It's like saying "I Miss You"

Inner Bond

“It's been a long time no gathering of three. Mumpung tomorrow holiday, what if later in the afternoon we gather?” Let Cecyl sound excited. Because of the busy work, he almost forgot the feeling of gathering with friends.

Tone took a few piles of paper from his desk. “Later afternoon? You should ask Maria first. I'm afraid he has other plans.”

Cecyl clucking. “That problem is nothing to worry about. I told Maria before I called you. He said there was a new cafe near the hotel where he worked. There's no harm in trying, right?”

Tone smile knot. “Yes, we'll be there later in the afternoon. I'll be there after work. We met there, right?”

“What if I go to your office? Have not seen each other for a long time. I want to talk a lot with you.” said Cecyl while whining at Nada.

“Good. Come after you finish work. Let me know when I get to lobby.”

Phone connection disconnected. It felt like the three of them had not been together for a very long time. Besides, today Dewanto doesn't take him anywhere. So, it doesn't matter, does it? Tone smiled as he glanced at his phone. Dewanto's name appears on his phone screen.

“You've had lunch? Later in the afternoon I'll go with Maria and Cecyl. Is it okay if I go?” Tanya Nada while walking out of the room. It doesn't feel good if you have to interfere with other work.

“It's okay. Where you guys going? Looks like you are very happy to go with them.” Dewanto said from across the phone.

“Have not seen them for a long time. What's today's work smoothly?”

Dewanto was silent. He did not give an answer to Nada for a few seconds. “I don't go to the office. Currently waiting for the judge's decision for this trial.” said Dewanto sounding weak. It sounds very sad.

Be damned. How could Nada forget about this trial? Didn't Dewanto tell him last night? Why can he forget it? “What's the trial going smoothly? You've persuaded them to refer, haven't you?”

“I've persuaded them. But the men do not seem to want to give a second chance to improve the household. All evidence strengthens the position of men. They also have no children.”

“Hopefully the best decision for both of them.” Tone clenched his palm. For a moment he regretted if something like this had to happen. But that's not the case. He is innocent of what happened between them. That's karma worth accepting.

“How....if our marriage is accelerated? I have a bad feeling about this.” said Dewanto while staring at Pandu who was staring at the window facing out. It was hot, but calming.

Stiff tone. Didn't he just get proposed last night? But should we decide the wedding so soon? “Accelerated? When?”

“Front month.” said Dewanto steadily said that. Not a single bit of hesitation appeared in his mind. He only had a strange feeling when he looked at Pandu's eyes. It was as if the man could take back the Tone at any time.

Of course Nada was surprised. Said suddenly? Sure oes. He hasn't even prepared anything. Talking with her parents has not been done either. Does it have to be this fast? “We will talk about this when we meet again.”

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Tone is deliberately waiting for the arrival of Cecyl in the office lobby. He had asked Dewanto for permission to return home rather late. Looks like he should start getting used to saying goodbye wherever he goes. Including what he has to decide to do. Although not accustomed, but should not a wife always ask for the blessing of the husband?

No need to wait a long time. Cecyl's car drove into the company area and stopped right in the lobby. Tone was already standing by to wait for Cecyl's invitation. But his eyes were on a white sports car that stopped right behind Cecyl's car. The feeling was suddenly not good.

The car door opened up. Truly the type of sports car that costs exorbitant. Tone rushed to walk towards the passenger door. But again his steps stopped because of someone who came out of the luxury car. The Eye of Tone is perfectly rounded. Even to the point of not being able to blink an eye.

Guide out of the steering door of that luxury sports car. He walked towards Nada who was still standing glued to look at Pandu. What is this guy doing here? Didn't he go through a divorce hearing today? Tone shifted his gaze from Pandu's eyes.

“Sorry, I saw Cecyl on the road while at the gas station. I had to follow him. Actually I meant to talk to her, but it turns out you guys are going to go together?” said Pandu trying to be pleasant-natured.

Cecyl who saw it straight out of her car. He looks a little angry because Pandu is tailing on purpose. “What do you want? Not satisfied making the tone up like this? Why do you have to go back to Indonesia?”

Pandu looks very guilty. It was only natural for Cecyl to feel extremely angry. What he did to Nada was completely heartless. If Cecyl kicked him out, it was understandable and Pandu accepted all of that.

“What do you need?” Tanya Nada tried to act calm despite the fact that her heart was beating irregularly.

“For what? you want to hurt Nada again?!” Cecyl started making loud noises that almost caught the attention of some people around the office.

