I'm Putting My Destiny on You

Be resigned

Expect to lament the guilt that lingers in the heart. In the silence of the night Andreas could only raise his hand. Hope God gives him peace between the guilt that greets.

When the love that used to be like a flower is beautiful, but it can wither without looking at time. He who is actually not able to keep the love, or indeed the will of the owner of life so that the love is slowly disappearing ?.

He does not understand about love, which he knows is mortal love like the life in his path. Is it wrong for the pain caused to the heart that gives it love ?. It is only in the strands of Istighfar that he is able to chant in a third of the night.

Let the twists of his love be the divine's secret. Right now he just wants to improve. Until God will lead him to a soul mate who has been written on the destiny sheet of his life.

The soul mate destined for him, to perfect half the religion. He just needs to keep improving, so that God also leads him to the best soul mate.

Folding the prayer mat held in the hotel room where he stayed. Still with the scabbard, cocoa shirt and skullcap on his head, Andreas stepped closer to the window. Shuffling the curtains, staring at the dark sky at the end of the night.

The shadow of the meeting with Diandra, leaving a tightness that greeted the heart. When he saw the tears that were shed. From a woman who gave up on loving him.

" May you be well In the "bluff of guilt that runs through the heart. Andreas breathed deeply. It was too shallow for the taste he had in his heart, until the feeling easily disappeared without rest.

And now the doubt came, when the vibration of taste was greeting to the girl who had not been in her life for long. Is it true that vibrating is love?, or just a sense of awe that can be eroded just like that ?.

When the heart doubts itself, to whom it must convince itself. Other than God who has laid down his destiny. It takes time to establish the heart, so that the feeling in the heart is not just a sense to have. But holy love is not about worldly lust.

Andreas closed the curtain back on the window. Walk over to his bed for the night before returning to his town tomorrow. He said goodbye to the family's father if he would come home tomorrow. Before Dad left himself there. He had met Diandra.

Andreas sat down leaning on the head of the bed after putting the skullcap on the table next to the bed. His eyes were closed, but he did not go back to sleep. Somehow the side of his heart seemed to tell him to stay away from Alfiani first. Give time to him who just broke up.

Not because he feels broken, but to convince the heart that love is real. He just wants to move on, and set his heart to re-accept the feeling of love.

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Kumandang adhan dawn echoed, wriggling Diandra who was asleep comfortably in Riko's lap.

" Athaghfirullah hal'adzim "shocked Diandra who realized she was asleep in Riko's lap. Diandra's slightly loud speech woke Riko who fell asleep by leaning on the back of the chair. The man smiled at Diandra who seemed to have gone awry while trying to sit up straight beside him.

" Sorry yes Rik, you so follow sleeping outside because I "said Diandra who is trying to fix the veil that can be made sure it is disheveled.

" It's okay, just relax " said Riko without releasing the gaze from the face of the newly awakened woman from her sleep. Beautiful, one word in her heart. To make him reluctant to turn his face away.

" Down by mushola ya Rik" said Diandra when they were in the parking area of the building.

" Okay" said Riko short while riding on a motor matic that he borrowed.

Diandra who had promised herself to learn better, was enveloped in guilt. How could he spend the night with a man who has no family relationship with him ?. What said the person who judged himself, he who had decided to hijab but still easily went with the man and secluded himself. Good thing last night he was still in the care of the cruel slander of the world's lust.

But regret is the feeling that cannot change the situation. One thing he should do is not repeat it again.

And now in the midst of guilt still lingering in his heart, he carried out the duties of two rakaats at the end of the late dawn. Riko who honestly has not carried out his duties as a Muslim, that morning his heart seemed to be knocked to bring his footsteps to the ablution.

Although somehow he has not subdued himself before the Divine, in fact he is still able to recite every reading in prayer even though with a little stammering.

Finished with his obligations, Riko smiled faintly. Realize how far he has left the creator. His life was spent on pleasure, until he forgot that he had nothing more than a deposit that could have been taken by the owner at any time.

" In, thank you" said Riko who that morning felt like finding an oasis in the arid heart.

" Make ?" diandra asked did not understand, because it was precisely she who felt she had to thank the man.

" For those of you who already know me about things that I've forgotten all this time" said Riko as he attached a backpack on his shoulder.

" What's a ?" diandra doesn't understand. He looked at Riko who was sitting on the bike.

" God "answered Riko short while smiling faintly.

" I have long forgotten my duty as a Muslim. But this morning I seemed to find an oasis in the aridness of my life. And that's your intermediary". said Riko sincerely.

" I'm also in the stage of learning to be a better human being. Although there are still many khilaf that I do, one of them spends this night with you. Because I shouldn't have gone alone with a man without a sibling bond." said Diandra made Riko smile as her mind whispered. ' But sorry Di, I enjoyed last night's mistake'. How could he not stare with satisfaction at the woman he adored in silence.

" Hopefully still forgiven anyway we did not cross the line" said Riko who turned his head back when Diandra climbed on the bike. Diandra simply smiled in response. In his heart he prayed that God might forgive all his caliphs. And lead him on the path that God has guided.

" Di, is it okay if I also want to learn to improve myself together with you ?" riko asked after running her motorbike leaving the mushola area.

" There is no problem, we both learn "saw Diandra without any intention. But Diandra's reply made Riko smile widely.