I'm Afraid of Falling in Love

The Secret Leak

Sometimes you act at will and sometimes my reasoning is hard to digest about everything. This quote is right for you and I who are lost.

- Blue-Eye

I keep my phone at the table, no longer interested in reading anything. “Kan his chat on Facebook is not whatsapp.” He fell silent and resumed his work.

As for what purpose Pandu asked about it continues, from yesterday angry only because I did not return the message. Whether I want to return the message or not. He's not my girlfriend, is he?

“Nih.” The new coming Titan tea gives something to Pandu. Pandu smiled and gave money to The Titan.

Pandu opened the black plastic, it turns out he bought krispy tofu. Scout shut off the machine and start eating it. “Nih want?” Pandu.

I'm shaking. “Why does daydreaming continue?” I didn't answer him he gave me a skewer of tofu.

“Aa.” Her word was angered that saw me not take a stab to know it. Pandu instead thrust it right in front of my mouth, inevitably I open my mouth and eat it.

“Do not daydream later kesambet loh.” His words that now give me one more skewer, this time I took it and ate it myself.

“Who is daydreaming.” It was me who now turned my attention to the cell phone again.

“Well this is what you like not ngaku.” I mbluh menggam, tired if serving Pandu who do not want to lose.

Sometimes you act at will and sometimes my reasoning is hard to digest about everything. A quote that kept me quiet. Thinking, what Pandu did was at will and somehow my reason was difficult to digest it. Very good that makes this quote, can know the state of someone.

“Kan daydreams again.” Say a Guide before going outside leaving me alone. I was thinking about Pandu anyway.

Agla :

Ta, sunday to the usual cafe yuk.

Me :

Wanna what? You are going home.

Agla :

Go home, so do the rhyme too.

Me :

See later.

Agla :

Wait, don't let it come.

This is called coercion not hijak! I grumbled at Agla's same attitude as Pandu. What men always do is yes, act arbitrarily. Without knowing whether the interlocutor wants to or not. Half-heartedly, I was looking at anything.

“Why ta?” ask Pandu who has returned.

“Nothing kok.” As much as possible just be ordinary, do not let Pandu know I am upset.

“If girls talk okay it is usually the opposite.” The hand of the Guide knocking on the table made me annoyed again.

“Sok know.” My passing ketus left him with a gaze full of his question mark. Bodo is very, he can conclude anything. I'd better deposit the results immediately with Bu Nining.

***

“This new nice Gem.” The firm and loud voice shocked me who was staring at the cloths piled on the table, already cut according to the pattern.

“Why bu?”

Instead of answering Ms. Nining instead told me to take some cloth. This time it's still a bobbed pocket but the second version. Confusedly I took the fabrics according to the barrier of Bu Nining. I'm not dismissing it's very happy because I can change the sewing material.

“It dong if studying, which is serious let the result be good.” Miss Nining is praising or insinuating me yes, indeed all this time I do, play bekel what.

“Good ma'am, but this is real right?” many ensure.

“It is okay, although there is still a little wrinkle but it is still reasonable unlike yesterday.”

I scratched my head embarrassed, “kan yesterday do not know how bu.”

Bu Nining approached me who still chose the fabric, “so kemairn don't know yet?”

I smiled, “maybe yes ma'am, because it's wrong continue.”

“There is a real learning, if anyone does not know it is just do not be pampered. Don't kayak Nia in sip a very hard at love yearya.”

I'm silent, Nia? Nia tea means? Why is he so? It's none of my business, why do I even think.

Still, up at the machine table I'm still thinking. Am I lucky to be one step ahead of Nia Tea. In the past, I had a thought that I was the most stupid in this course, in fact when I knew it from my mother there was a sense of pleasure that seemed to tickle me.

“Dreams again, instead of work.”

“Eh.”

Pandu glanced at the pile of cloth that has not been sewn, “still pocket bobok.” His words that now even separate the fabric that piled it.

Instead of helping me even pay attention to Pandu activities, “iya, one bobok two but.”

“It wants to be teplak first.” I immediately nodded and took over Pandu's activities.

Pandu is still busy with his activities separating large and small fabrics. I myself was busy plagiarizing the pattern in the large cloth that became the basis for this two-boiled pocket. Finished with that, I took the smallest cloth and started small.

Drrrrr

“Astagfirullah.”

Let alone Guide me in shock, the gas just ran away. After his surprise Apndu even laughed, “still can not manage gas?” ask him who is still laughing.

I pouted, he ruined my four-six spirit mood alone. “Still.” Ketus.

Pandu laughed once again, making me want to hit him alone. “Ish.”

“Oke-oke.” He began to stop his laughter.

He took the small cloth I had to sew.

Pulling my hand to the machine at the back. He also kicked out the people sitting there. Fortunately, the person wanted to move places, otherwise I might have been the target of his frustration.

Pandu told me to sit down and he started the engine. “Ngapain here anyway?” just pissed.

Pandu chuckles, “mau learn lah, or..” Pandu body leaning towards me, instantly jaid was-was. What do you want this freak?

“Have tried to start that work.” Pandu pointed to the cloth he was carrying earlier.

I began to fold the cloth and would store it in the machine before the voice of Pandu interfered with me. “Not Permata.” I looked at Pandu confused.

Pandu. “See there is a distance in the machine, you want how much distance for this?” because I did not answer Pandu continued, “we use a distance of one from the sewing machine only yes, see.” I'm nodding.

