I'm Afraid of Falling in Love

Meet Agla

Is it true that if you initially pretend, it can finally be real ?

- Blue-Eye

Bandung, September 2018

It didn't feel like I had been sewing for two weeks. I thought sewing was easy, but it wasn't. I need to be able to measure, cut, pattern and set the gas right. My one problem is that I haven't been able to properly regulate the gas. People say my gas is always blurry. So focused I sewed so I forgot about the arrival of Agla to Bandung.

Agla asked me to meet at a cafe close to school first. Well this time I will kindly obey his wishes.

It feels like I can't wait to hurry tomorrow. Although there are still a few hours left I can not eliminate the smile.

It feels good to meet someone who feels close to us. We plan to make an agreement at 1pm. I'd better go to bed now so that tomorrow I don't wake up.

Drrrrr

I grumbled to hear the ringing sound of my cell phone that was very disturbing. I want to sleep longer this weekend because I don't wake up at dawn. Err who bothers me this early in the morning.

“Halo,” my voice is a little hoarse because it just woke up.

“Build woy.”

Still half-conscious I heard the voice, even so I recognized the voice.

“What the hell early in the morning already make recek.”

“The girl should wake up early. Nyiapin breakfast then layanin husband.”

Husband? Marriage is not yet a child. And I followed him for responding to his words.

“Hmm.”

“Eh forgot your singles eternal.”

Goddamnit! set up status again. I told you Agla was restless. I woke up instantly, my mouth ready to express swear words.

“Lah you are also single.”

“Sok tau lo, I'm not single anymore tau.”

“Lo already have a girlfriend?”

“Have a doubt.” The objection.

“Lah continues.”

“Single dong.” I snorted the same as Bambang. I was foolish to believe his words.

“Iam single iam very happy.” He continued to sing.

“Turn off yes.”

“Ehh wait wait.”

“We promise not noon at 10 am yes.”

I saw the clock on the phone.

“Whataa!”

“Don't be crazy huh?”

Now it's 8 and I haven't had a shower, haven't ironed my clothes. Not to mention dandan. Going there also takes time.

“No rebuttal point.”

Clique

I am a maniac with swollen cheeks. Makes my cheeks wider. Let's promise it's noon not morning how the hell he's a plan, my door.

“Where to go, how in a hurry anyway.”

Mama stopped my activities that would take a new break on the shelf.

“You meet Agla ma at regular cafe.”

“Angoing device?”

“Ojek ride in front only.” I said who was wearing shoes.

“Be careful on the road ya.”

“Iya ma, asslamualaikum.” My screams that have gone out forget salim hehe.

“Walaikumsalam.”

I swigged to the front of the complex. It was so quiet this morning, today was the weekend. Arriving at the ojek base I immediately asked brother ojek to take me to the cafe where my appointment.

I went down and tidied up my clothes that were blown by angina as well as my hood that was slightly scuffed by the helmet.

“This bang his helmet and here's his money. Thanks yes.” I gave ten ribuah two pieces of money to the bajek bang which was immediately replied with a smile by him.

“Still yes neng. Want to wait for her to come home?”

“Still bang no need later nebeng temen aja.”

Not long ago brother ojek went I went straight into the cafe that looks crowded. I'm looking for a comfortable seat first. I chose a table spot close to the window facing outside. Not very visible from the outside. Good because I love privacy.

While waiting for Agla to come I saw the cafe decorations that look a lot changed after a few years not here. The table is in a neat layout maybe, the wall in the temple of various figurines, also the chandelier that caught my attention since entering here. Great change over the years.

I deliberately did not order anything because I waited for Agla to come and did not want to eat because after the shower I ate first. I'm trying to call Agla who's out of nowhere right now, just be aware that she's cancelling promises I won't help her. In order to get rid of boredom I opened my social media.

Now that I'm upset with Agla for waiting for half an hour, her nose isn't visible at all. I was forced to finally get food so that there was activity. Let the people not strangely look at me.

“Longtime ta?”

“Two hours.” Reply disgusted.

“Sorry there was a little problem at home. You are the most skilled at waiting. Waiting for a mate alone is able, waiting for half an hour is not able to.

He sat in front of me, his face still the same as the last time we met. Remains impressive in my eyes. Moreover, his eyes are shady, always makes me feel comfortable when near him.

Agla watched me eating toast. He also glanced at the bowl of ice cream cup that half of which I had already eaten. Not to mention the mango juice I haven't drank. “You pesen this much?”

“Yaiyalah is who ordered it if not me. Your part came long ago make added bete aja.”

Agla finally called the waiter. He ordered his favorite potato fries as well as avocado juice. He looks preoccupied with his phone whether I'm not interested in eating.

“So how is the plan?” I deliberately asked first because Agla looks really fun with her phone and I do not like when I meet people but do not chat with that person.

Finally Agla kept her phone on the table and started to notice me. “Oh yes I deliberately invited you at this hour because we agreed to call at this hour. So look, I did deliberately invite him to chat because I was planning to tell him something. And what I'm gonna tell you about my boyfriend. I didn't say I was going to tell her that, I just said I was going to tell her something important.”

“Hmm.”

Not long after that came the ringing from Agla's phone. Wow right it turns out, I did not expect that woman was really reckless. He seems to really like Agla. Agla gave me her phone and told me to pick it up. He himself even fun to eat fries.

