I'm Not a Man

Chapter 20

I was so happy to see Ryan coming home.

"She!" I screamed when I saw him enter the house.

I rushed up to him who was still sitting on a wheelchair and had his hands wrapped in white bandages.

"Are you okay now, brother? Is anyone still sick?" I said with worry.

"That's it, don't worry about me Nino. I'm fine now" said Ryan, forcing a smile.

"Are you really okay? I'm sorry for making you wretched like this" I said very sadly.

"Nino, what the hell are you. Boy time is whiny like that anyway."

I smiled wryly, as I listened to Ryan's sister just now.

Turns out, Ryan didn't know I was a woman, not a man like he sees right now.

"Nino, why is the bull there, let's quickly bring your brother to the room," said the mother pay my daydreams.

"Well ma'am," I said as I took over the wheelchair from the man.

"Sister Ryan, can I know what your life was like?" I said when you were in Ryan's room.

"Tumben you want to know what my mass life is like Nino."

"Hmz, if you don't want to tell me, it doesn't matter."

"What do you want to know about kaka?"

"What is interesting according to you," I said as I sat next to Ryan's brother who was sitting on the bed.

"Well, since you are my cousin, I will tell you about my life."

"But .. seems like nothing interesting from my life story. It's all about the very sad life I've lived. When I was a kid, I always lost what I loved. I always lose the people I love and the things I love. Until I was an adult, I also lost what I liked because I was taken by the same person" Ryan said, looking blankly ahead.

"Sister mean?"

"You know Mika, she's the girl that's close to you in the office. She is the girl I love the most. But unfortunately, he turned to love Mulya."

"Mulya?"

"Yes, Mulya is your stepmom's sister-in-law. It wasn't just Mika from Kaka. He also took everything I had since I was in junior high school."

I don't understand what Ryan's talking about. But I came to the conclusion a little, that he and Mulya had been hostile since middle school.

"Why did Kaka and Mulya get hostile as teenagers anyway?" I said I don't understand.

"What the heck Mulya is, when only because Ryan's brother is my niece, he can be just as kaka."

Ryan smiled when he saw my behavior. He always laughs amusedly when I say and gets upset if there's anything.

"You look like a Nino chick, when you're a little bit craggy. It's exactly the same woman" she said with a smile on her lips.

I was silent, but in my heart, I confirmed what Mr. Ryan had said. I'm a woman, obviously acting like a woman in general.

It's just that I had to change my true self. All because of my mother's request that I could never accept with a chest.

"Nil."

"Hmz" I said, looking at Ryan's face.

"What's up, brother?"

"Are you interested in Mika's beauty?"

Deg.

My heart suddenly felt very amused by the question that Ryan's sister had said.

Yes, I like women, my men are women. I like men, not women.

A male?

Suddenly I thought of a handsome man who was sturdy and very charismatic at that time.

A very handsome man, who was able to make my heart beat fast, without me being able to prevent.

"Nino, what are you thinking?" said Ryan while touching my shoulder.

"Eh, there's nothing, brother. I'm ...."

"Are you thinking about Mika?" he said suddenly cutting my words.

"What's? Yes, not Ryan. I might like Mika. Mika is a girl" I said accidentally.

"You mean, you don't like girls? Do you like that guy?"

"Don't macem you Nino, don't try to like your fellow boys" Ryan said.

"Sister Ryan what the hell ah. I'm not like that, huh. Don't think anything of me."

"I'm out first yes, there's something I want to do" I said as I walked quickly away from Ryan's sister.