I'm Afraid of Falling in Love
Couples
It is enough to be yourself now about the couple let God decide. Doesn't the heart never know, and neither does destiny.
- Blue-Eye
Arriving at Joy's house, I chose to sit on the terrace because it was a little sultry. Joy walks into her house to retrieve the files and may approach her waiting guests. I don't want to know Joy's business with her cousin or coworker.
In order to overcome boredom I opened my social media account. There was a message coming in from Agla that reminded me not to forget about next week's plans. I didn't forget it was just a little unenthusiastic for what reason.
It turned out to fill the boredom by opening social media even added to my boredom. I finally opened an online library. Continue reading the novel that was delayed for a few days. I was so excited to read that I did not realize that there were two people who were watching my reading and fantasizing.
“Hoy ta.” Call Joy who's standing at the gate.
I thought so focused on reading that I didn't realize Joy and her cousin were done. I looked up to see Joy's helmet-blocked cousin. He opened his helmet glass and smiled at me. Although it was not very clear how his face was, I smiled back at him.
They seem to talk for a while, I don't care about it, it's none of my business. Cousin Joy waved to me and Joy, who Joy responded to. While I returned cool to pursue my reading action.
“Asik really like.” Say Joy and sit next to me.
“Hehe Yes responsibility.”
“Udah in order?”
Joy just nodded and looked at me with a gaze that I don't know I can understand the meaning of her gaze either.
“Kok can yes.” Said Joy. I didn't hear too clearly because I was cleaning up my stuff.
“Hah what Joy.”
“Eh is nothing kok.” Joy stood up and closed the door.
“Come said he wanted to go home.” I nodded and followed his steps.
***
Monday mornings are always annoying because they have to get back into a routine. Let's get up don't sleep again, you have to course. After coming home from Joy's house yesterday, I immediately sat on the bed. She could not sleep at night, so she ended up watching Korean dramas until 1am. Wake up to pray and go back to sleep after that. Get up at seven to get ready for the course.
Inexciteably I entered the course place this time. It felt like drowsiness continued to attack me during the course study today. Before Mother Nining reprimanded, I tried to concentrate and look seriously studying. Even though the results still failed miserably.
“Gemata is done yet?” it wasn't her question that made me a little nervous, but her thunderous voice filled the classroom that made me become nervous and stutter all at once.
“Be lum bu.”
“This try see.”
I went forward clumsily. With trembling hands gave my work to him. I feel like this thesis session even though it has never. Hopefully soon. Eh kok discuss the thesis trial anyway.
“Emm this why is still not straight anyway?”
I scratched the back of my head that was covered in a veil in confusion. Let alone mother I don't know why it's not straight. “Hehe don't know bu.”
“Sini let's try mommy pointerkin so that tomorrow can change the material.”
I followed Mother Nining who was sitting at my machine table. Bu Nining turned on his machine and started preparing some sheets of cloth.
“See and take a good look at Gem.” I nodded obediently, his word like an ultimatum.
“If you want to straighten it, save the clothes first. Then watch the boy. After that keep the collar cloth parallel to the guy wearing it. Take the gas slowly. If you want to be straight, pull the collar until the ends are fused then the gas slowly. Once it gets to the guy pull it to the end, then the gas comes back."
I nod like a stuffed cat in a toy store. Maybe I was wrong so that it was not parallel. After listening to the explanation and seeing firsthand the practice of Nining's mother I became enlightened.
“Now you try.”
“Good bu.”
I did according to the instructions and example of Nining's mother earlier, but still a little trouble.
“Nih when it's up the boy tidy back. Try lifting up the shoes first.”
Nining's mother interrupts me again and teaches me. I obeyed his orders and went back. Finished, the result is better than what I handed over to Nining's mother earlier.
It turns out to be true. It's not me who can't, it's just that I don't know how. Maybe if I don't deposit it to Nining's mother until whenever I can't. Thank you very much Ms. Nining for her knowledge.
Today I can finish my job well. Although not getting compliments but Bu Nining looks satisfied with my work this time. Yuhu could rise his learning level.
***
Hay Ta
I frowned when I saw the message from Joy. There's an angina in the afternoon like this she sent me a message. Joy cannot be guessed.
Yes Joy
Busy huh?
I didn't just come home either
Whereof? Not off
That was Joy's class. Now I take a sewing course near the house.
Ohh, not bother?
What does Joy like suddenly biin deg-degan deh?
What's up
I asked back because I was confused. On the one hand tired after studying the course but on the other hand curious about the strange nature of Joy.
Just want to ask
Oh ask me
Call me ta
Before long the incoming phone ringtone was beautiful. I hurriedly lifted her up while sitting up straight. Suddenly my throat was a little thirsty.
“Ta not busy nih?”
“Cock by Joy.”
I wet my throat with cold water.
“I want to ask you something about can you?”
“Ask what it used to be Joy.”
