I'm Putting My Destiny on You

Avoiding the Taste

Andreas rushed to snatch the suit that he had sidelined on the back of the chair. Get out of his office in a hurry.

'' Ma'am please rearrange all my meetings today. I have important business said Andreas to the secretary who immediately nodded his head assent.

'' Good Sir "

Andreas came out of the office in a suit that he put on his arm and a clutch bag in his hand. The long step left the office lobby and immediately entered the ready car in front of the office.

'' Street Sir ! '' Andreas said to the driver who was always loyal to accompany every trip. Andreas was sitting in the passenger seat. Her eyes closed depicting a heart torn by anxiety.

'' Sorry sir, where are you going ?'' ask the driver before driving the car out of the office.

'' Go home, Papa said Andreas, because the last year Andreas chose to stay in the apartment.

'' Good sir said the driver who immediately drove his car through the hot sun that afternoon.

Guilt again infiltrated the chest of the handsome man. He felt he had neglected the family who even selflessly cared for him when he lost his memory. When the family was in the disaster he did not exist. Disappear without a trace just to convince the heart of the taste he has.

Now all that remains is regret without being able to change the situation that has happened. Not to mention the news about the collapse of the heart. Leave tightness in the chest. The longing is getting hotter, when the face is imagined that may be fragile.

Not feeling a speck of clear water flowing from the two eyes that are closed. The tightness in his chest could no longer be held. A lump of taste that was piling up on his chest. To bring him to a sense of judgment for the self that seems ungrateful.

Just because he wanted to convince himself, he became a loser who disappeared from a family that taught him about the meaning of sincerity.

Andreas opened his eyes wiping away the flowing tears without excuse.

'' Sir !" syara sir the driver made Andreas aware that he was not alone. And the more embarrassed he was when the driver thrust a tissue without looking at the employer.

'' Thank you sir " said Andreas who was embarrassed.

The driver seemed to be curious . Why did his employer who was used to being firm and authoritative suddenly cry for no apparent reason. But the curiosity was pretty dammed in the heart .

'' Sorry sir has arrived ", said the driver shortly after stopping his car in the courtyard of the luxurious house of the Andreas family residence. Andreas who was dissolved in his own mind did not realize he had reached the courtyard of the house.

'' Oh yes sir, thank you, said Andreas, then rushed down from the car.

It appears that Mr. Sofyan, Andreas' personal driver, saw the employer who was walking in a hurry. Staring concerned at the man who suddenly turned melancholy without knowing Mr. Sofyan knows why.

'' Assalamualaikum Ma !" greet Andreas who has not seen the whereabouts of the Mama.

'' Wa'alaikumussalam said Mama who came out from the kitchen.

'' I'm tumben Ndre at this hour to the house ?'' ask the curious Mama, because not like usually a boy just wayangnya at home not even time for lunch.

" What's up ? " ask Mama when she sees her son's moody face. The mother and daughter were sitting next to each other on the living room couch.

" Andreas got some bad news Ma, whether it was true or not. But some say Farhan's father's family is being hit by a disaster. Alfiani was in an accident and paralyzed "Andreas said stifled, indeed he could not imagine the physical pain that the girl felt.

" Athaghfirullah hal'adzim, innalilahi wa Inna ilaihi Raji'un. Have you asked the truth ?" ask the surprised mother. Andreas shook his head slowly.

" Fariz number is off Ma" Andreas said with a lethargic face.

Guilt lingered in his heart. Long ago when he lost his memory they treated like family. But now he seems to shy away from those who are always good at treating him. It is only because the ego is hurt, when he feels he cannot be loyal to love, when he feels his love is too shallow to easily disappear.

Making her decide to move away to test the level of taste she has for Alfiani. And now when he believes, that his love is not a joke. Love is true and real, even when the body never meets. The eyes never see his presence. The vibration of the taste remains the same, and the longing for the more boiling the taste.

" Try you call Mr. Mawardi, maybe he knows about Fariz" said Mama.

" Kok me from earlier did not think yes Ma" said Andreas who immediately sat up straight and took the phone from his clutch bag.

Andreas searched for Mawardi's number on his contact list.

" Yes Assalamualaikum sir "greet Andreas politely. And the chatter about Andreas' news and company with his confidants lasted quite a long time. It was to the point that Andreas was asking for Fariz's whereabouts .

" So Fariz asked for a two-week leave, sir ? " Andreas makes clear Mr. Mawardi's words.

" Yes Mr. Andreas, because his wife has just given birth and his parents have not been able to accompany because they are delivering Fariz's sister therapy" said Mr. Mawardi across the street. Andreas choked, he really became a fool. Just because of his insecurities he lost a lot of valuable things.

Fariz was married, and now Alfiani was in mourning because of his physical injuries. Ah he really feels like a real loser. Mr. Mawardi's speech is no longer Andreas listen well. His mind wanders through the carefree time that binds him.

Until Mr. Mawardi turned off the phone, Andreas just said the secret. It feels like everything is collapsing unceasingly. He who is afraid makes the heart hurt because of the love that belongs to him. Now sit tight, cursing yourself too stupid to avoid reality.

How far he went and avoided. The feeling he has does not change, he just wasted time.

" How about Ndre ?" asked the mother while stroking the son's shoulder. Andreas bowed with heated eyes. Just imagining the girl getting hurt had cut her heart. But foolishly he doubted the taste he had. Just because of a failure that happened in his life.

" Alfiani was really Ma's accident, and Fariz she was married and had a child. Andreas was really stupid all this time to shut down access to communication with them .Just to convince Andreas' heart. Andreas' failure to maintain love for Diandra makes Andre feel unworthy to approach Alfi, Andre feels only a loser who can't even be faithful." Andreas said with teary eyes.

Mama carried the son in her arms, rubbing his wide back affectionately.

" You are not an unfaithful man Ndre. But it is destiny that is written for you and Diandra to get there. Continues now after a long separation, how do you think Alfiani yawned just like that ?" mama asked while releasing a hug. Staring at his son's bead. Andreas shook his head weakly.

" Andreas' feelings don't change Ma ".