It's like saying "I Miss You"
Flakes of the past
Time has shown at 10 am. But Nada was still motionless on her bed. Sunday is a fun time to pamper the body, unite with the gravity of the mattress, and restore the condition of blackened eye bags for one week. His cost-one partner –Maria- who works in the service department should stay in despite Sunday.
Actually today he was asked by his mother to go home, but because of his body is too tired, he chose to keep a break at the boarding house. In the boarding house they live there are several empty rooms that have been occupied several times, but a few days yesterday the occupants came out because the period of his employment contract is up.
The old occupant of the boarding house was Maria. Now the boarding house is only inhabited by Maria and Nada. It feels like a home of its own. Of course the issue of cleanliness of the boarding house is left entirely to the two of them. I only checked a few times and fully believed in Maria and Nada.
Actually, Nada and her parents are in one city. But during his time at home, Nada became a lazy figure and relied on his mother. He really doesn't like that. Therefore, Nada decided to stay at the boarding house to study independently and take responsibility for himself.
Mobile phone Tone singing. A name appeared that passed on the screen of the phone. Nada's eyes were still closed when he received the incoming call. Who would dare to disturb the calmness of this rare Sunday?
“Halo?” Sapa Nada still with her eyes closed.
“Nak, are you still sleeping? It's papa. Does papa bother you?” said a man from across the phone. It takes time for Nada to remember whose voice.
With a heavy head he opened his eyes with great difficulty and glanced at the name on his phone. He woke up after seeing the name on his phone. “Not really Pa. What's up?”
“Gini son, Papa Just want to see you. You are busy today, aren't you?”
The drowsiness of the daritadi Nada dominates now seems to vanish without a trace. His heart was beating irregularly. he did not know what reason made the man - whom he had called Papa - invite to meet. “No. Where you going to meet, Pa?”
“Let's send location huh? Lunch time only yes.” said Papa then hung up the phone.
Even Nada's palm still shook after receiving the call. His teeth unconsciously bit his own lips. Slowly he managed his breathing well after not breathing for a few seconds. His feelings are mixed. For what reason did the man come again in the life of Nada?
With a lazy movement, he picked up the towel hanging and chose the clothes to wear. Subconsciously he chose the best clothes and tried it in front of the mirror. “For what does she look beautiful? No !! He just has to appear as good as possible.” murmured in his heart while smiling cunningly in front of the mirror.
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Tone observed once more his phone. The location sent is a food stall with fishing nuances. He was wearing a blouse shirt with a mocca-colored inner navy. He looked around the shop. Maybe he should wait inside. He was greeted kindly by the waiter. Although it is considered a stall, but the front service is like being in a hotel.
In the left corner, a man in a black and long-haired jacket waved his hand at Nada. His heart seemed to stop for a moment. He approached the table that had been occupied by the gondrong man. His steps slowed as he began to approach the table. “Really this decision?” he started to mumble now. Regretting his current decision would only embarrass himself.
Tone forced his smile. Right now he has to act like he's perfectly fine. “Have a long wait, Pa?”
“Engga, really. Papa has just arrived. Papa ordered the best menu here. It's nothing, right?” A question that does not need to be disputed. Tone just nodded and kept smiling.
“Papa how are you? Kirain same Mama also.” Nada starts launching a pleasantry action that she doesn't really want to ask. Actually, he doesn't want to know either.
“eng. Mama look after the store.”
“How are you, son? Already have a girlfriend yet?” Ask Papa casually while sipping a refreshing drink. But not for the feeling of the tone.
Tone smiled bitterly but tried to look sweet despite heavy coercion. “Not yet, Pa.” says Nada while sipping the ordered iced tea. This time he realized that his lungs needed air.
“Actually Papa represents family to apologize once again to you, son. I don't know how many times I've apologized, but I still feel guilty. Don't know what else to behave in order for you to forgive us.”
Tone started to get lazy with this talk. Deep down, Nada forgave them. But to return to the situation as if nothing had ever happened, it was impossible for Nada. The plate was already broken into pieces. It can't be back to how it was.
“I've forgiven you, Pa. Just chill. No need to worry.” said Nada tried to display a smile as if everything was fine without any broken plates.
“Papa knows what Pandu did to you is evil. My mother also did not try to prohibit or stop. Even instead support his actions without finding out the real truth.” said papa at length with a regretful expression that is very clear. “Papa equally instigated the same slander that Pandu said about you and your family. Again Papa apologizes.”
Yep. That gondrong man is Pandu's real father. At the time of leaving Nada, Pandu made a story as if Nada's parents did not approve. That is what then makes Papa support the actions of Pandu to have an affair with a woman who is currently his wife. Of course they hid this from Nada.
The story unfolds when the Papa invites Nada to meet a few days after Pandu and Nada end the relationship. The second meeting was to clarify the story that Pandu made as an excuse to leave Nada. He could not believe the things that Pandu had done to him. Wondering what was the fault of Nada that made Pandu have to do such cruel thing to him.
I want to throw the whole dining table at the moment. But Nada must remain calm and strive “play pretty”. He cannot lose his emotions. It was an event 3 years ago, however. There is no point in regretting or even venting emotions. Whatever is done, it will not change the current situation. Tada noticed it, Nada understood it, but the regret continued to envelop her. Gnawing to the core of his conscience.
“Don't I have said it 3 years ago? I have long forgiven you. No need to get like this. Isn't it time to live each other's lives without having to carry past wounds and regrets?”
Saying is easy. Even Nada said that very fluently and confidently. But actually it was very heavy he did. Living days with a past that continues to haunt him is the most painful thing for him. All this time he was just trying to be strong without caring about the side effects on his mental and heart. If you have to go to a psychiatrist, maybe that's the first thing Nada will live.
“you're an adult yes, son. Very different from his wife Pandu. Papa doesn't know them anymore. One is immature and selfish, the other one is like ga care.” oceh Papa who is increasingly unbecoming.
The ears are getting hot. What does it matter that he should hear this kind of thing? What does Tone care for them? Let them with their respective problems, why should Nada hear it?
“They both just learned to sail the household ark. Small quarrels are natural for the process of maturing each person. Papa need not worry, slowly will improve, kok.” said Nada hurriedly cut the story said Papa. He was itching to leave the place.
Tone pretended to glance at his watch. Act as if after this he has an appointment with someone else. “Sorry, Pa. I can't stay long. There is an appointment with a friend.”
“Oh. it's okay son. Papa, thank you very much, wants to see Papa again. Sorry to bother you.” said Papa while standing and sticking out his hand.
Tone received that hand. “No problem, Pa.”
He immediately left the fishing shop without finishing his meal. The hunger in his stomach suddenly disappeared eaten by stories about Pandu.
