time Mary hugged him tightly. The tone that usually looks strong and cheerful will immediately become fragile and helpless every time faced with everything related to Pandu. Tone no longer cared, he cried releasing everything in Mary's arms. The pain she was free to flow with tears. Hopefully after this he can come back cheerful again without any burden.
The phone suddenly sounded. He glanced at the screen of his phone. His facial expression turned irritated when he saw the name on the screen. “What else now?!” yells at an unconnected phone.
“Where are you? I have something to ask you about this month's report. Can we meet next to Hotel Marine in 20 minutes?” said a man from across the phone.
Tone wiped the remaining tears that were still on his face. “Good, Sir. I will be there in 20 minutes.” replied Nada in a calm voice. Phone connection disconnected.
Tone let out a long and deep breath. “Thank you for bothering to follow here. I'm fine now.”
“Director who will be an investor of import.”export project Answered Original tone. “We will meet at the cafe next to the hotel to discuss work.” Tone rose from his seat and wiped away the remaining tears on his cheeks.
“You sure it's okay?” Maria asked a little worried about Nada's mental state. “You're still going home, right?”
Tone looked at Maria. He remembered what happened a few years ago. At that time Nada got a call from Pandu. A phone that Nada never wanted. Pandu says that he still loves Nada very much and does not know what else to do. Tone's heart as if crushed hearing that, he cried all night. He did not even go back to the room at all. Maria was very worried and continued to look for him even down the road. Maria finds Nada lying limp in the airport lobby.
In a panic, Maria immediately took Nada to the hospital. When she regained consciousness, Nada said she wanted to go abroad. He wants to go somewhere where he no longer needs to find a man named Pandu. His heart was really very broken, plus the love word from Pandu that made Nada almost lose her sane side.
“I'm definitely home. You take it easy.” replied Nada with a smile.he never thought the slightest will repeat that stupid thing again. For him the world will not end without Pandu. He would be happier without this man.
*******
A cup of coffee always accompanies the afternoon Dewanto who never had the word holiday. Even though it was Sunday, he met with a client. Instead of chatting while enjoying the day off, their conversation did not escape the business that was being run. This time a client from the stock exchange who has helped a lot in guiding Dewanto choose stocks that have quite good potential.
“The stock you chose shows a very good development. Your eyes are very skilled in business. No wonder if you become a director at this young age.” said the man estimated to be 40-45 years old.
Dewanto just smiled while sipping coffee that he ordered from the Marine Hotel lobby. “That's all thanks to your guidance too. Without you I couldn't possibly have had the knowledge to pick a stock that had the potential.”
The man laughed with satisfaction at Dewanto's praise for him. “I heard you intend to invest in the company of aluminum? What made you interested in choosing this project? The company even showed an increase in the last two years.”
Dewanto smiled wryly as he put down the cup that was half-full. “At first I was only interested in the financial statements presented and the analysis. But when I visited there and saw the real terrain, I was optimistic if the company could be more bolted again.”
“I believe if your eyes can't be wrong in choosing.” The man laughed in satisfaction as if he had won the lottery.
Dewanto just smiled as he looked towards the window on the right where he was sitting. The day does not feel too hot, it even tends to be a little cloudy. Is it going to rain? His eyes were focused on the opposite side of the hotel where he saw a girl walking by her arms and then sitting with the origin without caring about her surroundings. The girl was not focused. His eyes were silent, his mind flying in all directions.
The girl looked up at the sky. It was as if he could communicate with the sky. A few moments later the girl wiped her eyes. Could he be crying? Dewanto almost reflexively stood up from his seat. Another girl approached the crying girl. He's wearing a Marine Hotel uniform. Dewanto stared at the two girls from a distance. What are they talking about? Aboutwhat? Why is he so curious about the girl?
He picked up a cell phone lying next to the table. Within seconds, he was already connected with an outgoing call. “Where are you? I have something to ask you about this month's report. Can we meet next to Hotel Marine in 20 minutes?”
He glanced back at the window. The girl rubbed back her eyes then took a deep breath. “Good, Sir. I'll be there in 20 minutes.”
Phone connection disconnected. Dewanto looked back at the two girls from a distance. The crying girl seemed to try to stand up and force her smile. The other girl looked very worried.
“I just remembered having to meet someone next door. It doesn't matter if I stay, does it?”said Dewanto while cleaning up some of the items on the dining table.
“No problem. Fight him.” said the man while winking one eye.
Dewanto smiled mysteriously at his co-worker and rushed out to the cafe next to the Marine hotel.
