I'm Afraid of Falling in Love

Close to Pandu?

We are not magnets that attract each other, but I am not someone who easily falls in your life, tying yourself with the meshes of your charm.

- Blue-Eye

D: Already have a boyfriend?

Me : No

Pandu : Wow by chance then

Me: Sorry to sleep

Man: He said he was busy

I turned off the phone data. My chest rumbled, not because of some sort of thumping from falling in love, but because of an upset. Have a right what he asks like that. Just know this, how ya. You are good Pandu, but good is not enough for more than just friends.

I was so upset I threw my phone in the bed. Clean the paper scattered with the origin, clean all the dust on the mattress. All I want now is to rest my mind.

I closed my eyes for a moment, reopened them while looking at the green ceiling. Nah! No way! Why the shadow of Pandu who smiled mockingly as if it was on the ceiling of the room. I rubbed my eyes again, there was nothing there.

Huft, why now Pandu is messing with my mind.

Can't! We know him, though he is good and always helps me. I'm not necessarily in love with her either. Talk in love I so remember the events of third grade Junior High. Where when starting to fall in love, even dumped, sliced once.

Will I fall into the same hole? Don't let that happen. It is better now that I finish the article first than to think about Pandu.

***

Out of the bathroom, I rubbed wet hair using a towel. Sitting in the living room while looking for an interesting spectacle, unfortunately nothing interesting.

Mom put a cell phone at me. Although confused, I took the phone from Mama, “from earlier the sound continues tuh.” Obviously Mama. I'm nodding.

There are many unanswered calls from Rahma Tea, there is what Rahma Tea calls on weekends like this tumben once. I called her back.

“Hallo tea?” the voice over there looks busy with the type of computer. I'm sure it must be Rahma Tea again in the office where she works.

“Iya tea?”

“Teteh called what?” I'm afraid of interrupting my time at work, so without further ado just ask the point.

“Oh it wants a task. Tax duty already?”

I patted the jidat. The task of the killer lecturer who I myself do not understand how to do it.

“Before tea.”

“You want to work together?” the bargain that I will certainly agree with is that it is not Saturday.

“Yahh but not now dong.”

“Let alone the task is also not collected today really, at most two or three weeks again if not wrong.”

I breathed a sigh of relief, thank goodness it is still a long time. I don't understand this tax at all. There are so many parts, not to mention parts.

“You know where, on campus only yes.”

“Successful teteh.”

“If at home teteh how?”

I was silent for a while, “all nginep, let's dong times.” Further.

“Iya deh later say Mama first.” I doubt.

Sudha this big Mama still forbid me to stay at people's houses, not my friends. I don't understand his way of thinking how, worrying is okay but I also want to be free.

“Don't get to ya.”

“Good tea, although no promise hehe.”

“It was a long time ago, again in the office nih.”

“Oke the spirit of his working tea.”

Tired of that television show, I decided to go into the room. I have a lot to do today, including the writing I just made yesterday.

Back and forth I read the plan, but the idea of writing had not yet emerged.

Better now I say yes, if playing sosmed later addicted again and difficult to stop. Watching YouTube is the same as Sosmed. Read the task materials, that seems like the option I avoid the most.

Watch movies on your laptop.

I also decided to watch a movie on the laptop, this time I chose to watch a Thai movie related to the world of education, hopefully after watching this I can get inspiration to write.

Early watching I was a little dizzy by this film, whether my brain capacity is still minimal or indeed the flow is back and forth and from two sides. Even so, my tears came out while watching it.

Cursed are the people who say cry because the film is meme-menye, because for me if a film succeeds in making the audience get swept away with the scene played. That means the film has managed to touch the hearts of the audience and the acting artist is indeed good, not just playing a role.

Especially in the film that juggles ‘Teachers Diary’ this female role is very touching me. A teacher who is determined and dare to take risks. He did not want to give up his tattoo and to pay for his clumsiness, he had to teach at a remote school called ‘School Kapal Selam’.

By teaching a different method, which is to make movements to make it easier to remember something. Ms. Ann, not only a teacher who teaches theory, but also the meaning of responsibility as a teacher itself.

Indeed, not only material satisfaction that makes a teacher happy, nor teaching in a place full of comfortable facilities with many students, but how to still have the spirit of teaching with all limitations. Science is not just for those who can afford it, is it?

In this movie I know that life is not just about theory. Here are the practices in it that we should apply in everyday life. It's like math for a fisherman.

Now I understand why back in High School, my physics teacher always made groups for practice. The answer is because life is not just about theory. However, theory is also important, so that in practice it is not only perfunctory.

I still remember, when I was about to face the exam for the first grade. Physics Teacher grade 10 gave the task group—bedua— to make a tool from the material that has been studied. If not wrong—aku and my friends—make a hydraulic bridge from wood.

Not only the material we get, but also the practice of making a bridge that is quite difficult. Bridge of shabby wood— unused—jured into a beautiful bridge with theoretical physics. Although with the limitations of materials, but the bridge was so with an attractive design— in my opinion.

I finally found another inspiration to write. There is a correlation between watching movies with the events of High School first. Not sorry I used to go to ipa major while now going to economics. All knowledge is useful, nothing is in vain.

The points to write the article I have got, just write the article, hopefully it can be finished quickly if there are no obstacles.

“Gemata.” Shouted my mother from outside the room.

Just hope there's no obstacle, uh come the obstacle. I think I should keep that idea well first.

“Iya ma.” I screamed as I moved to inspire him. I'd better hurry to get to him. If not later the next screams will be even more powerful.

“Sini first.”

I walked over to Mama who was in the kitchen. “What's wrong ma?”

