I'm Not a Man

Chapter 19

I can't be stale anymore now. All I have to do is, get the hell out of here. So that I may not be caught by my mother, and I will not cause more complicated problems.

With a quick motion, I waved at the taxi that was passing there.

Thirty minutes later, I finally got home safely.

I've put on my man's shirt back, so that I can easily enter the house without having to linger like a thief.

"It's good that your behavior is Nino, come out without listening to your mother's words."

I was shocked when my mother's voice touched my ear. I can't believe my mom actually came home first.

"Ma .. mama," I said in shock.

Mama got up from her seat, she walked over to me who was silent staring at the entrance.

Plakkkk

A slap landed on my white cheek. I didn't fight back at all when the slap was lodged there.

"Since you've been here, you haven't listened to what you've said again, Nino," said the mother again scolding me.

"I'm sorry Nino mama, Nino just came out for a while to buy something important," I said reasoned.

"What's that important? What did you buy, so you couldn't ask the waiter who came out to buy it?"

"It's mama's secret, I can't possibly ask the waiter to buy me what I need."

"Get in the room now, don't come out before you let me. Remember that Nino!" my mother said loudly.

I can't fight what Mom says. Since I was a child, I have never been able to live by my own will. All with the consent of my mother.

I hope, if all is done, I will be free from the shackles that mama created for me.

.....

For a week I was not allowed to go out by my mother. To the extent that, I don't know how Ryan is doing right now.

Mama never talked about Ryan's condition. Though, I ask her every day, how is Ryan's sister now.

Mama did that, because papa is not in this country. He was taking care of a company that was abroad.

"Nino, papa, you're waiting in the living room" she said, opening my door.

I woke up from my house very lazy. Then to the family room, without a word to my mother.

"Nino, papa listen, you haven't been in the office in a week, have you?" said papa with a sweet smile.

"Yes pa, I've got permission for a week."

"What pain are you doing?" said papa.

"I ...."

"Nino yesterday the flu was heavy, but today it's been quiet. But I'm still worried about letting her out of the house. Because the condition could hurt again," said the mother quickly cut papa's question.

"Oh, it doesn't matter if he can't work yet. Just wait until he's fully healed just got back to work."

I just kept quiet, didn't know what to tell papa. I'm just a chess pawn that Mom played. So, everything mama arranged.

If you look around, my life is actually very sad. Allah cannot walk alone.

There's a real sense of free will, it's just, I can't do what I want.

I don't know, why mom forbid me to talk to you, about what's been going on lately.

No matter what the reason, mama prefers to lie to papa, about everything that happens after papa goes abroad.

When I asked my mother why, she would answer.

"Just run your errands, and just follow what your mom says. Because everything you do, it's all for you."

This is what my mom would tell me if I protested or wanted to know more.

I had thought that, mama only made me a tool to get papa's wealth.

But that thought, I quickly threw it away. Because I remember how my mom fought alone abroad to raise me.