“Hallo.” The voice of the woman over there sounded enthusiastic.

“Iya haloo.” There was a pause after I spoke.

That woman doesn't seem to believe me picking up Agla's phone, hmm well the game's starting. “This Agla? ”

I tried to neutralize my face that wanted to laugh. “Agla is on the toilet. What's up?”

The sound in there disappeared. I checked if the phone connection was still connected or turned off. Still connected as it turned out, it seemed like the woman was really shocked.

“If you can know who this is with huh?” good question, let's start the drama. My smile became cynical.

I cleared my throat so it wouldn't seem like I was acting. I warned Agla not to make a sound. “I should ask you, who are you?”

“And I first asked, how the hell!” How come he's a nuisance. He was unexpectedly scolding me. Apparently he is a worthy opponent, not to lose.

“Yaudah I replied you don't be surprised ya.” I tried to speak as softly as possible, not wanting emotions.

No answer from him made me think he approved of me.

Very casually I said, “I'm her boyfriend and now we're dating.” As much as possible I tried to emphasize the word dating so that she thought that her phone had interrupted our dating show.

“Hah time anyway?” the answer made me a little upset because he didn't believe me.

I pretended to look a little surprised at what he said. “Yes you don't believe?”

“Agla never told me she had a boyfriend. He doesn't look like he has a girlfriend either. All this time I haven't seen him hook up with anyone and I'm the only woman close to him.” Wow, so confident of him. Let's see who wins, miss.

“Wah so well, maybe because we are ldr so you don't know.” I grinned meaningfully.

The woman went back into silence. “So what did you call my girlfriend?” I didn't feel awkward saying my boyfriend to her. Though all this time I was always awkward when discussing boyfriends with my female friends.

“Can I talk to Agla? I have a pelru with him. We also made a deal. He wants to tell me important things.”

“Wah happened to be returning from the toilet. I'll ask him in a moment.”

I glanced at Agla who was engrossed in playing gama on my phone. I kicked him because he didn't see the code from me. His eyes protested to me. Slowly moving my lips said he wanted to talk to you. Agla just told me to continue.

Looking at her who is indifferent I then said, “say nih there is a girl nanyain you?” I purposely tightened my volume for the woman to hear.

Agla just laughed at my acting. I glared at her. His lips held a grin.

“You picked up I don't see this I'm playing games of responsibility.”

I brought Agla's phone back to her ear. “Well you heard yourself he said what.”

“Ah lied maybe it was Agla fake.” She still doesn't want to believe that it's Agla and I'm Agla's pretend boyfriend. “Don't believe we send your friendly photos deh.” I coded Agla to help me this time.

Agla glanced at her plate which still had a few pieces of potatoes.”Honey it seems I do not like the vegetables moved to your plate ya” said Agla flirtatious. I glared, helped but not that too.

“No need, sorry to interrupt your date.” He looked annoyed, I immediately held back a laugh. He turned off his phone connection unilaterally.

Agla laughed out loud for a moment, I looked at her with a stern look but also became a laughing follower.

“Puass yes? But just be careful if he bothers me.” There's a little fear because he might turn me over someday.

“Hahaha he will not dare to be calm. Hahaha dear this want vegetables.”

I pelted his face with fries. Vegetables, he did not order food that has vegetables. You're an acute liar and I'm following him.

“Where is your lecture ta, safe?” asked Agla after calming her laughter.

I was silent for a moment thinking about the fate of my college which was arguably not good enough. The value is still safe but I am not sure that the material given by the lecturer will go all into my brain. “Many dizziness than safe.”

Agla laughed again and she mocked me. “Eat tuh so nentuin that choice far away.”

I'm trying to figure out what reasons make enough sense. “Gue don't want ah quality with parents. Far away the day if Ortu does not agree I can what.” Unknowingly I sighed softly.

“Ck nih ya ta, just try if you come to Jogja. Beuh there is a real race. His children are fun, where to hang out is also fun. The lecturers are friendly too. Yes exciting anyway.”

Instantly that envy infiltrated the recesses of my heart. Jogja and all my dreams are there, maybe I can reach it. Be aware what Gems are in sight now more important.

“Let's go, not interested.” Suddenly I lost my appetite for food.

“Truly, later I give you a free train ticket even hysterical.”

My eyes are shining. “Oh if it's different again the story.”

“Basic girls.”

“By the way why you don't want to be with that girl even though she is beautiful.”

“Gak ah die hot chatty know my ears.”

I looked at him for an explanation.

“In the beginning I often call with him, continue that's how long I feel bored.”

“Basic guys.” I turned his words around.

“Gue also felt it could not fully escape Intan."

“Roman-romannya there are those who have not moved on. Iyasih who can escape the love story during High School.”

“Ngeledek yes.”

I stick my tongue out at him even more to mock him.

“Keep if you already know you have a girlfriend emang he there is a possibility away so.”

Agla shrugged her shoulders not knowing. It makes me feel sorry for helping him. “Ye base has not changed Agla Agla.”

“Yes his intention is to try who knows can.”

“Ta main yuk?”

I rolled my eyeballs lazily. “It's already playing Agla.”

“Ke SMA yu.” Ask him who makes me frown. Want to go to High School try to graduate.

“Ayo follow.”

Want to not want me to follow him who will go to High School.