I'm Not a Man

Chapter 29

Mulya actually drove me home. But, he did not deliver me to the front gate of the villa, but rather, only to the point where papa's men were boisterous to find where I was.

Not Mulya who is not responsible, only, he does not want to be seen being with me. For the sake of my safety and keeping a secret meeting me and him.

"Young master, are you okay?" said the man anxiously as he looked at me walking towards them.

"I'm fine" I said flatly and got into the car.

"Go home now" I said to papa's men.

They looked a little confused when they saw my strange behavior.

On the way home, I didn't say a word to papa's men. I just fell silent without a word, while continuing to look outwards.

"Where are you, Nino? Why just go home now?" my mom said when she saw my face.

"I'm tired ma, want to rest now," I said as I walked away from my mother who was in the family room.

"Nino!" yelled at my mom with her loud voice.

No matter how she screamed at me, I didn't want to ignore her. It's not my intention to be an ungodly child, but I'm very tired now. Not only tired body, but also tired heart.

I closed and locked the door of the room. Then lay my body on the bed, to release this body tired. But can not let go of this heart fatigue.

"Nino, are you asleep?"

The soft voice of Ryan's sister was clearly heard from outside my room.

I wiped the tears, then walked towards the door.

"Not yet to sleep, brother," I said in a raucous voice, which was increasingly unfounded by the tone of the male voice I made.

"Hmz, can you come in Nino?"

"May you brother."

Ryan's brother ran his wheelchair, to get into my room. He was still unable to walk normally, after the incident.

"What's the matter with Nino? Brother see, you ignored your mama just now," said brother Ryan starting the conversation when we were together in the room.

"Your voice doesn't sound like Nino's usual, what's wrong with you?"

"No, there's nothing, brother. My voice is like this as well as usual," I said a little wave.

Why did Ryan realize something was wrong with me. In fact, this voice changer is still installed well.

Every time I wear this fake hair, then automatically, the voice changer also works well.

"Don't lie to sister Nino, you're like you just finished crying. What the hell is going on?"

Apparently, brother Ryan was really able to recognize my voice which was a bit hoarse. I was crying when he knocked on the door of this room.

"I, I'm not crying, brother," I said.

"Good if you don't cry. Remember, you're a boy, you can cry."

I just fell silent while smiling wryly at Ryan's sister.

"Oh yes, you continue to rest, brother wants to go out now," said brother Ryan as he turned his wheelchair.

"Did you want me to take my room?"

"No need Nino, you can still go to your own room" said brother Ryan with a smile.

Every time I see Ryan in a wheelchair. I felt a very strong sense of guilt lodged in my heart.

I'm the one who made him have to use that wheelchair. Although it is not permanently deformed. But he had to spend some time sitting on his wheelchair.

Hopefully one day, I can repay Ryan better. I want to atone for this guilt, by restoring what makes Ryan's sister happy.

But when, and how. I also do not know when my intentions will be achieved.

There are, right now, I'm in a very difficult time.

If Mulya leaked my identity as a woman to papa and to everyone. So, it was ruined all my mother's plans. Automatically, I'm also in big trouble, if that big secret is exposed.