I'm Putting My Destiny on You

Heart Crossing

Stunned looked at the pitch-black sky above. Andreas seemed to take a long breath. He was happy to remember his family. But something made his heart fret. The shadow of the veiled girl who was setting it down could not just disappear. But the fashionable beautiful girl who has long filled her heart is still residing in the heart.

At a hotel where he and his family stayed after leaving the clinic. That afternoon behind the window of his hotel room Andreas questioned about his heart . But he still has not found out about the answer a sense of supposed. Here he is greedy. Want to have two hearts, two bodies. But he was quite self-aware that it couldn't have happened.

The sound of knocking on the door broke Andreas' daydream. He walked away from where he stood. Open the door and find a smile from the woman. Andreas helped develop a smile on his lips.

'' Dear '' said Diandra when she found the lover.

'' Assalamualaikum '' said Andreas who made Diandra laugh softly then said '' Wa'alaikumussalam ''.

'' What's up ?'' asked Andreas who was still standing in the doorway. There was no intention of allowing the girl to enter.

'' I want to talk to you both. Kangen'' said Diandra who then grabbed Andreas' arm and wrestled him with spoiled.

Dave gently removed Diandra's hand from her arm while looking left and right. Makes Diandra frown, feeling rejected by the lover.

'' Do not gini not bad, we are not a halal partner'' said Andreas who saw the change in the look of Diandra's face which seemed to dislike what he did. Diandra scrunched his forehead.

" If you want to talk, let's go downstairs. There's a garden like it's under Andreas softly said.

'' Why not in the room ?''diandra asked confusedly. He used to be alone with his girlfriend in the room. Although their courtship style does not reach the stage of kebablasan. But quite often they spend time together in one room.

Making two, not new to them. But now, Andreas has changed. He did not even allow himself to enter the room. Holding the man's arm was rejected.

" It's not good, we're talking outside, said Andreas remained in a soft tone. Then he closed the door. Put both hands in her pants pocket. Walking first in front of Diandra who stared in disbelief with the behavior of the lover.

Diandra followed Andreas's steps. Grabbing the man's arm and holding him. Andreas was stunned for a moment, wanting to take off that hand link. But he did not reach the heart, even though there was a sense of guilt in his chest. He let his woman hold on to his arm.

'' Why are you different now?, I don't know you now" Diandra said as they sat in long chairs in the hotel's garden.

" What's different, I'm still the old Andreas. Nothing changed ". Andreas said as he looked at the girl sitting next to him. Diandra smiled bitterly returning the man's gaze.

" This one is different Ndre" said Diandra who sat at a distance with Andreas.

'' What is different ?'' andreas asked not to understand what his girlfriend meant.

'' Not that it should be like this should be?, we are not muhrim said Andreas, Diandra laughed at the donation. It was too laughable in his ears when Andreas said that.

'' Muhrim?, our father is not muhrim. Then when did you make me your muhrim ?'' a very interesting question for Andreas. While he himself was in a dilemma of a sense that branched in his heart. Now the lover gives a difficult question to give a definite answer.

Andreas tried to smile gently, looking at his disappointed lover.

'' Later when the time was right, an uncertain answer came out of the man's lips. Diandra smiled bitterly, as if feeling distant with the man with Andreas.

Andreas hasn't even called his name since yesterday, let alone called him dear. Their breakup these few months gave too much distance between him and Andreas. There was a heart he could no longer touch. His girlfriend is like a stranger he does not recognize.

" Why do I feel like we're going too far ?'' the shrill question slid from Diandra's lips after they fell silent for a while. Andreas sighed, he himself did not have the right answer.

" Love me time, to give it back as it was. It still feels confusing to me ", Andreas said.

" Is there anyone else as long as we don't meet ?" finally the question came from also Diandra. Andreas felt stifled, he stared at the darkening night sky.

" If there is, it is not your fault. Because it is the circumstances that make you forget me. But right now, when you've remembered everything, am I wrong to hope that things will come back the way they used to ?" continued Diandra who found Andreas speechless unable to answer.

" No, not wrong. I just need time to get everything back where it should be." replied Andreas. Silence, the two people fell silent. Diandra shifted her seat, closing in on Andreas. Head on the shoulder of the field.

Andreas closed his eyes. His heart was turbulent, not like it should be. But he was also afraid of hurting his lover. Finally he chose silence, letting the woman lean.

Getting to know the Alfiani family so maintaining the relationship between men and women, enough to have an impact for an Andreas. He used to be so easy to touch his lover, to pour out what he felt love through touch. Without him realizing his love has been wrapped up by sheer lust.

" It's night, we should go back to the room" said Andreas, Diandra looked up at the handsome face of the lover . Then Diandra quickly kissed Andreas' cheek. Makes the man flinch and reflexes move away. Diandra laughed bitterly, she really no longer found her Andreas.

" You really have changed Ndre" said Diandra who then stood up and moved from there without saying a word. Leaving the pensive Andreas alone.

Andreas rubbed his face rough. He felt guilty every time he came into contact with Diandra. His rebellious heart could not justify what he was doing.

" I have to how ya Alloh ?" lirih Andreas's. The man stared at the dark sky that was strewn with stars. Accompany the heartbreak that is at the crossroads.

What sin would he have if he had unconsciously compared Diandra and Alfiani ?. Is it wrong if his heart is no longer comfortable with the love that has existed since the beginning ?. What can he do?, when even the heart is confused to find an answer.