I'm Not a Man

Chapter 28

"Mulya, why did you stop that thug?" I said as I remembered how Mulya emerged from the darkness.

Mulya was silent, she looked straight ahead. Looking at the street that is only illuminated by street lights that are so dim.

"I can't possibly let Babang fight women" Mulya said as she continued to look ahead.

"A very funny and senseless excuse."

"Then, what is the reason you want to hear from me?"

"Nothing."

For a moment, no words were spoken from each other's mouths. We were silent with our thoughts.

"I'll drive you home now Alin" said Mulya breaking the silence between us.

"Lho, you sure want to take me home."

"Sure, what should I fear. Just so you know, I'm Mulya, the one who's never afraid of anything."

"I don't mean it's Mulya. Are you sure you want to take me home? Do you not intend to take me hostage, or destroy me?" I said with a cold look.

"Don't be stupid Alina, I'm a normal human being and have a heart. I will not do what my heart cannot accept."

"You mean?"

"none. I just can't get rid of someone I don't want to get rid of."

"I know, after all, that you're just a chess pawn" Mulya said.

"What did you say!" I said very emotional now.

"Forget it. Nih wear what you should wear," said Mulya while throwing fake hair that I have always used all this time.

I can't stop thinking I'm with the man sitting next to me right now.

Whatever he's planning, I don't know either. Because Mulya is not easy to guess, and it is very difficult to know what she thinks.

"I don't have any plans Alina. It's just, I want to see what your mom wants. I want to follow what your mama's planning."

"What are you going to do with my mom?"

"Nothing" Mulya replied briefly.

I'm speechless now, I really don't understand what Mulya is thinking.

"why do you look so confused?"

"No, I'm not confused."

"Hmz, don't lie to me, I know how you feel. All right, I have one question for you, Alina."

"What's that?"

"Are you happy with what you're doing now? I want you to answer honestly from your deepest heart. If your answer is really from the heart and not a lie, then I will pretend not to know, who you really are."

"That's an easy question Mulya, you don't have to ask me to lie or be honest. Clearly, I will answer with a response consistent with how I feel."

"You know Mulya, I have only one choice in my life. I can't choose the path of life that I'm on. I don't like doing what I'm doing right now. I don't like lying to everyone with the disguise I'm using right now" I said with tears in my eyes.

"I know you're just a chess pawn. From your first answer alone, I can already feel it."

I was shocked when Mulya helped me to wipe away my slowly falling tears, with a white tissue. Mulya did it very gently.

I knew from the beginning that Mulya said I was a chess pawn. Which makes Mulya not interested in hurting me, maybe the reason is because I am a pawn.

I can't say that I'm not the chess pawn that you run. Because in fact, I can't walk as I want.

"Don't be sad, I'll take you home" Mulya said in a very soft voice.

When Mulya gently touched my shoulder, I felt a comfortable feeling for the first time.

Men with fierce faces and looks very charismatic, it turns out, can also be gentle and loving.