I'm Not a Man

Chapter 8

I stared at the face of the girl in the mirror. She looks very beautiful with her strong female aura.

If only I could walk as a woman. I'll look really pretty here. Probably prettier than Mika who's in papa's company.

Just thinking of imagining it, my bedroom door was knocked by someone from the outside. I, who did not wear a man, now became very panicked due to the sound of knocking on the door in my room at this time.

"Who?" I said to make sure who's outside.

"This is me Young master, I want to invite the young master to have a meal together with the younger Master's older cousin," said a servant outside the door.

"Say my cousin, when I am full. Maybe next time we can eat together. I had a meal with my office friend earlier" I said from inside the room.

"Can ...."

"I can't, I'm on a break and don't want to be disturbed" I said quickly.

"Ba .. neither young master, I'll excuse you first," said the maid in fear.

I was a little relieved, fortunately I was always a vigilant person. If not, they will know the real me.

I can breathe a sigh of relief now, after the maid leaves my room.

I'm so bored now. I don't want to be a man like this. It's called public lying. I'm tired of lying to everyone. I want to be the real me. Because I'm not a man, I'm a real woman who wants to be free. I want to wear a woman's shirt. I want to dress up as a woman and do what women do. But maybe, it's still a bit long. Because, my current age, is still not twenty years old enough. It still took me a few months to reach twenty years old now.

That means, I still have to have a show for a few more months. All right, I have to be patient to get out of these shackles. If I'm patient, then everything I've been doing all this time won't be in vain.

.....

Tonight, I'm not out of the room at all. Even though the servants were always knocking on my door, I did not open it at all. Nor did I open, let alone the insignificant servants. I want to be free in my room now. Without the fake hair and the look of the male makeup that troubles me.

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Everything went well, I went back to the office to work like the days I had gone through. But today, something is not right for me. I went to the office with my cousin.

After a week, my mom managed to get my cousin into my core office. No matter how, mama managed to get brother Ryan into the core office, I don't know either. But today, brother Ryan left for the office with me. Because he lived in the same villa as me, then mom asked me and brother Ryan to the office together.

I'm actually kind of lazy anyway, if not for my mom, I don't like being with Ryan's sister. He's a good boy, it's just, why, I don't like him.

What kind of feeling I have, I don't know either. I may not like someone who has nothing wrong with me before.