He arranged the fabric at a distance instead of just now. I just fell silent stiff with his behavior, this close distance makes me awkward and confused. It's not that I don't want to be close to men, it's just that I'm as scared as I used to be.

“Try to start sewing, slowly, set the gas and make sure the distance is straight and the same.” the word and advice Pandu immediately I do.

Drrrr

Turns out oh, apparently, the engine gas ran away again. I know next to me, Pandu held back a laugh. He went forward, from the movement of his body that only visible behind it, he was like looking for something.

Looking at the approaching Pandu, I pretended to be busy breaking into the stitches that had just taken off. Pandu gave me a long piece of cloth that was still intact, but not shaped. I looked at Pandu confused.

“Try learning to gas with the cloth first.” Said Pandu, lazily I followed his advice.

Seeing me who was just speechless Pandu lowered the needle, right near the cloth. The closer Pandu gets, the more embarrassed I get. “Do not diyatin.” After saying that I bowed.

Pandu chuckles, “haa. oh yes hehe.” Pandu sat in front of me, but his gaze was fixed on Master who was seriously sewing.

Drrrr

It's the same, I complained in my heart. This time Pandu did not laugh at me, he took my stitches, examined them and looked at me seriously.

“Don't get too excited dong sewingnya, kalem aja. Just chasing ghosts. Try selow little, slow down.” I snatched the cloth in Pandu's hand with ogah-ogahan back to sewing.

Drrrr

“Formally fit on paper how to learn?” ask like a frustrated person.

Huh! It's good that he finally gave up on me. “Learning is the time to see aja.” I answered who was trying to sew again.

“Hah come,” he sighed harshly.

I thought Pandu would just give up. Wrong as it turned out, he got up and approached me again. This time his body was right behind me. I could even smell her perfume that I don't know what it was, it stung.

“Awas.” I'm off.

“See.” He pointed at the cloth to be sewn.

“See again.” He pointed at his feet which were stepping on the gas.

He lowered the needle right at the base of the cloth. “If you want to sew it the needle should be below.” I recorded it well in my brain.

Pandu began to run the machine, I carefully pay attention to the activities of sewing PAndu. Starting from the way he arranged the gas, his hand that pushed the cloth or his head back and forth looked towards me.

Foot Pandu in the press back, “liat, this is called brake, if for example the gas is blurred just press his legs back. Also try not to press the shoes when sewing.” I'm nodding.

“See yes, slowly run it.” He started running the engine back, he's good at managing gas. Lah me?

“Now.” I looked back at Pandu. “If it is done, pull the needle up with in boseh. Here try to see the result.” Pandu gave the stitches to me, it's good that I became jealous of him.

“Bill you trybin.” Scout got up and pushed my shoulders to sit down. I'm afraid this doesn't work.

With mixed feelings I kept the cloth right under the needle. I lowered the jaruk according to Pandu's instructions earlier. I turned to look at Pandu, Pandu Malha's chin told me to try to suppress the engine gas.

I closed my eyes for a moment and slowly pressed the gas. Just a few seconds I stopped again because the gas is still blurred. “Pelan-pelan.” Pandu Sweat.

“Don't rush try.”

I took a deep breath, taking it out slowly. The spirit of the Jewel this time can definitely. I press the gas slowly, the engine starts to go. Stay calm, I said in my heart. Slowly my hands are moved so that the stitches are straight.

“That's why try to relax, more slowly. Set the gas well.” The speech of Pandu this time was like a mantra, my brain and body were now trying to work together.

Slowly but surely, this time I can set the gas. Finished sewing I turned towards Pandu. Smile widely and Pandu also smiles with relief. We did it, my cheers.

“It could.”

“Hehe.”

“Try now directly start in his bobok pocket cloth.” I nodded enthusiastically.

Pandu smiled at my spirit, “sangkat Permata.”

“Still Guide.” Sincerely said.

Until the time showed at half-eleven I was busy sewing, Pandu several times pushed me to stop. time to go home in a moment, he said.

Not that I think even reply to it by saying responsibility in a moment, that's if you're engrossed in the activities that are determined by me.

Pandu shut off the machine I still use, “already, sana tes-beres.” The broom she was holding was now given to me. With a frown I got up, tidied up my stuff first before it started sweeping.

***

“Bu said yes, assalamulaikum.” I was the last one out saying goodbye to Mom who was still busy cutting cloth.

“Be careful on the road yes, walaikumsalam.”

“Today is not in college?”

My step stopped back turned towards Mom, “Gak ma'am, his college holiday until yesterday.” Ms. Nining mnegangguk.

No more questions from Ms. Nining made me turn around and walk back outside the course. I was thinking if this sip b already knew that I was in college.

“So busy it's because of college?”

I turned to Pandu who was now standing in front of the door. My surprised face seemed to have answered that question. Did Pandu hear the conversation earlier with Bu Nining. Haduh just relieved because sip b no one knows that I went to college, uh now even someone knows, Pandu again.

“Why not say?”

“Say what?”

“If busy college.”

I stared at Pandu confused, “have to?”

“Ya don't know either, but if you say I will know when you are free.” Ohhh so, so he realized that all this time he was interrupting my time.

“Let's busy college say aja.” Shouted Pandu from the front of the gate temoat course to me who had been riding ojek.