Tone tried to make Cecyl a little calm. He doesn't want any trouble in his office. Nada does not want to deal with Pandu anymore. But he would no longer want to be constantly bullied. Maybe there is something to talk about carefully considering the farewell of Nada and Pandu is not something that can be said to be okay. Maybe by talking to each other can make them forgive each other and then be able to live life as well as possible without any lingering feelings.

“well. I'm coming with you for a while.” said Nada agreed to Pandu's words. “I'll catch up as soon as we're done talking. You can catch up with Maria first. I will not be long.” said Nada to Cecyl who still does not accept if Nada prefers Pandu than him.

“What 30 minutes is enough for you to talk? There's nothing more to talk about, right?” Cecyl started to get anxious with Nada who was still weak with her own feelings.

“I'll try to finish as soon as possible. Sorry to have to make you postpone your meeting.” said Pandu while bowing while apologizing, especially to Cecyl who still showed a sullen face.

With a look of annoyance Cecyl reentered her car. Not only annoyed at Pandu, he was also annoyed at Nada who still could not say “not” on Pandu. And have been separated for a long time. Mary should know this immediately. Cecyl drove his car away from Pandu and Nada who were still there.

“Enter. We'll talk in the car. I don't want to make your best friend even more angry with me.” said Pandu while returning to the car followed by a step Tone who hesitated to continue. He began to regret his decision to leave Cecyl and Maria for this evil man.

Tone entered that expensive car. It was very different from his local car. Of course he wouldn't be able to buy a car this expensive with a salary of a month? It would take several years for him to be able to buy such an expensive car. “Where are we going?”

“No special purpose. I just want to say something to you.” said Pandu while turning on the car engine that did not even sound a little.

Tone went silent again, he stared at his phone screen. Should he contact Dewanto if he is currently with Pandu? Isn't that the same as suicide? But if it doesn't tell, will there be a chance Dewanto knows from someone else? Nada's mind was filled with all sorts of arguments about something that shouldn't be too thought out.

The atmosphere in the car was silent for a moment. Both are busy with their own thoughts. They separated too long. There is so much to talk about that you don't know where to start. Or maybe because there is too much to talk about then choose to keep it without talking about it.

“Today my divorce trial began. Things I've wanted to do for a long time but couldn't do because of pressure from our parents. They keep asking me to stay in this marriage. But I've reached my limit. I don't care about anything anymore. If said evil, I am indeed a bad man.”

Nada did not want to respond to anything about that statement. He had heard that the divorce trial was taking place today. But he chose to act like he didn't know. There is no point in responding to it. he will only talk about something that if it is necessary to talk about.

“I know if you've forgiven me. At least that's what you've been saying all along. But I still feel I should always apologize to you. My mistakes have been very big and should not forgive me easily.”

“Then you want me not to forgive you? You want me to continue living in resentment and hate? I don't want that kind of thing.” said Nada began interrupting Pandu's statement that began to make him uncomfortable.

“ya, at least you can punish me by not apologizing easily. At least you made me feel so depressed that you finally forgave me.”

“You know I would never do that to you, right?” Nada's eyes began to tear up. His heart aches when the choice to forgive is the wrong choice for him. His heart aches when he cannot be rude or reply to Pandu's behavior to him.

“That's what keeps making me feel even more guilty. You should hate me, should you hit me, or curse and even bully with harsh words so that you feel relieved to vent anger. But you forgive me. You know I'm tormented with that guilt?”

Tone tears can no longer be contained. “Let me down here. This conversation will only hurt each other. I don't need to discuss the past with you.”

The guide stopped the car. He clutched the steering wheel tightly. As if thinking hard about something. “Please cancel your engagement with Dewanto. I have a feeling that you still love me. So please come back to me.”

Tone shook his head a few times. I can't believe what he just heard. How could the man he used to love be so selfish like this. Could it be that this was his nature but it used to be that Nada was blinded by love?

“why? Back when I was devastated by your betrayal, did you ever remember me the slightest bit? You were happy on your wedding day, but did you know that I almost sliced my own veins?!!! I sacrificed everything. Time, energy, friends, family and even money. But what did I get? Your betrayal !!!”

Pandu's face turned pale. Slicing pulse? That sort of thing never even crossed his mind. He believes that Nada is a strong and unbelievable figure if he does that stupid thing just for the sake of a loser like him. “why did you do such a stupid thing just for the sake of a loser like me?”

Tone wiped her tears. ”It would be wrong if I love a loser?!! Can love choose where it will fall?!”

Emotions that for five years have been held deep in the heart of Nada, now he must overflow in one explosion. Time cannot be replayed, but time can provide opportunity once again. What the second chance will look like, will it be used as it should be. An opportunity that not everyone gets. Will the opportunity be filled with laughter, tears or anger. Only those who know then God determines.