“Ta to supermarket front dong. Mama needs margarine the same brownish ingredients that you often buy it.” it seems Mama will make cakes and brownies.

After washing her hands, Mama gave me a piece of paper. “That's a list of groceries you should buy in the super market. Here's the money.”

***

“You are waiting for tea?”

I stared at the supermarket in front of me with a gamang, it seemed full. “No need to mang, fear ngantri.”

The motorcycle taxi driver who happened to be my neighbor nodded, after receiving money from me immediately he turned around and reinstated the bike. I stepped into the supermarket, right with me at the cashier the buyers lined up.

Without waiting again I immediately searched for the ingredients that have been written Mama. First I go to the spice rack, usually the brownies blend with the seasoning. After getting it, I put it in the grocery cart.

Passing through the noodle rack, I kept quiet for a while— looked over the noodle rack, I was attracted to the ramen that had a blood red cap. Looking from the look of the package—it looks good, I took it one.

Passing the toiletry rack, I bought soap, rinso, a pack of small shampoo sets. Back past the drink rack, I bought 500 ml full cream liquid milk.

“What more jewel?”

I almost dropped the bottle I was holding. I turned around and saw Pandu standing behind me— smiling sweetly. Is Pandu sweet, huh? Kok so mikir—apaan anyway.

“What's first?” ask again.

What do you think people in supermarkets are buying? Buy that wood. “Again buy food.” Regardless of Pandu's presence, I stepped back.

“You didn't ask me what am I here for?”

I take two margarine—where is better ya—I weigh up which margarine I'm going to buy. I guess Pandu sudha went from before me—turns out no. “For sure if in the supermarket, want to buy cement?”

Pandu chuckles, how come I get goosebumps huh. Never mind, I'd better have some margarine soon which I'm gonna buy. I tried to reach into my pocket, looking for the whereabouts of my phone that didn't seem to exist. I patted the eel, must have missed it in bed.

“Where are you going?”

“You go home.”

“Mau in anterin.”

I turned around, staring at Pandu. “I can do it myself!” press me who immediately slid towards the cashier.

“Truly don't want?” bargained again.

I shook my head, getting tired of the line not being long, but it was a long time ago. Hope to leave soon fromini— don't see Pandu anymore. Behind me—Pandu—not silent, but instead whistling that makes me more tired nearby.

Hurry up, cashier in service.

Wanna see a cell phone, don't bring a cell phone. Fate, fate must accept such acute boredom. There are friends, the behavior is absurd not playing. In order to get rid of boredom I check back the items purchased afraid that someone is missed, it can be dangerous to forget to buy something.

“Total so 150 thousand mbak, want to use cash or debit.”

“Use cash only tea.” I gave you three pieces of fifty thousand.

“There are more to buy, here are drinks and bread again promo, buy two free one maybe even want to buy for home.”

I smile kindly while shaking my head, “I like water mbak not colored hehe, if this bread Mama I want to make cake.” I said while showing her some cake ingredients.

It was a bit impolite to say so, it was my jail nature that somehow suddenly just appeared. After settling with the payment, I immediately went out while checking the receipt received, maybe there was a miscalculation.

“Recheh really laughnya.” This time I was not surprised because I was focusing on checking the receipt. Without seeing Pandu I walked ahead of him.

“Truly do not want in anterin, I'm good loh will circulate safely to the destination.”

“Gak!”

“Galak very, I am safe you don't bite.”

I thought he was a dog, right. “Even if you follow it is not safe.” I said as I got on the ojek, leaving him alone.

During the journey I was thinking, why does this one hair apes can meet with Pandu. Shopping together again, why can you continue to meet with Pandu, in addition to meeting at the course?

“Neng is his shopping.” I almost forgot the groceries stored in front of the motorcycle.

I turned around and approached the ojek again, “sorry yes sir forgot.”

“Ah is okay. Don't forget often, dear is still young.” I smiled awkwardly at him.

I approached Mama who was sitting in front of the television. “Tumben once a long time, you shop where the hell?” mama asked as I sat next to her.

“Salahin a cashier who served him long.”

“Nyalahin others again.”

“If you don't believe in going alone.” My words go into the room.

Instead of saying thank you or what this even wronged his son because long ago. Already know waiting is exhausting, let alone waiting that is uncertain. What the hell so ngaco, continue to make another article mending.

So fun to write articles do not realize already want magrib again. I put the papers on the bed, under the mattress and on the table. After the magrib I rested for a while like that, filling up the ammunition and seeing the group whether there is a task or not.

I searched the phone on the bed, tumben a lot of notifications that came in. I read them one by one from above. From class groups containing task and group announcements. I'm a group again with A Sharif in the course of Islamic studies 3, thankfully there is no need for adjustment anymore. The rest is just talking about vague ngaler, complaining about the task and all other protections.

From the online authorship group there is no task today, it is free if you want to make a poem please if not also okay. Because today I am tired of taking a break in poetry. At most if there's anything important I'll make it.

Switch to Agla chat which informs you that tomorrow will be to cfd. Okay okay, anyway, sports. How long has it been no sport. There was a chat from Pandu, I hesitate to open it or not.

Pandu : Tomorrow is there an event?

Me : Yes

Guides: Who is the same?

Me : Kepo

Drive :

Cockfruit is some kind of food, isn't it?

Well, not in reply anymore

I was so happy that you wanted to reply

What is my fault and my sin, my dear

Until you don't return my message

Don't do it, don't do it

Really soon, darling

Hehe sorry to sing

I turned off the data faster than usual, what kind of a Pandu it really is. I love making my life so quiet. Thinking about it makes my head wince, just ignore it. I have to finish the article task immediately.