It's like saying "I Miss You"

The neglected step

Tada's car stopped at his boarding parking lot. He was silent for a moment as he stared at the ring that was coiled on his ring finger. Since when did he buy this ring? He had just received a proposal from Dewanto. Wondering in your heart what was the right decision? Or is this just an escape and a hideout for him? If in the past when Nada was sad, Pandu was happy with Sasti. But now, it was as if the earth was spinning. Karma is working on his duty.

Tone snatched the tote bag and opened the car door. It seems like a long time ago he did not return to the room. The tone goes with the lunglai. The words of the divorce court still ring in his ears. Why was there a sense of relief in his heart? Doesn't he not care about Pandu anymore? His steps were stifled and his face was tangled and dirty.

He opened the door and just walked in. Take off your shoes and throw your tote bag on the sofa. His body was no longer able to make time to cleanse itself. Too much is happening today. He could not have been able to think again.

Cellphone's ringing. He looked for where the ringing sound was. The tone groaned as he had to lift his body in order to pick up the phone that rang. He looked at the foreign number on the phone screen.

"Yes?"

"Tone?"

His heart stopped for a moment. His gaze was faint for a moment. A glimpse of a person's face flashed through his mind. He waited for the next words from the caller. His eyes began to glaze over. He doesn't want to believe what he thinks. His head seemed to be spinning. He could no longer afford to think hard about it.

“It's me, Pandu. Have you slept?” the voice of the Scouts on the phone sounded like it was shaking. Either because of a throat disorder or something else.

Nada let out a long sigh.trying to endure her headache. After all this time, why did he still recognize the voice of Pandu? Is that how much he loves Pandu? His hands were trembling while still holding his phone. Why does Pandu still keep his mobile number?

“Not yet. What's looking for me?”

“I just want to hear your voice. It suddenly happened that way. Sorry if I interrupted.” Pandu said across the phone. Tomorrow's divorce has her reminiscing about everything that's happened. No exception about Nada. “how did you do today? Is it smooth?”

Tone stared at the ceiling of his room. He knew Pandu not yesterday afternoon. He is very aware of the current condition of Pandu. He needs someone to talk to. Someone who wants to hear all his complaints without patronizing or advising. Pandu is a stubborn man. Nada had even realized that.

“You....what problem is there?” Tanya Nada finally chose to give up her ears to hear Pandu's complaint. Although to do that, he had to sacrifice his heart bleeding again for the umpteenth time.

Pandu. For the umpteenth time he realized that Nada was the only woman who truly understood him. Even after a long time without seeing each other, he still remembered his habits. “Where did you know......”.

“I didn't know you yesterday afternoon. We were together for a short time. You're thinking a lot. Really it?” said Nada trying to guess but of course not the origin of guessing. He knows the nature of Pandu.

“I'm sorry. I should know who really understands me. I should choose a woman who is always there whenever and whatever my circumstances.I'm sorry I made you like this. I really regret everything that happened in the past. If I had chosen you from the beginning, I would have never experienced anything like this. This is really the thing I've been most afraid of.”

Eyelids Tone as if burning. His head was still spinning from thinking too much today. However, his tears continued to flow without him noticing. His cheeks were so wet from tears. Why would God bring them together if they would only be separated? Why would God bring them back together if there was never any hope for them to be united? Even the answer they never found.

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For the sake of his sister's divorce hearing, Dewanto willingly took leave and postponed some meetings with shareholders. Inside the deepest heart is experiencing inner contradiction. On the one hand, he supported this divorce for the happiness of his only sister. But on the other hand, he was afraid that this divorce would be the opening path for Pandu to return to Nada. Which choice should he make?

Dewanto looked at his sister's face that looked paler with both eyes puffy. Sure oes. This is not his choice. Sasti never wanted a divorce with Pandu even though it was as bad as the condition of his household. But there are times when divorce is the best way for both parties to find peace.

“It's okay. You must be strong to face all this. You will definitely get your own happiness even without Pandu. There is still mom, dad and I who always support you. You are never alone, Sasti.” said Dewanto, clasping tightly to Sasti's palm, which began to tremble.

Sasti's tears are flowing. All this time she was just a woman who tried hard to face a selfish husband and a bland marriage. He never thought if the marriage he had built almost five years finally ended in this place. What's wrong with him? What made Pandu then change his attitude to her? That's never even been said by Pandu. Then how does he improve his attitude if he does not know where the mistake was made?

The trial will begin in fifteen minutes. But he hasn't even seen Pandu in the room. Dewanto chose to exit the room looking for fresh air while waiting for the man. Suddenly he remembered Nada's request that Dewanto do everything possible to maintain their marriage. But in what way?

Mata Dewanto managed to capture the main star figure in this trial. Pandu looks a little bit paler. Could it be lack of sleep? Dewanto walked up to his sister-in-law who might not be his sister-in-law anymore. He must negotiate or this divorce goes smoothly.

“I have a request for you.” said Dewanto without further ado because the time available is only a little.

“Tell me. I consider it the last request from my brother-in-law.” said Pandu felt a little annoyed every time considering that Dewanto is Nada's girlfriend.

“Remove this divorce suit. Sasti loves you very much. Don't you know that at all? think back to your marriage. Isn't divorce the thing you least want to hear? Then why are you experiencing it now?”

Pandu. He did not expect that Dewanto would ask to withdraw the divorce lawsuit. But the decision is unanimous. He had thought about this for a long time. He was no longer able to overcome the stubborn and dictatorial nature of Sasti. What made Dewanto willingly plead like this to the sister-in-law he hated? Pandu stared at Dewanto's fingers. His gaze focused on the ring that was circular on the middle finger.

“The ring......” said Pandu is still focused on the ring.

“Oh...yesterday night Nada received my application. I'll propose to him officially next week. That's why I don't want to be happy over my sister's grief. Give him a chance once again to build a household again.” This time Dewanto really pleaded with Pandu.

Pandu's mood immediately fell apart when he heard Nada received Dewanto's proposal. There was a sense of anger and annoyance that came out of nowhere. He did not like the news. Absolutely not make it able to say “Congratulations.”

Pandu walked into the courtroom without regard to Dewanto's plea. His footsteps stepped steadily without the slightest hesitation to undergo a divorce trial. Pandu chose to ignore Dewanto and quickly retake Nada.