“If your dream male criteria how ta?”
Uhuk uhuk
I choked on the cold drinking water that now feels hot and numb in my throat. Like Joy was shocked by something, how could she ask such a strange thing.
“Can repeat Joy the question?” I was hoping to be anxious for fear of hearing wrong earlier.
“I want to know the criteria of your husband's dream candidate?”
“Clear.”
“Ta instead diem sih.” Joy's voice restored my consciousness.
“Kok nanya it sih.”
“Ta can not do if asked it directly answer do not need to go back to ask.” How to be an upset Joy.
“OK okay for a minute Joy I think about it first. Your question is small but heavy.”
“Hmm.”
“Eh by the way you are not busy Joy.”
“Gak ta off this har.” Looks like Joy is really upset her tone looks unfriendly.
“Good Joy, the criteria is how Joy is not grandiose anyway.”
“The good, dear family, seiman, able to take me to a better path is Joy.”
No reply from Joy made me think back to what I said just now. Is it true so my criteria for a future husband.
“What matters is dear to me Joy.”
“Means that he is ugly, has nothing, unemployed you want as long as he loves you.”
It's my turn to be upset now. “Ish Joy isn't like that either.”
“Hemm yes yes.”
“Kok tumben sih tanya soan.”
“Why is there a problem?”
“Ya not really, but strange aja.”
“Keep that asked so Adrian is not strange.”
“Ish Joy.”
“Oh yes ta men who yesterday nyapa you in kondangan who?”
I guess they forgot about him, apparently not. I finally explained who the man was in detail to Joy. Luckily Joy wasn't as sepo as Adrian and wasn't as leaky as Adrian either so I could breathe a sigh of relief. Finished with Joy's phone I got a message from Numbers.
The number of men I know from the psychology community. In recent days I have been involved in messaging with him. He's a college degree below me, but maybe because his love of psychology makes him look smarter than I am. I love psychology but never learned it.
Numbers once told me about the envy I felt back then. He said that all humans are created perfectly, so never be humble.
At that time, I thought I was incapable. I doctrine myself that I am no better than the Princess. I never think about my strengths and only think about my weaknesses that make me feel small. Numbers say that all men are equal before God, except for one's faith.
So from that day on I will not demean myself, if I do not respect myself others will think the same.
Can you already respect yourself?
Ah yes, that's a good number
What makes you feel inferior
Ah not only envious of friends who are surrounded by many men
Huh huh? You are envious because of that
Hahahah ta, ta as long as you know yes ta as beautiful as his female man will still choose a good woman to be his wife.
Really so? I asked in my heart. Rina who is married to the most wanted upperclassman is already proof. But Rasnaya still believes it.
The name of the man was always impressed with the beautiful permpuan and can be said dark eyes. But still for the affairs of the escort wants the best.
So yeah I just found out hehe
Yes, about our soul mate will never know, only we can choose it not because of a mate for our future
The key is to be sure that someday you will get someone who is worthy to be with you. You also have to be sure that he is the best mate that God has chosen for you
If that's so why should worry about the affairs of a soul mate or partner is not it?
I thought about the words Sabila tea earlier
Flashbacks
“Teh according to teteh reasonable not if at the age of entering 20 an do not have a boyfriend ?”
“Lajar lah emang ad ayang requires that age has a girlfriend?”
“Ya not really, It just feels weird.”
“Whimsy how?”
“When my friends already have a gandnegan and I am still alone. “ I imagine some of my friends who often go for a walk or konnagan with his girlfriend.
“Instead you should be grateful.” I looked at the Sabila seriously.
“Bersykur the?” the sabila nodded.
“Actually not strange. I don't want to date either. If there is already someone who wants to be serious directly just do not want to date ah.”
“Well if so do not have to date.”
“Nih ya teteh you know.” I approached her to let her shine.
“More now it's satisfied aja main. It used to be that way too. Mumpung is still delicious. Everywhere is also delicious, especially if you can find your own money delicious loh.”
I feel so good about being single. Not only nnagis Bombay because of guys. My mind is free to think of anything.
“Keep yes if you already have a guy that is complicated. Kayak teteh now is still at awnings.”
“Means?”
“Forward does not reverse.”
“You go forward he's still playful. In broke up he did not want.”
“Complicated yes tea.”
“So, mending complacently first is now mah. You are still studying in college.”
“Hmm yes tea.”
Flashback.
The one thing I can catch with a boyfriend doesn't mean I can be happy forever. One of the reasons I decided not to go out again was because I had a heartache when I first started. Staying while being affectionate. Worse still, I was just made a place of impingement.
If you think it's true too.
Having a boyfriend is a lot of rules. Not to mention if his girlfriend is jealous, add complicated. If the term now is possessive. Satisfied alone are single times that will not be repeated. Better now rest because tomorrow will watch the movie marathon huhuyy.
Doesn't having a boyfriend not necessarily make him our soul mate, right?
